Heavenly Holiday

Although with glitch here and there before we finally arrived to Malacca, the outing was fine. I thought of using the word holiday but for a day of outside activity (read site seeing), I guess the real work is outing...
What I could say about Malacca is, one day is not enough to cover every places of interest. Although the state is not big but the traffic jam is massive. Especially around the Dataran Pahlawan area. And since it's one way city, one wrongly turned road could make you go another big round. We were tired with driving rather than site seeing. Then opted with the final resort by riding the beca which proved to be fun.

The first plan consist of going to Ayer Keroh after we toured the city, but as we trapped with the traffic jam, the plan was aborted. Adam was fussy during the trip coz he wasn't feeling well tapi still enjoy the trip. Dia yg usually happy berposing ambil gambar, was a bit gloomy tapi maintain active.Tak senyap duduknya...

Adam naik atas katil and asked mommy to take his pic by giving the camera to me.
Daddy yg terus log in sebaik sampai..hailah..cuti pun mau kelija ka?

You should wear sunny also la dear like Adam..taklah squinting masa posing berkerut dahi...patut la Adam maintain baby-faced..dia pakai sunny laa..hahahaha.

"verr..verr..verr...versi Adam untuk river.Dia amek suku kata akhir jek bila bercakap.

Nilah pose gaya my hero yang ala ala adventurous gitu.

Barulah decent sket posingnye. Tapi jenuh la mommy tunggu sampai dua orang ni stop talking and giving full attention to the photographer.
Inside the capsule..or whatever they call it masa berpusing in the Eye of Malaysia.
Adam dan Abang beca yg hafal buku sejarah...hehehe..bleh recite sejarah melaka tuh.

Sebenornye Adam stop nak minum susu tapi daddy suh amek gambo..coz gambo mommy takde.hahaha..nyibuk la mommy kat sebelah Adam tuh.

Angin Timur Laut

Memanglah di PD skang angin tengah bertiup kencang...bukan setakat di tepi pantai nan indah tu je tapi dah melanda sampai ke dalam rumah ni. Hari ni hubby ada business meeting di Manjung so I am at home melayan prince sorang ni kat rumah. Mula tu nak juga ikut since teringat nak jenguk rumah kat 'Venice of Perak' tu but on the second thought, tak sanggup nak meletihkan badan ni. So masa tengahari tadi dapatlah call untuk standby kawalan jenazah untuk Almarhum Yang DiPertuan Negeri Sembilan yang mangkat lebih kurang jam 1145. So far setahu aku kawalan ni lelaki yang akan ambil but since dah disuruh standby, aku standby jelah...sebabnya leave pass tak buat and weekend pass pun tak isi. Takde reason la untuk tak berada in station. TETAPI..hubby aku tu bercuti (dia sangat jarang bercuti dan sangat susah nak dapat cuti) and pegawai bertugas contact dia untuk buat kawalan. Dah lah dia jarang cuti..bila cuti jadi camni lak...yang membuatkan kepala aku rasa 'membesar' ni sebab ramai lagi pegawai yang berada di KL yang tak bercuti...tapi hamba Allah sorang ni yang bercuti jugaklah yang nak diganggu.

Hubby aku yang berada di Manjung tu dipaksanya balik segera. Sedangkan pegawai di KL tu tak cuba dihubungi atau dicari dulu...pelik aku dengan Pegawai Bertugas MTL ni. Of course sebagai anggota tentera bila dipanggil harus melapor segera tapi ni bukanlah darurat atau ada operasi yang perlukan tindakan serta merta. Patutnya dicari dulu yang mana yang tak bercuti dan berada berdekatan...I'm sure ada ramai lagi. Nyatanya bagi aku, Duty Officer MTL hari ni malas nak mencari.

Yang paling membuatkan aku angin is sebab esok dah plan nak bercuti ke Melaka...hotel dah bayar, kalau tak pergi memanglah burn camtu jek duit tu.

Benda-benda camni le yang buatkan aku kena revise balik plan aku nak opt for regularship....

and angin aku tak surut lagi...hangin jek..

worth a thousand word

Gambar ni diambil di Washington D.C tapi lupa nama tempat but the place is opposite the Washington Monument yang tinggi menjulang tu.

Multis post annis

Since New Year is approaching, I am thinking of my new year resolution...for the first time in my life. Pergh..punya lama dah hidup tapi tak pernah ada resolution ye. Anyway..better late than never kan. Next year will mark my 31 year in this world and for me it's significant in a certain way. I'm questioning myself of the Ibadah yang boleh dibawa bersama nanti, whether secukup rasa atau di bawah paras bahaya? And also I'm questioning myself of my role as a wife and a mommy. Have I contribute enough to the marriage? and am I a good mommy and providing my son with the best of everything within my capability? Then I ask myself of my responsibilities in the service...whether I've done my best for my students? Have I contribute enough in the organisation? Although I'm married but my family is never far from my heart and I also ask myself of my responsibilities as a daughter and a sister to my parents and siblings...have I give them support when they need one?

Those are among the things yang I consider under my new year resolution...beside for my own self la kan like reenroll the aerobic class, jgn ponteng solat, solat sunat diselalukan, work harder, start doing my master degree..jgn post poned lagi and few others. Since this is my first time with the resolution thingy, I'll take it easy and aim for the simplest plan...hehehe..jadilah kan for amateur.

Moga-moga dgn resolution ni, the years to come will be smooth sailing for us...Insyaallah.

Towards the year end

Ada banyak kerja sebenarnya yang perlu di settle sebelum menjelang tahun baru nanti. For most people, year end ni dah tak banyak kerja but for me it's the other way around. Actually those work taklah banyak pun dalam sense yang sebenarnya but since aku buat on my own sweet time tu yang lama tu.

Since boy tahun 2 dah start kelas during the middle of the month aritu, aku in process of settling the oral test first. Reason being, bulan Feb hingga Mac adalah bulan-bulan yang sangat busy so bila dah prepare oral awal, taklah kelam sangat nanti nak cover semua syllabus. Yang penting untuk boys yang akan ambil SPM ni, important topics are covered.

Masa aku study dulu and menimba ilmu di luar negara, education field is enjoyable in the sense of aku enjoy discover new things with my students. Even the objectives of teaching juga berbeza dari dulu. Nowadays rasanya objektif pengajaran aku dah berubah menjadi exam-oriented. Which aku memanglah against it...for me to learn something tu perlukan penekanan dan penglibatan yg menyeluruh dan berdasarkan sasaran jangka panjang. Bukanlah berdasarkan sasaran jangka pendek seperti untuk mendapat markah yang cemerlang dalam exam. Hakikatnya, apa yang students belajar sekadar untuk lulus exam tak kekal lama dan they don't get much.

Mungkin disebabkan isu-isu ni aku rasa kecewa dengan situasi sekarang and menyebabkan aku rasa perlu bagi aku berhenti dan mencari arah baru. Maybe aku akan rasa lebih gembira dan berpuas hati.

Seminar Wanita Tentera Darat 2008

Yesterday I was at KL attending a seminar which officiated by Ybgh Panglima Tentera Darat. The seminar was for the women in the Armed Forces.Usually this type of seminar will take 3 to 4 days but this time around the JKHEWTD agreed to make it to 1 day affair which for us who have to travel all the way from PD was quite tiresome.But being a personnel, none of us even quipped a complaint...alah bisa tegal biasa (thanks to my BM sifu as I'm progressing quite well in this).

As the assistant to the Master of Ceremony, I was involved with the preparation and the script. As I have to left the Auditorium earlier, I miss out a very interesting talk given by INTAN's representative.

Banyak isu-isu menarik yang dibincangkan antaranya ialah kesesuaian wanita dalam perkhidmatan Angkatan Tentera. Dlm Tentera sebenarnya, komposisi wanita adalah 9.1% bagi Pegawai dan 8.5% untuk Lain-lain Pangkat berbanding komposisi lelaki. Bila menjadi minoriti dalam bidang yang majoritinya adalah lelaki, banyak isu yang timbul dan perlu ditangani. Juga kesesuaian wanita untuk diserapkan dalam Kor-kor Infantri (Kor Tempur) dan ditempatkan di bahagian Operasi dalam misi PBB.

Berdasarkan kajian yang dibuat, fungsi wanita di bahagian operasi bagi Kor Infantri adalah terhad dan 'pilot project' penempatan anggota di 9 Bgd Para adalah kurang berjaya. Seperti yang ditekankan oleh Ybgh PTD, limitasi ini adalah kerana punca-punca tertentu seperti kekurangan infrastruktur untuk penempatan wanita. Jadi sifat kewanitaan itu bukanlah limitasi yang utama walaupun tetap menjadi satu isu.

Being in the field, bekerja bersama kaum lelaki memerlukan kebijaksanaan untuk menilai dan kematangan untuk bertindak. Jika tersalah menilai dan bertindak, macam-macam masalah yang berlaku seperti yang sedia ada pada hari ni. Apa yang penting bagi saya sebagai anggota tentera ialah kita practice disiplin yang diterapkan semasa mula-mula kita join the service.Semangat kekitaan atau espirit de corps adalah sangat penting untuk jatidiri sebagai anggota tentera. Yang paling penting ialah kita sentiasa tanya diri sendiri apa sumbangan kita pada Negara..bukan persoalkan apa Negara telah beri pada kita. Saya percaya, jika kita telus dalam following the rules and regulations, Malaysia akan sentiasa terpelihara dan wanita akan menjadi simbol penting dalam perkhidmatan ini.

When my heart cries..

It's a rare occasion for me to cry openly unless I'm so angry..I would cry because of frustration.

I would cry silently in my heart if I'm sad or if I'm hurting. Hubby would say that I'm a strong person if compare to him but the truth is I am a sensitive person who could cry easily.

But I just don't like to cry openly because I'm uncomfortable with attention. Seriously..I would slip quietly into the ladies and cry rather than dramatizing it by crying infront of peoples especially strangers.

When my late grandmom passed away...I was the only one who didn't cry.The fact that she was very close to me and I was her favorite grandaughter (being the first one)...make everyone wonder. It were true enough I didn't cry but the wound cut me deeper and until now I'm mourning her death.

I'm not an egoist who despise crying because the association of weaknesses. I'm a simple, sensitive person who would cry if I'm being hurt....and I would say..to be hurt by someone who is related to you is unbearable...and I'm so hurt..

I'm bowled over it...

After 3 years of not playing it, I was of course the lousiest player during the tourney. This statement is referring to the bowling game we had yesterday. The tourney taklah Grand Tournament peringkat National ataupun International. Tak masuk dalam Buletin Utama pun citer ni. Setakat Buletin AFAT jelah kut..itupun if ada yang rajin nak buat.Tujuan utamanya ialah untuk mengeratkan hubungan kekeluargaan sesama Pegawai tapi disebaliknya ialah untuk preparation Bowling Tourney peringkat AFATS la. Kiranya sebagai selection untuk mencari bowler yang paling mantap membuat spin ball atau sekurang-kurangnya 'sungkit' ball la lebih kurang. Sememangnya ramai bowler yang berbakat among the Officers..and ramai juga yang berbakat membuat hatrik 'longkang ball' seperti empunya blog ni la. But the most important is we had fun yesterday and I vowed I'll beat the rest in the next tourney...hehehe.Cam buat comeback la ni kan..

Yang tak bestnya cuma bila balik rumah je, terasa bekas C-Sect aku ni berdenyut-denyut je..alahai..and hubby mula la dgn sesi ceramah kesihatan percuma..hmm..

Ish..camne le nak score if lane hancus nih?

Tactical discussion..so intense nak susun strategy.

Gaya Ratu Bowling AFATS..tu pose yang penuh skill tu.

Kalah bowling takpe..kita menang pose kan Tasya..

Nilah group yang menang 1st place...tapi yang sebelah kanan sekali tu rasa salah group nie...hehehe..

Apabila hati berkata-kata

Selalunya aku akan jadi macamni le bila tibanya bulan Disember. Kenapa? Uih..sangatlah panjang ceritanya dan sangatlah besar kesannya kepada my life and also affected my closest peoples in my life. Although 'penyebab' kepada perasaan ni dah tak ada maknanya dlm hidup aku...still..first love is the hardest to forget kan?Don't get me wrong..I'm so much in love with my hubby now and I do hope until forever.

Bulan ni bulan birthday mamat yang hampir-hampir la buat aku 'sasau' dan hilang arah. I think I'm not the only one yang jadi dan rasa macamtu tapi at least aku taklah throw accusation all over his face. And I didn't spit harsh and condeming words to him. Apa yang aku buat sampai mamat tu maki hamun aku?Aku tinggalkan dia..

For people yang tak kenal aku maybe cakap apa yang aku buat tu perkara biasa...tapi bagi orang yg really know me..apa yang aku buat bukanlah mudah dan aku yang lebih banyak simpan 'sakit'. Aku tak throw accusation or &^&%$## words to him...aku simpan semua 'sakit' tu dalam hati. For me..biarlah dia luahkan perasaan dia..if itu cara dia nak lupakan aku..biarlah dia.

In every way..aku yang lebih banyak derita..banyak perkara yang aku kena handle after the break...my marriage and my baby..also kepala aku yang rasa tak mampu nak terima hakikat cinta agung aku dah hancur musnah.

Of course...hubby aku ketika itu adalah lelaki yang paling memahami dan sangat pemaaf...I don't think any guy sanggup tunggu cinta seorang isteri dan masih memaafkan isterinya walaupun dia tahu his wife was in love with other person. Until I feel I don't deserve him..

Aku tinggalkan dia kerana banyak perkara. First of all because atas permintaan emaknya juga. Aku hormati emaknya because for me she is a good mother and a strong person. Bukanlah maknya tak sukakan aku tapi kerana a reason I shouldn't stated here..emaknya merayu agar aku fikirkan masa depan anaknya..dan kerana aku fikirkan masa depan mamat ni..aku dihina dan dimaki hamun seteruknya.If aku ditempat dia pun maybe aku pun akan 'terganggu' sebegitu so aku taklah blame him 100%. Biarlah dia...

So bila tibanya bulan ni..nak tak nak aku tetap 'terasa' sesuatu...he was a friend to me before our relation became serious jadinya aku terasa kehilangan seorang sahabat yang baik...

Namun, cinta dan sayang dalam hati yang berkata-kata ini tetap utuh dan kukuh untuk lelaki yang tak pernah menghina, mencerca, menyalahkan aku walaupun dia yang paling layak untuk buat begitu pada aku. My hubby is my everything now..

Nilah first time aku luahkan after years...

Aidil Adha 08

Last year's qurban was merrier since everyone managed to get a week leave unlike this year. But yang pentingnya ibadah qurban telah disempurnakan. This year tak sempat ambil gambar pun coz terlalu sibuk dengan preparation kenduri dan afterwards nak mengemas-ngemas rumah tokwan. If tinggal camtu je tak ke kejam anak cucu nih..sempat snap few pic of Adam and cousins jek..gambar kenduri dan gambar pagi raya memanglah takde. Raya Haji ni taklah bersungguh sangat since yang pentingnya qurban dan for those yg mengerjakan hajj tu memanglah terasa meriahnya. Since I kat In laws nye place..takleh lama le ngadap laptop nih.Layan jelah gambo-gambo yg ada iye..

Journey Home

Alhamdulillah, at 1645H we arrived safe and sound at my parents's house. After give and take 5 hours journey from Klang to Taiping...I'm so glad to be home. Usually the journey is just about 3-4 hours only but due to bad traffic and equally rude and bad drivers..we arrived after agonizing hours in the car. Lucky I was not the driver and it's lucky hubby is very cool and penyabar tahap petala 8 (hehehe) with Malaysians drivers who presumbly crazy and stupid. Of course bukan semua la but yang sikit ni la yang selalu menimbulkan problem.

And I wonder about all those big, branded expensive car outside there...memang di manufactured WITHOUT signal light ke? Rugi kan...kereta mahal,besar dan cantik tapi tak diletak signal light...baik la pakai Kancil or VIVA yang kecil TAPI dilengkapi dengan signal lights. I cakap ni coz sepanjang journey home tadi..ada la sebuah kereta 'besar' ni and rasanya harga mau la cecah ratusan ribu RM..main cilok without giving any signal..I of course..dah keluar segala "*&^%()_*%$ dah..but hubby bleh lagi maintain cool dia...'Let him la Ayang..nanti kalau dia jatuh tepi gaung tuh kita stop tolong gelak je'

And that's why juga le bila ada yang accident kat tepi jalan, orang Malaysia lebih prefer tengok jek...sebabnya bila ada driver yang 'kureng'.

So..concocted in the warmth of my parents' home..I feel all trouble and worries fly away...I'm so happy to be back.

My Weekend

Firstly I would like to appologize to Suzie coz can't make it to her wedding. As a matter of fact we were at first confirmed of going coz dh beli pressie pun (heret my tired hubby to Seremban to shop..kejam tak?). But we could plan the glorious planning...when we received a phone call from MIL. Husband's relative passed away and we were expected to pay our last respect to him (Atuk Hussein was about 90+ years old) so I have to compromise with hubby since he compromised of going to Seremban though he is soooo tired. He promised we'll come back to PD after my friend's wedding on Sunday so that I could still give Suzie her pressie..nak buat camane tak dapat datang wedding awak ye suzie... But as it happened on Sunday tu aku le pulak demam again!! After HIsham's wedding, I went back to PIL's house and zonked out of earth...about 7 pm baru sedar.

Tu pun hubby asked whether balik nak singgah rumah suzie or not...since I'm not sure she's still at PD, I think of giving her the pressie later.

Adam pulanya at PIL's place coz my MIL kata biar I rehat..kat sana ramai cousin dia yg nak melayan. So today I'm alone at home but with loads of work to do since nak balik Kedah cuti Raya AidilAdha ni. Kena prepare my uniform and clean the house since balik nanti sure penat.

To Suzie..whenever you're reading this please give me a buzz since I have your pressie.Taklah mahal pun but the thought that count kan? So kena bagi jugak le kat tuan empunya nye.

Jom Bali

After shopping belikan barang my sis and barang-barang Adam di IKEA, we singgah for dinner di Jom Bali Cafe at TESCO. My sis ordered Black Pepper Chicken Chop and I ordered Mushroom Chicken Chop..Hubby lak makan Jombali keow tiew. I was disappointed for my choosen menu coz ayam tu memang instant type la....walaupun baru kuar oven tapi keras. Hubby pulanye sakit perut makan keow tiew yang ada banyak ginger..I guess memang dlm recipenye kut..but rasa kurang berbaloi la dgn ringgit yg di spent. Just minuman memang sedap la..So next time we all makan kat Jom Bali..it'll be drinks only.

Kesabaranku diuji

Oleh kerana hari ni aku takde sesi jadinya bercuti la di rumah. Niat nak kepejabat di cancell just because I think dah lama aku tak spend time dengan anak teruna kitaorang tu. So instead of going to office and sending him to his baby sitter...kitaorang duk la di rumah berdua. As usual pagi-pagi bawa la anak teruna tu beli kuih and mee hon goreng fave dia. Sikit je dia makan..walhal mama dia kata selalunya banyak dia makan...aku fikir maybe la dia minum susu and kenyang lagi. Bila dah masuk jam 1000 pagi dia dah gosok-gosok mata sambil merengek. Which signaled dia mengantuk nak tidur la tu (bangun awal budak nih..kul 6 pagi dah celik mata dah). So aku bawa la dia masuk bilik tapi dia tak juga nak tidur...siap tunggang botol susu dia kat atas tilam. Makanya lencun la comforter dgn susu dia. After tukar semua (cadar, comforter, sarung bantal dan baju dia since lencun dah dgn susu) aku pun tidurkan dia..tapi dari jam 1030 tu macam-macam kerenah dibuatkan...jam 1230 baru tidur. Aku baru je nak mop lantai disebabkan dia makan skang ni dah tak nak bersuap...dia dah bunyi balik. Baru 45 minit tidur dia dah bangun!!! Sabar sabar sabar...

While dia main kat depan aku cepat-cepat masak nasi kat dia and then suap dia makan..nasib banyak juga yg dimakannya. Yang berterabur kat lantai tak yah citer la..penat mop lantai tak habis lagi dah kena mop lagi nampaknya...after dia makan buah betik..dia merengek lagi. So aku bagi la susu and amatlah berharap agar anak aku ni tidur. Coz dia memanglah tak pandai main sorang-sorang kat depan..nak ada yang temankan sepanjang waktu. So keje umah aku hari ni hampeh satu pun tak leh buat. Aku okay lagi la...tapi bila masuk bab dia mengantuk sangat-sangat and bila aku tidurkan dia..sekali lagi dia buat botol susu dia macam botol kicap...aku menjerit sekuat hati aku...memang aku hilang sabar dah....masa tu agak-agak hampir 3 jam la aku tidurkan dia yang tak tidur jugak walaupun mata dah merah coz mengantuk...pastu boleh la selamba dia je tunggang botol susu dia...cadar and kain yg berlambak dlm washing machine tu pun tak settle lagi..dah buat hal lagi.

Sepanjang hari ni memanglah dia merengek je ngan aku walhal if hantar kat rumah pengasuh dia boleh la pulak behave himself...so today memanglah mood aku tak okay..habis semua orang kena snap termasuklah hubby. This is when people better not to mess up with me la..habis aku trash kan semua orang!!

Getting better

Today I have only morning session to complete..means I have afternoon off and finally I get to 'rest' for 5 days..pergh..best sangat la rasanya but pity those who have to shoulder the responsibility as Ketua Pengawas and Penolong Ketua Pengawas as they have to turn up EVERY DAY. They will not get a single day off and though they get paid more, I think it's not worth much. Although I have to 'standby' in case of excident, I still could get the 5 days off. Although tak boleh kemana-mana but still, 5 days off is a good news.

Adam is also getting better but we have to see his doctor as I could hear a sound of mucus in his chest..not that the mucus is singing la kan but bila dia breathing, ada dengar bunyi dari lungs dia. So, since aku ni phobia betul dgn hospital (YES I AM), preventing is better than cure is my motto.

Aku pula after 2 days of Panadol soluble..is in perfect health...hehehe..alhamdulillah. If tak sihat nanti tak buleh la pulanya nak ke wedding SUZIE nanti. Since dah dekat sangat rumahnye ngan rumah ku jadi kami akan memeriahkan lagi hari yang bersejarah tu.

Hari ni juga kawan-kawanku ada yang bertambah 'rezeki' dengan mendapat cahaya mata. Tahniah la untuk Lt Kdr Rozila and hubby dapat baby girl and also my skot Mej Norlin and hubby yang dikurniakan baby boy. Sumanya dah masuk yg the second one dah ni...aku jek yang agak tertinggal sket. Takpe kawa-kawan..I'll catch up with you all soon. With all good news..everything is getting better.Alhamdulillah.

Bugged by flu

Adam was the first victim of this circulated virus and I was bugged few days afterwards and to 'help' this matter, hubby is outstationed AGAIN..feel like crying (in fact I did when Adam woke up in the middle of the night and wanted to be carried until he fall asleep). Dah la diri sendiri rasa nak bangun pun tak daya..ini anak pula nak berdukung sepanjang malam. Usually I'm not the rajin type yg nak makan ubat...after hours of excuses and convincing barulah nak makan ubatnye..tu pun bila hubby agak-agak dah sampai ketahap nak keluar asap or api dah la tu but since I was alone with Adam and he demanded attention from me..kenalah makan ubat dengan rela hati...dibuatnya aku pun langsung tak boleh bangun..apa cerita kan?

Jaga exam tetap macam biasa walaupun demam...pity the kids la nak concerntrate dgn aku yg asyik sneeze and coughing. Nak buek camano kan..tugas tetap tugas..ampun kan den la yo.

Jam 1945 hubby selamat sampai ke rumah, disambut jeritan dan tangisan manja anak teruna dia...terus la dia tolak mommy nye ini ke tepi. But this time around I really don't mind. Cause aku nih tunggu masa je nak tumbang nih..

But I feel a huge relief for hubby is finally home...malam ni nescaya aku tidur nyenyak..hehehe

Loosen up

Adam smack down daddy soon as daddy balik from outstation.Mommy dia langsung dia tak peduli dah. He called his daddy as 'diddy'..funny.
Admiring the fish swimming in the pond. Siap meniarap lagi nak jenguk ikan-ikan kat bawah batu. He could pronounce fish clearly..so proud of him.

He chosed the fisherman cap himself but then refuse flatly to wear it tapi as I said pakai topi, mommy nak ambil gambar, terus grab the hat from my hand and put it on his head..hmm..posing nye pasal sanggup korbankan prinsip ye Adam?hehehe..

Al-kisah hari minggu

Usually we try to escape the crowd pouring to PD especially during the holiday season. Like pelik tak? Orang beria jek datang bercuti ke PD yet we like nothing better than to go outside PD. Reason is we don't really like crowded places to begin with and then I can't stand 'weird' people hanging around the restaurants or warung.

Unfortunately this week I'm on duty therefore we have to opt the option of staying at home. Since Adam is also still not feeling well though he seems okay than yesterday, we dare not venture into the heat...yup, PD is blazing with heat.

This early morning I got several miss calls from the Officer On Duty( my phone had switched off unoticed last night) and when I returned the call, bad news is waiting...one car involved with an accident early this morning and out of three, one is in coma and in critical condition. So I rushed to Seremban's hospital and by then he was in the operation theatre for emergency operation. This evening I went to see him again as I was informed he is in the ICU. The news which greeted us is not a positive one. He underwent a 4 hours operation to take out the blood clots in his brain and in a deep coma. The condition is critical!!

I feel pity towards his mom and I don't have the heart to reaveal that his son is critical when she asked me about her son. We asked her to see her son but she refused...I guess I would do the same if I happen to be in her shoes. I'll let the doctor explain her son's condition as I'm not given with 'hati batu' as it says. Please pray for this guy if you're reading this.

Not feeling well?

Alkisah semalam tokwannya Adam datang ke rumah after mengangkut barang-barang my sis di kolej. Saje nak jalan-jalan di PD nih sambil jenguk anak-anak dan cucu kata dia. My mom tak ikutlah coz hero-hero yang disebelah utara nun nak balik ke rumah. Kesian pula nantinya balik ke rumah takde umat.

Masa Adam diambil dari rumah baby sitternye itu, rasanya happy dia macam biasa dan suhu badan pun rasanya pada tahap normal..I've been watching his temp as 2 hari dah badan dia ada panas sket tapi sekejap-sekejap. Balik je ke rumah dan melihatkan ada tokwan dan makteh nye, dia pun bertukar menjadi Adam yang manja..aduh la...merengek je ngan tokwan dia. Disebabkan cuaca yang panas, dia kena la 'kurung' dlm rumah sampailah jam 6 pm. Tokwan pun bawa lah dia bermain-main kat playground depan my house. Aku nak melayan sangat dia tak boleh la coz nak prepare dinner lagi..Bila malam menjelang mula la dia merengek dan menangis kuat tak ingat...adus..dengan badan sendiri yang kurang sihat dan kurang rehat..dgn anak yang merengek-rengek dan menangis.

Tengahari tadi lepas jalan-jalan kat Teluk Kemang (Nama je duk sini tapi nilah first time jejak kaki kat pantai Teluk Kemang nih), dia merengek lagi..so just to satisfy my instinct, pegi le melawat Doktor yg selalu kitaorang jumpa..sah le anak teruna kami ni selsema..maybe dia merengek tu coz sakit kepala and sakit badan..hai lah..kesian hero nih..kecik-kecik dah sakit kepala ye..

My Cheeky Adam

Inilah dia hero rumah ini sedang menggayakan pick cap daddy nye sambil memberikan pose kepada jurufoto (mommy la tu).Jejaka diatas sekarang sedang dlm proses mengumpul pengetahuan vocabulary dengan imitate setiap perkataan yang keluar dari mulut mommy and daddy kemudian membuat ayatnya sendiri yang rasanya mommy boleh agak apa tapi daddy yang selalu confuse..hehehe..mommy kan linguist..daddy 'tukang repair enjin'..slow la sket nak faham Adam cakap apa kan Adam?

I thought it is easy

WOW!! I don't expect it to be really tiring. Tulah..simply bad judgement from my own point of view..yelah..ingatkan setakat jaga budak-budak ambil exam..apalah nak dipenatkan sangat kan? Nak kata tak pernah berdiri berjam-jam memanglah pernah..tapi this time around after habis je paper and I arrived home..rasa nak terus tidur..huhuhu..kalaulah daku ni 'orang bujang' takpelah buat perangai tidur tak ingat nih..tapi diriku ini isteri dan mommy orang dan 2 orang dlm rumah ni nak juga makan dan having conversation dan nak bermain dan bertukar-tukar idea walaupun diri sendiri ni dah tak de hati dan tenaga untuk perkara-perkara tadi. Nasib la minggu keletihan ni dikurangkan ngan cuaca yg sejuk jek dengan hujan yg turun..kalaulah panas macam hari-hari biasa..agaknya angin 'timur laut' yg semulajadi dlm badan ni selalu la kut 'bertiup kencang'.

Back to the topic, yes..though the work seem really simple but it tire you out. Ingatkan badan sendiri yg tak cukup supplement but when I asked the other, the same answer were given.

And this week jugaklah mendapat lagi satu writing task..huhuhu..badan penat ni rasanya nak gunakan otak untuk berfikir pun malas..last 2 days I asked hubby to rephrase his question coz malas nak fikir apa yg dia tanya sebenarnya..so I asked him to arrange the sentence in a simple construction dan dia memanglah hairan dan memandang aku with a confused expression..dia yang demam atau mommy yg demam nih?

Haah..aku 'demam' jaga exam SPM 2008. Insyaallah tahun depan tak nak dah.hehehe.

My Adam is 19 month today.

Treating Teething Pain
The teeth (or tooth) that causes the most pain varies from child to child. Some babies appear to have no teething pain at all. For others, it is sometimes the first tooth that causes the most discomfort -- or those big molars, when they arrive. For many babies, working on several teeth at once is the worst. Try these simple remedies to help soothe a sore mouth:
Massage

Rub the gums firmly and gently with a clean finger. The first few passes are sometimes a bit uncomfortable, but babies get more and more relaxed as the massage continues.
Something cool to chew on

Wet washcloths or terrycloth toys fresh from the fridge or freezer can be very effective. Some babies are delighted with smooth, hard objects, like the handle of a hairbrush.
Infant pain-relievers

Infant acetaminophen or ibuprofen can provide stronger pain relief on occasion, if necessary.
Topical anesthetic gels have mixed results

Do not routinely use them. They do deaden the pain, but many babies object to the strange sensation of mouth numbness. The medicines can also suppress the normal protective gag reflexes. The relief they give is very short. If you do use them for your baby, a little bit often works better than a lot.

(thanks to http://www.kiddyonline.com/)

Adam is teething again and though his front teeth are basically dah tumbuh semua (down and upper), dia nye geraham baru ada dua and another one is on the way. I think it's rather painful and cause him discomfort since he is so fussy this week. I give him Infant acetaminophen and the topical anesthetic gels...and a lot of hug and kisses kat pipi dia(kat area nak tumbuh gigi).I think the hug and kisses work better than the pain reliever as he usually stop crying after I hug him.Hmm...

Deeparaya

Last Friday after work i went back to Taiping by komuter-lrt-bus.Since hubby ada seminar seminggu di Lumut jadinya I baliklah naik bus.Takkan nk drive kan..membazir la pula dua kereta bergerak at one time. Since yesterday night we have jamuan Deeparaya (although Raya dah habis musim dah) we have to rush back to PD to make it to the jamuan. My sis ikut balik sekali and after hantar dia ke Kolej, terus la rush balik rumah. Sampai pun dah about to maghrib and after mandi+solat+bersiap, the three of us rush again to make it on time to the jamuan. Seriously, I feel so tired.With the beginning of headache (walaupun dah telan 2 biji actifast) and Adam pula semalam tak tidur masa dlm kereta jadinya mengantuk and tired la dia. Apalagi..peduli apa dia dgn protokol..exercise his lungs with his scream la. Walapun malam but the heat masih lagi terasa..and Adam ni memanglah tak tahan dgn panas (I masa mengandungkan dia tengah winter jadinya ada effect pada dia ke?hahaha)Anyway about 10 pm masa tengah makan2 dia memang dah tahan letih agaknya so I decided it was time to go back. Majlis tak habis lagi tapi I had to leave early...nak buat camane..We all just arrived from Taiping and had to rush so my 1 year old son is too young to understand that Mommy is obliged to wait for the Boss to leave first..nak buat camane kan..have to lah.

Musim

End of year is coming soon and the 'in' season is the famous BAT D11 which in layman word is the 'Borang Penilaian Prestasi'. Now is the time when a Boss really become a Boss..hehehe. Since he or she has the final say about the mark which you'll get according to her or his asessment, it's okay if you're being diagreeable or lousy when doing your work because definitely you're not going to get a good mark!!

Any suggestion?

My senior is going to pursue his master degree at Melbourne Uni. He's going this Jan and in need of accomodation. Anyone have any suggestion??He's bringing along his wife and three grown up kids and he's Indian.Please tell me if you have anything kay.

Wedding Invitation

Congratulations to Suzie and her husband to be

Thanks to Suzie for her thought to invite us though we never meet. Insyaallah we'll try to make it as her parents' house is just around the junction..hehehe..well..just nearby my house.

Where do I stand

I become a

slave

of my own principle

My mind is

lost

in thought

that continue to haunt

I become a

slave

of my own principle

My trust is

shattered

beyond repair or sympathy

that

flow

with the blood of life

I become a

slave

of my own principle.

Bleak Tuesday

Ahh well...I was so motivated to go to work early this morning but when I entered the main gate I feel so down and bleak..like an evening when there is no sunshine under the gray fat cloud..ehmm..you have to come to PD to see this cause I get to see this often when I went to the beach to take sunset pic and damn..another super gray cloudy evening!!

That's beside the point but I think it's because every morning except last and this week, I have my lil Adam who wave and give me a smacky wet kiss on my cheek. His flying kiss and his sweet smile waving at me every morning as I said goodbye. I miss my son so much and it didn't help by not having hubby at home too. Yup..the two significant others (notice the -s) in my life and definitely I can't live without them no matter how serabut they make me feel whenever I'm sitting in front of the computer pecking away my datelines.

I want my guys back at home...wrecking my perfect empty life so that I could be a happy mess.

Home Alone

Hubby is at Lumut already. He went out early this morning and safely arrived at 7 am. And I am alone at home for the rest of the week. I am on leave today and after a week out of office, i feel real excited to go back to work tomorrow..hahahaaha..

Seriously this will be the most hectic week and I'll be working till night. This is the final week before my students plunge themselves into the hole of agony..shesh..SPM does this to me I guess. And since I am a truly eligible confirmed teacher ( I was a lecturer during my stint at Lumut) who teaches school boys..I do have to do my part of being the invigilator for SPM. I am dreading this since I have to dig out my Baju Kurungs, my decent blouses and trousers (I was advised by a friend to dressed decently if I'm to wear a blouse) and my non-too-sexy-shoes. Well..I do dress decently right? If not the most fashionable?? She said most of my blouses are rather 'delicate' to be worn at school..hmm..and high strappy heel shoes is definitely a no go. Well then..since I wear uniform to work..err..I mean to school so the matter of digging out my formal clothes are nightmare to me!! Camane le cikgi2 nih decide what to wear for 5 days a week? Tedious tedious tedious...

So what do I do with my time alone? Other than ironing my uniforms and folding; to quote my blogger friend LG a mountanuos 'bukit jadian'? Yeap..keeping up with my reading of course!! And talking and smsing with hubby...distracting him from the safety and hazard seminar (something like that la) that he has to attend (reluctantly I dare say..hahaha).

F1 in Schools Challenge

Practically, they had finished with the first obstacle which was the presentation.I could say that presentation is the biggest challenge for them since all of them are not fluent in English and they learn by memorising...which the words are not at the tips of their tongue. They are good though as they work really hard. During the presentation I think I was the one with frayed nerves..hahah..talk about overeaction kan. Their performance so far at parr with other school which is a good boost for the boys' motivation. They have another round at Cine Leisure, Damansara this Saturday and Sunday, being Sunday the closing ceremony. I hope I could make it on Saturday and Sunday coz I have court appearance which I can't just cancell...if only I'm the judge la kan? Sure you do wonder apa la I have to do with court appearance right? Well, for my job describtion I did mentioned that I work on almost everything kan?hahhaa..that include being a lawyer also. Well..that's being a versatile and multitasking person.

The glory of working from home

My boss said to me, 'Hilangkan diri esok from the office'.

Well..definitely I've never done magic before but to disappear from the office but still working is not impossible. So here I am at home doing whatever work I could possibly do. But then..it's fun..I should do it more..hahaha..It's once in a lifetime nyer chance lah..and I discovered that I like to work from home...maybe I'll have to think more about it.

Tomorrow is a big day for the boys. It's their presentation day!! After months of hard work and gruesome drilling which you could not imagine..they are ready for the National. My part will be the last touching and puffing up...to look into their presentation skills. So far it's going okay but their lack of emotion when presenting is something I have to work on. One thing they have to overcome is their shyness. I try to understand their dilema of being in the all boys school but it's just so frustrating...after all, being the only team from the Armed Forces definitely will attrack more girls..lucky they are not wearing the uniform but the shirt like mine (as shown above) or they'll feel more nervous when ppl will start staring.
The price the pay when being a celeb..hahahaha...

Mommy and Daddy yang ditinggalkan

We went out to see my boys preparation for the F1 In School competition after Maghrib and after that we 'lepaked' at the warung having our lunch+dinner. It has been awhile for us (the two of us) to lepak minum nescafe tarik (both of us love to drink this) and in between having my mee celup (my fave) and hubby's order of rojak buah, we had this conversation:

Hubby: Call Adam dah?

Me: Dah just now..adik was telling me Adam is having fun.

Hubby: having fun eh?

Me: You notice tak?When there were only the two of us..before Adam I mean..being berdua je taklah sunyi pun kan? Agree tak?

Hubby: Yup...(sambil sengihx)..so, the conclusion is?

Me: Owh..don't tell me we should get another lil one..

Hubby: Huh? No...Abg nak cakap..so jgn la tinggalkan Adam kat kampung.

Me:..I have too lah...(sambil wat muka sedey)

Hubby: I know...

Me: Abg...

Hubby:..yeah..I know you want to tell me that you miss Adam kan?

Me:..errr (I'm about to cry dah at this point)

The little guy means so much to us..without him the house seem empty and eerily quiet. I keep on hearing his laugh and cry...parah dah aku nih..baru je sehari..can't imagine to go through another 13 days..hmm..

Having fun 2

He is having fun playing and drenching everybody with water. I also had fun just by watching him having fun. I miss the little guy already..hmmm..

Having fun

His newly opted ideas of constuctional fun..my guess la. Takpelah Adam..asalkan bahagia.

Friday the 24th.

Today is a rainy day..from 5 am till now (it's drizzling now) and I wish I could have my flannel power puff girl blanket (don't be THAT surprise..I'm still a little girl at heart) to cuddle with. I know I could take a long nap if I want too...I don't have to go to the office anymore since our office hour for Friday is 0730 to 1230. Sigh sigh..if only yeah?

I have to prepare my Adam's luggage as I would HAVE to send him to kampung to stay with his opah. Oh yeah..tell me about being estatic!! my youngest sis is VERY excited and been so ridiculously happy when I told my mom that Adam has to stay with them. Not to mention my mom and my dad, of course. Have I mentioned before that Adam could only last about one week without me and of course his best buddy-daddy, or he'll start looking at road in front of our house?This time around it'll be 2 weeks for him without us.Camane lah..

Reason being?..oh yeah..the sacrifice of a teacher for her students who don't even realize that THEY have a BIG exam coming up SOON. I have to leave my son with my parents so that I could give them (my students) extra classes in the evening and night without having to worry about my son's welfare. I hate the idea of being away from Adam and I'm doing this just for my students' sake.

I guess that's why my boss kindly give me a weekend off when everyone have to work, even during the Deepavali holiday....hehehehe..thanks to her..I appreacite her understanding.

Taiping..here we come..(I'm dancing with excitement)

When you cry, I shed your tears-A true story

This evening I was so frustrated that resulted earnest tear drops (read I only cry when I am angry or disappointed not sad) in broad day light..shesh. Sometimes, my expectation is so off key that people who don't really know me will be left wondering what's their fault..but that's beside the point coz I will not waste my precious fluid (read I don't often drink water) for people I don't know nor care. But for those who know me well should know what I'm like..right??

As the tears flowed uncontrolled, Adam who sat on my lap stared at me and I could see questions formed in his little head. He heaved up, pull out a facial tissue and dabbed my face and eyes.

The simple gesture warm my heart and make me cry even harder..gosh...its hormonal. I never cry, shout, argue or rising my voice infront of him before and guess he never see his mommy cry but everytime he cries..that's what mommy does. Thanks my dear Adam..you brighten my gloomy day.

Sweet thought

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.

Sonnet 18 by William Shakespeare

Semboyan telah berbunyi...

A number of friend and family have been asking the same question. Other than teaching, what else do I do with my time? Nilah kerja sampingan nye. Macam-macam ada..Take your pick.

Lenggang si paku lenggang..

Semalam nye cite dibawa ke hari ni kerana keletihan yg maksimum ditambah sakit kepala yg marvellous. Aktiviti semasa bulan ni sangat padat and tiring (what's new anyway). Semalam selesai satu la 'hutang' which was UJL ataupun Ujian Jalan Laju. It is a must for everyone in the Army. The reason aku tak cakap in the Armed Forces is because for RMN, tiada such activity..begitu juga dgn RMAF (belum pernah berkhidmat di Air Force jadi tak tau sangat la). Selama 5 tahun aku serve the RMN, tak pernah ada aktiviti seumpama ini melainkan jika aku berkursus dibawah Army. 'Ujian Jalan Laju' ni ada beberapa peringkat and semalam kitaorang buat 12 km. Actually, nama Jalan Laju ni sekadar nama je..bukannya berjalan tapi berlari.Bukan sekadar lari lenggang si paku lenggang je tapi dgn membawa bebanan.

Masa UJL dilepaskan tu hujan tengah renyai-renyai..but lebih baik hujan dari panas terik. Lebih baik sejuk dari panas kan?

Selesai aktiviti jam 1900.Aku sampai kat rumah dgn blistered leg (sakit and pedih sangat) and sore muscle. Since adik-adik datang rumah dan aku dah tak terdaya nak masak..kuar makan kat benteng. First time makan nasi goreng thailand..hehehe..balik dari benteng aku dan Adam yg keletihan tertidur tak sedar sampailah hubby kejut. Bangun pagi ni...super headache, runny nose (coz the headache), sore muscle, sore everwhere..hilang la 1 kg dah nih.

War Refugee and Victim of Cruelty

The topic itself is depressing. It has something to do with my work these days. As I'm working on a paper about our front line readiness after the 9/11 (exact title can't be released..sorry), I come across the book about Communism in the present world but I forgot the author's name. In the book, there are many pictures of war victim from Lenin and Stalin eras. Those pictures are so graphic I could feel the pain the victims were suffering. The photographer was so damn good coz the pictures potrayed the suffering through their eyes.Sadistic!!

Pics of suffering woman, man and children...yg paling tak tahan tengok pic of children yg suffer from malnutrition and hunger..yg kerja as labourer kat 'death camp' and a pic of badly burnt baby.

After looking at it, I can't continue writing...let the image be blurred dulu.

Actually, in todays modern world pun masih lagi ada 'Lenin' dan 'Stalin'. Well, since I can't continue with the book...bukalah Sun Tzu's War & Management. As hubby said..my choice of reading is somehow ecletic...

Sambutan Raya dan Malam Mesra

Oleh kerana tuan rumah ni kejenye 'jaga' anak-anak orang kat hostel jadinya malam ni ada la jamuan raya dan malam mesra untuk Kompeni Alpha.Bagi yg tak berapa nak faham sistem Kompeni ni, jangan la salah faham dgn 'syarikat' lak.Kompeni ni ala ala Rumah Biru atau Rumah Merah la masa sukan. mine is Alpha Kompeni yang dianggotai seramai 112 orang Perantis (macam pelajar la if kat luar). Malam tadi berlangsungnya majlis yg 'havoc' sebab sumanya lengkap pakai baju melayu dan since aku sorang je lady jadinya aku jelah yg pakai baju kurung.

Nice one organized fully by the students under advised of us.

I wonder..

At my area, gerai makan rancak beroperasi cuma masa bukan cuti semester. If during the semester break, hampeh nak jumpa satu pun yg berdekatan. If happen somebody come to our house, nak cari kuih muih ke apa ke memanglah macam nak cari dress MNG sale 90%. Masa aku balik kerja tadi, amboi indahnya pemandangan dengan macamx gerai yg ada. Jual mee goreng, bihun goreng, kuih-muih, ayam panggang, air macamx color...

Sometimes friends happen to drop by. Bila takde makanan tu la orang nk datang pun..nak harapkan kedai kat area sini time cuti semester memanglah meng-kuciwakan jiwa. Cam ada diskriminasi lak peniagax gerai kat area sini.

Adam's hobby

He will switch on the computer at my work station, switch on the printer (still can't figure out the reason) and will start typing. He also loves laptop (as seen). Whenever I sit on the chair he will ask to be lifted on my lap and also busying himself helping mommy doing works.What can I say?

Current state

Pretty daunting eh?And should I emphasize that the 'tower' is only half of what I have? And should I add that all those pink papers are only English Paper 2 and Paper 1 is the straight white one. The humour of teaching profession.

Dedicated for my hubby

This entree is for you dear (coz sometimes he does read my blog) as to appreciate your big help.
Hari Jumaat my working hour is until 1230 so balik ni dengan niat nak kemas all the glassware yg dikeluarkan masa open house aritu simpan dlm cupboard.
Masa I basuh the other day I put everything under my sink but balik tadi tercari-cari mana perginya the bucket..Then jumpa kat store room dah half empty...
The relief is so huge (badan and otak penat max) I feel so grateful to have him as my husband.
Berkat my parents yg carikan jodoh agaknya...hehehe.
To my dearest hubby, thanks a bunch for your help..mopping, sweeping, washing, storing and other things also.I really appreciate it.

Mee Kari Open House

We planned it for days..of what to cook during the small open house. Macamx la idea keluar (since bukan diri sendiri yg nk masak) tapi most of it kena pangkah dgn chef a.k.a hubby sayang.
Lastly we agreed on (insisted by me with not a small amount of persuasion) Mee Kari, Spaghetti, fruit, candy and cake.
Jadinya semalam bertungkus lumus kemas rumah (rumah dah kemas according to hubby but mommy cerewet he said..aiyoo.) and by 1700 baru nak start buka gelanggang silat kat dapur.
Tiba-tiba baru realize periuk terlalu kecil untuk kuah yg banyak...err..I invited almost everyone kat office jadinya if masak sket cam baiklah takyah jemput orang datang makan. So hubby rushing gi cari periuk baru yg besar...hahaha..puas hati.
After maghrib dlm jam 1955, our first guest memberi salam...masa tu kuah still tak didih lagi and spaghetti is nowhere to be seen. Nasib la yg datang tu orang 'bujang' so kena tunggu kejap pun takpe.
All in all, tuan rumah ni memang busy abeh melayan tetamu yg datang sampai tak sempat nk snap picture of the foods and the guests. Bila dah tinggal 2 families plus orang-orang bujang..baru la sempat nk amek gambar.
Last guest balik was around 2345 coz lepak-lepak tgk my albums and citer kat tv. Then I and hubby gantung kaki...lenguh!!!

Lagi Gambar Raya

Mej Hamdan kira duit raya..tuan rumah ni lak sibuk tuang air..serve diri sendiri

Makan la..ni aku yg buat nih..Mej Rohana pembekal kuih raya untuk jamuan ni.

Ko makan je mek Ti..sedap tu aku yg buat..kat kedai.

Antara juadah yg ringkas yg ada. Bukannya jamuan besar-besaran pun,sekadar ahli sepejabat.

Ad-hoc nye plan.masa break semalam Mej Rohana suggest wat pot luck so hari ni masing-masing contribute biskut dan segala macam kerepek.SEO lak contribute buah tapi tak sempat amek. Havoc la kejap dgn 'tetamu' yg turut singgah ke pejabat kitaorang demi merasa kuih muih yg di organize oleh kitaorang..bukan selalu.