Sometimes I feel at lost to deal with Adam. No matter how much I read, seeking for advices and opinions...there are times when my sanity and patience are being tested. I tried to understand his needs, his mood, his freedom but sometimes I'm too caught up with this annoying feeling that I'm not doing it right. How would you know what you're doing is right? What if it's not right for your kid although it worked well for other kids?

Everytime he did something wrong, instead of lashing out words of anger, we tried to talk and explain that it were wrong and he shouldn't do it. He used to listen and acknowledged but lately he would cry and refuse to listen.

Lately, instead of addressing himself as Adam to us...he's starting to use the word 'aku'...much to my frustration. I don't want to blame others but he is just a kid and others should know not to use improper words infront of him. We (hubby and I) even stop arguing or toned down our voices if we disagree with each other if he happened to be within the earshot. I even swallowed my *&^%$ words when I am with him.

Now I am afraid (yeah..call me pathetic, I don't care) to send him to play school next year. As much as I want him to learn to socialize and learn and make friends...I'm afraid of what he may gets other than the good things.

Last night daddy tried to make the word 'aku' disappear from his vocabulary but by using a method I personally disagree...but I didn't object...keen on making it disappear more than anything but believe me...when we go back today...we'll get to hear it back...hmmmm...

How to handle this ya????

It seems my brain is doing overtime tasks; thinking, considering, plotting, arranging, planning and lining up all the necessaries. Please note my incapability to find 'extra' free time to do the work accordingly (this month only hopefully). Therefore my body is reacting badly to these activities. I feel more tired than usual and more grouchy.

It doesn't help either when I discovered that the house we will be living at has 8 floor -to- ceiling windows. My eyes (and my head) counting the windows silently and each count bring horror to my humble self. Not to mention the rooms and corners which I will not be surprise if I cari Adam pun tak jumpa.

I didn't take any picture as the house need a good scrub first...windows, walls, furnitures and the floor.

Ada sesiapa nak volunteer tenaga? We'll treat you lunch and tea break by the way...hehehe.

The new year is approaching pretty fast. I've decided to make some changes to this blog. Nothing major to boast about, just to please me I should say. Well, changes are good (sometimes) for different perspectives. I'll have to do it bit by bit since I have to prioritize my work.

Oh, we had set the date to move from PD to KL (finally) and it's finally time for me to start working at the new place. They (my new bosses) are anxious for me to start working, they can't wait until early next year so I have to start at the new place by the end of this month. Since my schedule is pretty much full, I'll just have to find time to pack and to tidy up the house. Thank to God we don't have to cuci rumah or whatnot since dah ada orang akan buat. Only one minor setback though. Mana nak letak my furnitures since the house we're gonna stay ni dah fully furnished???Patut jual ke or patut simpan dalam stor (if stor muat all the things la).

Anyway, my parents are coming back tomorrow and we really can't wait to see them. Since I'm attending course (hubby too), we can't apply for leave. Just dapat jumpa di Airport ajelah. Tapi we'll try to go back this Friday (only one day je pun since Sabtu ada kenduri cousin my hubby and we're off to Genting on Sunday).

Should stop writing since I have legal text to read and understand and translate (huhuhuhu).

TAGGED BY SUZIE

A. Snap the picture of both inner and outer of your wallet

B. Introduce your wallet brand, price & where you buy.

The brand is Guess and I bought it for $200 at Marcy, somewhere at San Antonio, Texas. I have another one of the same brand tapi sayang nak guna so simpan dulu because itu hadiah dari hubby (sebenarnya dah pernah guna sekejap sebelum bought this one). This one I bought by my own money and dah digunakan hampir 3 tahun. The first layer dah peel off (mungkin tak tahan cuaca disini yang panas). I like black, that's why I chosed it and the design is simple enough for my taste.

C. Take out whatever inside your wallet.
I rarely keep more than RM100 in the purse so I have only small change and I have another small coin purse to put all the coins (my brother bought it for me). I keep what most people keep in their purse...mainly Identification Card, photos, driving license, bank card (I don't keep all my money in the bank which the card I place in the purse),auto card, all sort of membership cards and of course surat nikah (tak ambil lagi card nikah). I don't have any credit cards so none of it in my purse.

D. Tagged other person.
I don't want to specify...whoever want to do it, you're welcome...I do it because I have time to spare/waste (sementara ni la).

I had successfully endured (will this be the right expression?) one week of translation course. It is conducted at ITNM. For those interested, you may want to browse its' website (http://itnm.com.my/) for further information. It offers many courses which I find very useful and interesting for personal achievement (berguna juga untuk professional achievement). That was when I felt so small (literally and figuratively of course) when I realize that there are so many things I'm not aware off and things I always take for granted.

I've known for so long that my Bahasa Melayu is not something which I could be proud off (not when off handedly I would said, "Ramainya kereta hari ni") although it is my first language and as a native speaker, I should be very well versed with the language. I am not ashame to admit that I have to learn a lot for a polished Bahasa Melayu. Taklah pelik mana pun since the Mat and Minah Salleh also are not that good in proper English, I may add. The course lead me into a new perspective and I'm beginning to see hope with both languages (B.Melayu and English respectively)...other than hope for a career change also I may add.

Of late, I'm thinking seriously off setting up my own business (guess hubby's passion finally rub off somehow) where I could manage my family at the same time. I have another few years to go in the service and though many expressed their opinion that I would do well in the service, I don't expect more than getting one more rank promotion and annualy increment. I wouldn't say my wish to quit have anything to do with getting more money or being rich. I don't want to be filthy rich...I just want to be able to live comfortably without having to worry about money trouble and able to support those concerned in my life.

The translation course provide another aspect for me to consider. True enough that we have to take years and to be in the right path to be recognised as an established, good and favourite translator but it is not impossible. Nothins is impossible I gather if only we have preserverance and dedication and work hard...insyaallah.

Yesterday, while we were in between class exercise and 5 mins break, I opened my blog and edited few entries which I saved for later. I have to plan it that way since I am having difficulty with my own time management to find adequate time to write it and post it immedietly. Then my junior who happened to sit beside me for this course made some remark about blog writing. Mostly she said that she will not do it because she feels her life is exclusively hers and shouldn't made available for anyone to read about her daily activites. I usually will let any person express their opinions and will not comment unless they ask for it...so I just keep my mouth shut and continue to write but I made side remarks saying that since the blog is privately owned by me..I myself will decide what is personal and what is not. Takkan if it is personal for me then I purposely put it in the blog kan? Plus, writing a blog will help my brain to keep working to find ideas and in a way, develop my own style of writing...which is good since my work depend on that kan? For example, in this entry...I want to tell about the makan-makan thingy...well, apa yg personalnya if I keluar makan di luar and of course semua orang pun buat kan? I don't know.

Trying to make himself more photogenic...hahaha



Double peace? Yelah...nearly buat mommy threw out the food since he henyak my perut.

Daddy with candy?Why ?
Notice the candy in his hand? Daddy la yg tolong habiskan..huhuhu.

We went to Seremban 2 to buy my shoes (lagi?) and Ain's pants. After the shopping done, terasa lapar pulanya so we headed to Johnny for steamboat since Mak Teh teringin nak makan tapi malangnya penuh and have to tunggu orang habis makan? which like..forever?? Then we decided to go to TCRS because someone was craving for Nasi Ayam but then on our way there, Adam steered into Manhattan Fish Market. I guess he likes it so much when we were celebrating Abg Zahir's birthday that he decided by himself to 'force' his parents (subtly) by going straight to the table...much to our chagrin. Takpelah anakku...demi perut kecilmu itu, kami ikutkan kehendakmu. But the meals was worth it..believe me..hubby kekenyangan sampai refused dessert...hehehehe...

Ada few entry yang di postponed kerana tak sempat nak upload gambar dan yg halfway kena stop. Paling boring masa menulis blog is when you have to stop and then continue..and then stop again. Sometimes the idea 'mati' camtu je...yelah, ada masa we really into the topic and when we have to stop, the idea might dah berhijrah ke mana-mana tah. I have one more entry pasal my rambling about my little sweetheart tapi for tonight (note: dah morning pun sebenarnya) I would just share about the little shopping I did before I went to Langkawi. Entry Langkawi pun dah posted before kan...hahaha..takpelah.

Since dalam order tulis keperluan membawa long suit maka I decided to get myself a new one la since yg sedia ada memang dah agak lama. So we tried Jusco Kinta City when I was back in Taiping the other day. Takde yg sesuai dan menepati kehendak so we went to G2000 yg sememangnya 'the place' for suit la kan. Memanglah sangat cantik dan ngam-ngam badan tapi tangan pula yg tak ngam coz tangan I ni memang tak sepanjang tangan model kan. Hubby said to just beli je and then hantar tailor for alteration tapi mana la sempat nak jumpa pak tailor lagi dah. Lagipun, beli suit yg boleh merabakkan my purse, then nak kena alter...macam tak berbaloi sangat. So I said nak try kat KL dulu.

After hantar my sis kat her apartment, we went to shop for my suit. If only I know what would happened, tak la aku membazir duit hubby beli suit tu. Though later decided tak rugi in case ada lagi function in future..tapi dek geram kisah Langkawi...tak teringat dah la kan.

This time around I got a suit and 2 blouses yg sama harga dengan sepasang suit sahaja di G2000...hehehe...berbaloi la kut since hubby yg bayar.

Masa we all masuk hari dah petang but when we went out, dah gemerlap dengan lampu-lampu kat christmas trees. Adam sangat excited suruh I take his pics with the tree. Tapi dengan kitaorang sekali menyelit amek gambar kat The Street tu..hehehe. On the way balik, terperasan one actress sedang minum coffee kat sidewalk cafe kat area kitaorang amek gambar. Tapi taklah amek gambarnye...nanti jadi ala paparazzi mamarazzi pulanye.

Gambar yang paling bawah ni diambil just after I resisted the godaan to buy the Body Shop set (tapi beli juga akhirannya di airport..huhuhu)...masa tu rasa so powerful sebab mampu tahan diri tapi bila dah 'terbeli' (haha...boleh ke?) terus rasa tak.

Tapi, instead of beli barang-barang yang tidak dirancang, I mampu kawal diri and stick strictly to what I need rather than what I want. That makes me real proud...hehehe.