*my cheeky 2 year old kiddo whom I love and adore always.

Time: 1855

Date: 29 September 2009

Place: Inside my car

Me: Adam dah makan?

Adam: Sudah (sambil mengangguk kepala).

Me: Siapa masak?

Adam: Mama mashak.

Me: Adam makan apa?

Adam: Makan nasi.

Me: Nasi aje ke?

Adam: Dengan sup.

Me: Sup apa?

Adam: errr....sup lutut

Me: Hah?

*tiada lagi perbualan kerana mommy laughed so hard and tried to drive at the same time.

Tak nampak langsung muka orang nak demam panas. I snap this pic while packing our bags nak balik ke Klang. Ceria je dia melepak atas katil. Just few hours aje start demam panas...hailah..

Adam demam panas!!! Panas sangat dalam 42 celcius-39 celcius. Started when we were in the car going back to Klang last Saturday. He was his usual self cheering up good byes to Tokwan and Tok but half way the journey I noticed his 'burning' body. Since the termo was in the boot, I trusted my instinct that he indeed was having fever. We used full blast aircond to cool down his temp and when we arrived at my sis apartment, I stripped him down and put him under the shower. He protested the cold water and when I put his pj..he vomited. After that he was a bit better but knowing how fast the temperature could change, we went to the clinic...and I know I don't need the termo to tell my son was having a high fever. So high they had to insert the medicine through his small butty. We had to take turn taking care of him all night long fearing the fever will rise unexpectedly. We had to check his tempt every one hour and the digits almost drove me nuts waiting for morning..he was so feverished and not comfortable and make us so worried. What's with the swine flu and the second wave expected...risau risau risau.

We went to Pantai Hospital again that afternoon and he was admitted to the emergency. I think only God knows how I felt though I looked pretty calm handling a screeming toddler. If I nampak panic then apatah lagi Adam yg panic bila doctor sibuk-sibuk dengan dia kan? Once again ubat yg lebih tinggi dose dimasukkan and alhamdulillah he was better after that. When we went back, his temperature was around 38 celcius but when he asked for food...a huge relief washed our worry away. Bila Adam minta food means dia dah a bit ok.

Sebelum ni pun dia pernah demam panas tapi tak pernah lagi suhu cecah 42 celcius. Dah la tu boleh flactuated sesuka rasa pulanya. Semalam mommy terpaksa la minta emergency leave memandangkan anak teruna masih demam. Hari ni alhamduillah dah semakin sihat. Tapi masih perlu berjaga-jaga takut suhunya naik lagi...sementara amek turn jaga Adam ni..dapat juga siap keyed in markah, mark paper 1 and post the entry. Turn daddy start lewat sket coz daddy kena bangun awal gi keje. 2 hari yg sangat merisaukan...

Dalam ceria-ceria balik kampung, ada juga terselit rasa kurang senangnya..walaupun taklah banyak hingga menyakitkan jiwa tapi meletihkan mulut nak menjawab..hehehe..boleh kah? If rasa boleh ganti jawatan nujum istana..cuba korang teka apakah ia..adakah:

1. Bila nak membesar ni? Nape macam budak sekolah je nampak?

2. Kerja apa? Kat mana?Dah lama dah kerja?ooo..kenal tak anak pakcik nih..dia pun askar jugak..duk kat Sarawak (huh??)

3. Dah kahwin ke?

4. Bila tukar kereta? Abeh yg 2 bijik lagi jual dah? Uih..mampu ke bayar semuanya?

5. Bila lagi nak berempat ni? Dah lama bertiga ni rasanya.

Agak-agak korang la...apa pertanyaan yg ala-ala nak membunuh jiwa orang di Hari Raya? Patutnya di Hari Raya kita saling bermaafan, bertanya khabar dan menyenangkan jiwa orang yg kita kunjungi...dah la makan free I tak charge satu sen pun kan since dah semangat beraya..tapi bila mulut dah mula melaser itu ini..harus I kenakan bayaran nanti...nanti ko makcik pakcik..In order tak nak menyinggung perasaan sesiapa, I just kept quite. Lebih baik diam kan..if keluar kata-kata ku yg juga boleh tahan laser...terasa hati pula.

Seriously, if setakat jumpa dengan I 2 tahun sekali or setahun sekali, tak perlu la bertanyakan atau persoalkan tentang hidup I...bila nak tambah anak ke, bila nak tambah berat ke...bertanya khabar sahaja apa salahnya??? konpius den.

Tak sanggup nak bayangkan situasi like above pic hari minggu nanti. Sudah tentu orang ramai berpusu-pusu pulang ke kota setelah berhari raya di kampung. So we had planned ahead which road to be taken and where should we use the highway and the federal road in order to avoid that massive traffic jam. Walaupun our little one ni type yg tak kisah berapa lama pun duduk dalam kereta..daddy and mommyny pula la yg tak mampu nak bertahan. Since Monday will be hectic for me as the visit from the top brass is approaching, we decided to go back on Saturday..hoping the traffic will not be so bad..even if it is, we still have Sunday to recuperate from the tiring journey. As October is approaching, I'll be on my toes..dengan assignments and presentation..dengan students nak hadapi SPM..dengan nak start packing my stuff to move lagi. Insyaallah by December I'll start working at a new place and with different environment. And again remind my self not to buy anything anymore....bila nak pindah mula la stress tahap tak ingat nak packing. Tapi yang merisaukan jiwa is Adam...always Adam whenever we are moving. His current baby sitter is doing an excellent job that we feel a bit reluctant to move. Susah nak mencari orang yg mampu jaga your kid like her own tau. And Adam is so happy with his mama and papa, we are worried that the separation will not be a good choice. But we don't have any choice...of course people will be glad if I decided not to move since tak ramai yg nak duduk di tempat yg 'panas' ni tapi I have to consider so many things also and the best solution is to move. Most probably we'll send Adam to play school since he'll go to school anyway by this December. No more baby sitter for him. Dah la my son tu memang type yg cerewet, fussy and kepala angin..if dapat yg tak boleh faham dia???

Sigh sigh..now I have more things to consider...house to rent, play school for Adam and packing to be done..there goes my happiness.

Bila masa cuti susah betul nak ingat hari and tarikh..but when hubby was ready to go back then I baru la realize, dah hari Rabu rupanya...huhuhu..sekejap pulanye cuti raya ni. Since I have loads of work to do, we (Adam and I) stay behind while hubby, walaupun dengan hati tak berapa best, pulang keseorangan ke KL. Nak buat macamana darl...you kan kerja esok..hehehehe.

We all pulang beraya ke Alor Setar masa Raya kedua and came back quite late at night yesterday. Bila pulangnya sekejap aje, jadual pun padat le beraya ke rumah saudara mara. Perut pun penuh dengan macam-macam makanan. Daripada mourning pasal berat badan yg tetap and confirm akan naik...I just eat and will stop when I'm back to office nanti. Malas la nak fikir-fikir lagi dah..because dah tentu makan banyak kan? If tak makan nanti tersinggung pula tuan rumah.

Balik ke Alor Setar memang fun la sebabnya my parents asal dari sana so sedara mara memanglah ramai. Time macamni jelah pun nak dapat berjumpa dengan semua. Tapi disebabkan sibuk dan meriah beraya, lupa pula nak snap gambar.hehehehe..

Anyway, for few days I'll hav to stop blogging since I am going to finish my work first. Until then..take care and drive carefully.

Up till now, I still suffer the alergy..which come and goes sesuka hati. When it comes, habis la bengkak satu badan..muka pulanya naik sket yesterday..huhuhu..so pagi ni dapat la muka yg extra chubby dek kerana bengkak alergy tu. Yesterday, we arrived at Taiping around 10 am but we used the federal road after Bidor exit since we expected massive traffic jam around Tapah and Jelapang areas. Yesterday was busy as ever preparing the rendang ayam, masak lemak lodeh, kuah kacang, keow teow goreng and ketupat for the "bara'an" (in layman term it's Takbir from house to house la) last night. My dad's friends la ramai-ramai datang and bertakbir from house to house. Kiranya meriah juga la Raya with it. My MIL dah kirim lontong and kek buah kukus so tambah-tambah la menu. Masak lemak lodeh was prepared by hubby and kuah kacang too. I prepared sambal ikan bilis for the side kick..hehehe. My sis and bro catered for the keow teow..

Today pulanya sibuk melayan tetamu yg tak putus-putus datang dari pagi until la masa entry ni ditulis. Kitaorang amek turn la pula layan guests since masing-masing dah penat dari semlam. Plan nak keluar beraya ditangguh sehingga malam ni...itupun if takde guest yg datang la. As for tomorrow rasanya we'll go back to Kedah...yet to be seen..anyway, just wanna share few raya shots for today. Layan la ye. Selamat Hari Raya semua.

True enough, the gatal-gatal satu badan tu is because alergy. I went juga to RSAT although I thought of going to the clinic..mulanya gi survey RSAT ramai orang ke tidak and I was surprised to see only few people were doing medical check up. Jadinya terus daftar and within minutes dah jumpa doctor. I got one jab, pill and lotion. Lupa nak tanya the doctor whether the jab tu ngantuk ke tak but when I got to the office..I could barely open my eyes. Took a short eyes shutter on my seat and finally asked Tasya to drive me home. Sampai rumah je terus tak sedarkan diri sampai petang tadi. The swelling are better but the itchiness ada lagi here and there. Patutnya malam ni ada mesyuarat but I asked to be excused...tak selesa la tergaru sana sini.

So since baju raya kekandaku belum lagi dicari kami terus ke Seremban 2 petang tadi. Sampai je terus ke Johnny nak book tempat untuk berbuka tapi full house then kami ke TCRS pula tapi dukacita tempat semua yilek. Terpaksa le ke SR juga at last sebab kat situ tak ramai lagi. Kekandaku ajak ke Manhattan Fish Market tapi tekak orang tak sihat ni nak makan kek SR.hehehe. Next time ye darling.

While waiting berbuka dapatla 2 helai baju hubby yg agak-agak sama colour dengan anak kesayangannya..selesai satu perkara. Tengok-tengok juga blouse and kasut untuk I tapi takde yg berkenan so we decided to go to Bukit Tinggi tomorrow for final leg..hehehe. After berbuka and solat, terus ke Munawarrah tapi tak banyak pilihan sangat so tukar plan lagi nak ke Ariani KD je esok..then yang jadi beli pun curtain sliding door kat Casa Moda je..oklah juga..walaupun dengan tergaru sana sini..niat nak ke Nilai ku batalkan aje...rasanya harga lebih murah dan berbaloi sket tapi hubbyku dah berkenan ngan design yg dia chosed which he said hanya ada kat CM je. Tengok-tengok juga English cotton designs untuk rumah di Manjung..tersedak bila nengok the one yg I berkenan tu reganya RM89 semeter...erk erk erk...mak aih. Kalah harga baju raya nih.

Dari semalam lagi dah berniat awal pagi ni nak terus je gi klinik dek semalaman I cannot sleep..badan mengembang weh..hehehe..kembang bukan sebab menambah berat tapi dek alergy makan masa jamuan hari Rabu lepas. Dah la itchy tahap tak boleh describe...inflamable lak tu..sampaikan bermandi bedak Dettol yg mentol tu boleh tak rasa sejuknye. Tapi bila sampai pejabat rasa malas pulanye...so update la entry ni dulu sebelum ke klinik. I thought dah awal la update entry pasal semalam ni tapi rupanya Tini lagi laju..huhuhu..balik terus hapdate ke Tini? Anyway, jamuan semalam rasanya ok la kut..sebab Tini malas cite banyak, I'll say that tempatnye agak sempit untuk bawa family yg ramai-ramai...kan ke indah kalau dapat buat outdoor..ngadap padang golf yg permai tu. Takpun buat jelah kat mess kan?sah la kawasan luas aman sejahtera budak-budak nak berlari sana sini. Makanan banyak kut..tak perasan sangat dek melayan 'kegatalan' badan yg tak tertahan...nasib Adam behaved well except raungan masa mommy nak gi solat jelah. Kisahnya lagi..kan ke I prepared all the Baju Melayu for the guys..dah cantik sedondon kaler purple. Then elok dah siap semua, baca message rupanya code pakaian tukar ke smart casual...apa lagi, dah 1835 hubbyku buat change parade baju la.Nasib la seluar slacknye dan kemeja batiknya dah ber pressed. Tapi hilang le theme purple coz w'pun I can change into something similar to hubby's baju, banyak keje tu...nak press baju and tudung lagi..and Adam pulanye refused to tukar baju pakai slack..nak maintain hensem dia pakai baju melayu. Takpelah..at least sedondon ngan mommy ye.When asked why he has to pose like that, Adam said, 'teropong', and another time he'll says, 'Adam ambil gambar'. okkkkaaayyyy...

Dlm ramai-ramai my juniors, ngan Kak Tasya juga dia bleh ngam. Siap main mata lagi tu...huhu

Haa..yang ni versi teropong daddy mane..

Ni baru sampai lagi, tak panas lagi...pastu je anak I self served ambil buah sendiri..dah mak pak nye udah sibuk menyembang kan..

Bila sesi amek duit raya, Kak Tasya juga diusungnye ikut dia..amboi..

Me with senyum terpaksa coz menahan itchiness satu badan, Kapt Siti yg expecting and Kapt Tasya yg bujang lagi and always Adam's fave.

Bila sampai masa balik, these 2 guys were all smiles kekenyangan makan macam-macam...mommy makan apa? err..air and sate..tu je la kut..huhuhu

For dear friends yg singgah at my blog, please take the card raya. It's a bit late but hopefully everybody could still get it.

Last night as I was about to lock the door (balik dari jamuan around 2230 sampai rumah around 2235..and yup I was speeding like &*^%% coz hubby kat rumah tunggu I balik nak dinner), my hp rang. It was K Ana and when the call received at that hour, I was pretty worried. Actually ptangnye she sent me message in fb but didn't have chance to call her since I was busy preparing for the jamuan so thought of calling her today.

She's 2 month plus pregnant with the 3rd baby and yesterday she had spotting thus she was pretty worried. Yup, spotting or bleeding during pregnancy could be quite scary. We don't have to be a doctor to verify this. So I asked her how the blood look like..whether like fresh red blood or brownish like. I'm not an expert but 'been there done that' gave me a real life, hands on experience on this. But I asked her to see her doctor a.s.a.p if the spotting or bleeding continue. Sometimes it's just because of the implantation...but takutnya if it is threatening miscarriage...well, better worry now than sorry later kan?

True enough, she smsed me this morning it is threatening miscarriage...have to get a good rest. So, my dear K Ana...misscarriage is painful...not only the process but the aftermath..mentally and emotionally. It is not hard not to lift heavy things, not to carry Akil or Alil, not to overdo everything if you compare with the grief of losing a baby...so please take care of yourself first. I know, who else is going to help with chores but please ask Abg or Yon to help...at this time, please think of you and your baby okay. I will doa for your well being, for you to be well soon and for the baby to stay put in your tummy until it's the right time to come out. Take care my dear sis.

When I drive to work this morning, I noticed the number of vehicles on the road are receeding. Many had started their leaves today and had went back to their hometown. But the Poly students are still around so the area is not completely deserted like last year. So taklah rasa sayu sangat menjadi orang yg lambat balik beraya.

This morning pulanye pagi-pagi lagi dah start drizzling jadi cuaca memang agak wet and slow. Buat rasa diri malas je nak kerja.huahuahua...the students pulanye have a gotong-royong today to clean up the area before they start their holiday. Ah, well..cerita last night pulanye, as was in the previous N3, we had Jamuan Berbuka Puasa with the MB. Nothing much to tell since most of the content of his speech was about being careful when driving back, how the Army is important..bla..bla..bla..Pilihanraya soon...bla..bla..bla..and since I was not in the mood to snap pictures (takde mood pun snap juga so imagine if I ada mood..hehehe)so I took the piccas from my seat..hahaha.

Ni gambar make shift water fountain.Yg lain tengok pun tau abenda kan? Tapi this one maybe tak berapa clear..told you I snap it from my seat..tak de bangun-bangun dah.

Ni masuk cerita yg takde kena mengena dengan Majlis Berbuka Puasa semalam pula..hari ni since daddy dah start cuti, makanya daddy la menemani Adam di rumah...ada Adam menangis meraung segala tak nak ikut mommy? What do you think? Jangan harap la...bila 'best friend' ada di rumah, mommy nak ke mana pun dia tak kisahnye. Semalam I keluarkan baju melayu dia yg warna purple tu for tonight's event with his sampin and songkok. Not sure la still muat or not since Adam dah menambah lagi ketinggian dia. I tell you...pyjamas dia banyak yg dah senteng seluar although yg I bought tu actually for 3-4 years old kiddo. Daily clothes taklah ketara since most of it are shorts kan. Dah jadi makin banyak baju dia yg tak boleh pakai...which mommy masih lagi tak sempat nak pack masuk dlm container. And I have to do a treasure hunt dlm my wardrobe to find my hubby's baju melayu. Mana taknye, most of his clothes are in the cover coat so I have to unzip one by one to find his baju. Since the two's punya baju warna purple, makanya I have to find a purple colour baju kurung la pula...balik nanti la baru nak mencari..but it'll be easier since I know I have only few baju kurung warna purple. I think I want to have a storing system la for my wardrobe...I polaroid every item and number it and then hang it according to the number..ok tak? And put a label la on each hanger.hehehe.senang ket kut nak cari baju.

He told me yesterday, 'Adam nak bawa plane'.Huh????

Don't be surprise to see the pic. This is a non-political entry..heck, I'm not interested with politic pun selama-lama ni although my family is a strong supporter of the green and white flag while the in laws are equally strong supporter of the red and white flag. To thread on the very thin ice between the two families pun dah cukup for me..apatah lagi nk involve with it kan?

Anyway, petang ni I have Jamuan Berbuka Puasa with N.S MB at the camp. Have to be there as early as 1840. Means petang ni kena la start masak awal for the one yg left behind. Since mak mertua dah bekalkan sambal ikan and masak lemak pucuk paku semalam, I'll just reheat je and tambah satu lagi lauk and goreng the popia..hehehe..siap.

And I'm still waiting for the signal order...yg tak sampai-sampai lagi. Haila..hopefully takde la aral melintang and dugaan like last time. Kisahnye, when I was really sarat mengandungkan Adam, I was posted to KL (masa tu kat Lumut) so when I finished pasking..they cancelled my posting order!!! Dalam sarat dah tu kena unpack balik..menangis juga le tapi hanya I and hubby jelah yg tahu susah payahnye. Just this time around taklah sarat mengandung kan? (but, if I am still pregnant, dh sarat dh la ni).

But kerja tetap kerja la..rasa macam nak muntah-muntah dah marking papers ni.Sampai tunggang terbalik dah nak siapkan cepat. Tapi bila kena baca one by one..detail by detail, word by word..ingat seminggu boleh ke siap nak marah papers yg beratus nih??

Tapi dah tanggungjawab nak buat macamana lagi...kerjakan tanggungjawab yg telah diamanahkan!! Walau diri sendiri sengsara.huhuhu.

Oklah rambling untuk hari ni...nanti tiba-tiba masuk isu lain pulanye.hehehe.

I just had my test to renew the license which I can't remember its expired date...teruk teruk..punya lama dah tak conduct test sampai lesen mati pun tak tau bile. Lesen I ada la lebih kurang macam lesen kereta gak..ada tamat tempoh. To obtain this license, I have to attend a month gruelling course at Laverton, Melbourne. Owh, I heard that people said we were sent for 'makan angin'. The fact is we have to study real hard and have no time for 'makan angin' pun for this particular course. Geram kan? Orang lain boleh la gi jalan-jalan ke Sydney, Tazmani segala..we all ni pandai-pandai la cari masa sesuai. Mana taknya, hari-hari input yg lain-lain and bila balik ke bilik kena revise balik sebab ada exam yg wajib lulus. If tak lulus exam untuk dapatkan license as a tester ni alamatnya balik kena mengadap la. In the Armed Forces, we have 2 tests to gauge the competency level (English) of the Armed Forces Personnel. Firstly, ADFELPS and secondly ELC. For ADFEPLS ni testernya will be sent to Melbourne for the license.Then yearly will be renewed locally la. So hanya yg ada license ni je yg boleh menguji anggota yg akan menghadiri kursus luar negara. License ni dapat from Australia Defense Forces everytime we renew it.

Panjang cerita ye bab lesen ni. Sebabnya I have to melangut kat Library MINDEF ni tunggu hubby habis kerja. Then tonight he has Majlis Berbuka Puasa pulanye. Means tah jam berapa la dapat sampai ke PD. Harus juga Adam ditingalkan di Klang since kesian pula nak angkut dia yg dah tidur nyenyak tu kan? Hmmm..

bila ambil gambar baru perasan Adam dah kembali chubby sejak sembuh dari demam. Tapi makan nasi ampun la...susu jugak yg dia suka. Gambar ni tak de kena mengena ngan N3 di atas..sekadar nak bagitau ni le budak yg bakal kena tinggal..huhuhu.

I had a splitting headache the whole of yesterday, which only got better at 1157 pm. Then when I woke up, the headache was gone (alhamdulillah) but I can't sleep. So, while betting on MU will lost to Spurs with hubby who of course, will stay up to watch the match, decided to switch on the note book to do my work. Lauk untuk sahur pun dah siap so aman la sket nak buat kerja. My hubby memang perlu makan nasi for sahur so although I'm the type yg minum je for sahur, tetap kena jaga kepentingan perut 'big boss' tu.

Yesterday we had our iftar at Secret Recipe since mommy mengidam nak makan Thai Fried Rice and daddy bermurah hati sponsored it...hehehehe. We ordered Kid's Meal for Adam and Soba Mee for daddy. Tapinya Adam tertarik pada Soba Mee daddy lagi rupanya and they shared. Adam and mee memang sukar dpisahkan. Walau di offered nasi mommy yg lagi sedap..mee juga jadi pilihan hati. We went there after maghrib prayer and guess what?? We were the only customer masa tu...wah, Adam pun apalagi, mendapat unlimited access and freedom la terhadap sofa panjang fave dia. Bergolek sakan le budak kecik tu. I think sepanjang Ramadhan ni baru second time we had dinner (nak kata iftar pun tak boleh coz dah berbuka makan kuih di rumah) outside...kira menjadi juga plan penjimatan kitaorang ni. As for next week, I'll only have Thursday and Friday je to cook for iftar since ada programme buka puasa di mess and bersama Menteri Besar. And on Monday I have to renew my 'license' at MINDEF so definitely akan berbuka di rumah In Laws la. Speaking of renewing the license..apa pun tak baca lagi ni..euphoric lagi rasanya dengan berita baik yg I got last Friday. Nak share beritanya pun masih terlalu awal...ambil kira previos experience..lebih baik I wait until it is confirmed then boleh la share.Hehehehe. Layan jelah gambar Adam having a good time yesterday.

Hari ni tiba-tiba teringat tentang Amir Yusuf..terpandang pada Fajar yg lama tak dijengah. I know, everytime I go there, my tears will flow. Before this I tried to understnd the lost, the grieving..before I lost my baby. But yeah, those who never experience it will never know. I remembered feeling empty and lost...feeling hopeless. Sungguh kita sangat kerdil disisi-Nya. But Amir Yusuf was a special person..to his parents and family and for those who followed his short journey. And now...whenever I 'visit' him..I'll think of my baby...walau hanya 3 bulan 'dipinjamkan' kepada I mampu mengukir parut yg tak akan hilang...apatah lagi keluarga Amir Yusuf.. Bersabarlah, Amir Yusuf sedang tersenyum bersama bidadari syurga. Al-Fatihah.

I put my fave raya song at my playlist. Yup, the song is not that "lagu raya" but certainly has its own meaning to me. Well..over the years...I can't simply forget. It still cause funny aches whenever I listen to it. Last year I only posted the lyric.

"SEPASANG KURUNG BIRU"

Kisah this week and next week sure padat with preparation to celebrate the Eid kan? Kuih raya, baju raya segala. This year is far better than last year kerana:

1) Block leave adalah selama seminggu!!

2) Insyaallah by Friday evening dah selamat berangkat ke kampung halaman..no more meeting at 1600 on Friday like last year.

3)Raya turn Taiping (Raya di Klang juga okay tapi mana la sama dgn di rumah parents sendiri kan?)

Plus this year, Adam dah memahami erti baju raya dan balik kampung sambut Hari Raya...lagi meriah. Yang meriah juga baju raya dia la. Just this year agak kurang sikit kerana langkah berjimat cermat. Baju dia yg baru dipakai sekali pun ada quite a few.

Kisahnya sekarang, I want to hunt down kedai yg ada jual beads di PD ni. Kononnya nak jahit beads sket di baju kurung...tapi tak tahu la sempat ke tidak siapnya. Since baju-baju kitaorang dijahit di Taiping oleh my mom maka kena tunggu la sampai siap..and semalam hubby balik dari Lumut bersama my baju kurung (orange color). I asked hubby to bring it back nak cari tudung hujung minggu ni di Arianni...and my mom dah siap warning don't spend too much on it.hahahaha...bagai tahu pula.

I guess I'll only sew around the neck and the sleeves je kut. The blue color kurung tu I bought ready made at Klang...ada sulam baldu kat bahagian bawah baju and IF I have time, boleh la letak sket beads disitu. Sempatkah??? Another one is still at kampung. Banyak ke? Tak la..I jarang beli baju kurung (pakai uniform most of the time)..masa raya je yg beli pun...kasi discount la sket kan?hehehe.

The orange one my mom yg jahit sampai demam-demam, the blue one beli somewhere di Klang.

Rasanya annual dinner college kut. Don't know why we decided to wear black..

(psst..ija, what would you say when you lok at this pic?hehehe)

Mate aku sengih sebab nak nangis kena panjat gunung..hahaha..sapa suruh kan? Nasib la Pok Ku tu maintain jadi hubby, if not sesia je tangisan sengsaramu itu.

Teringat my ex-roommate during Uni year whom I call mate. She's from KB, Kelantan..like Bollywood very much, Shah Rukh Khan in particular...and very fluent in Spanish, in fact she is teaching Spanish at UKM. She really like to listen to Hindi songs in which I don't (until now). But since our room was only separated from a big cupboard, whatever she played on her lap top will be all over the room...and until now I still could remember the lyrics..bukan sebab I like Hindi songs and movies (believe me I don't ok) tapi sebab hari-hari dengar lagu y sama.
Masa nak tackle pok ku (her husband), sanggup tu naik Gunung Stong semata-mata kerna Pok Ku. Mate aku ni anak perempuan tunggal neh..so sangat tak masuk la dengan aktiviti yg macam tu. Tapi sebab hati dah berkenan...diheret la roommatenye juga. Nasib la I like those thins kan?
And today when I sms-ed her, she told me she's on confinement anak yg ke 4. Murah rezeki mate aku nih...dah ada 3 boys and 1 girl dah. Anyway, congrats ye mate..

Rasa ada perasaan malas nak ngajar subject esok. I taught this particular subject for 5 years when I was at Lumut and I feel kind of boring to start teaching it again. For almost 2 years now I teach Form 5 students and kind of enjoy it. Owh..not that I like teaching teenagers that much but..yeah..after a period of time, I tend to be bored.

To make it worst, the previous lecturer didn't compile any notes or soft copy of presentation for this subject. Shuck!!I have to redo the work I did when I was at Lumut (owh..banyak pulanye ayat 'when I was..' ni). If I am to categorized myself...I would say that I'm not innovative, I'm not creative and I am a lazybum (definitely won't say this during interviews) but I do care whether my students understand or not, whether my teaching/lecture is interesting or not...so, if you need to teach around 185 male students at the same time...picures will do wonders..don't you think?

Sometimes things go very smoothly but sometimes not. Sometimes when we have time to waste, day passing by too slowly but not when we don't have time to waste. It's really ironic..don't u think? (cam lyric Alannnis la pulak) when I ponder while slowly driving behind a Pajeero this morning..which cruised very slooooowwwwlyyy as if the driver have soooo much time to waste. Aku tension dah..since I have meeting at 8.30 and I left my file at the office which I have to drop to my office first then go to the meeting room. Sebab aku tertekan, aku auto cruisekan keta aku at 35km/j...hambek kau. Itupun kejap kejap aku terpaksa tekan cancell button coz sememangnya driver depan aku tu 'mabuk'. Then terpaksa la overtook at double line..nak buat camane kan? Tu la antara punca accident di Malaysia ni..inconsiderate driver. Dah bila aku overtook, pandai pulaknya pecut kereta dia kejar aku..eh, boleh je pun drive laju..aku ingatkan keta dia memang boleh 'pergi' tahap 35km/j je.

Seriously ni entry bengang aku ngan driver lelaki (sorry la ye..this is my own opinion based on my own experiences). They cannot swallow it when a woman overtake their cars. Even when they're driving a Viva, when I overtook them...they try very hard to overtake me back. Nauzubillah la aku dari sifat riak but my car could go up to 250km/j with ease...even then..aku tak faham..

Selalunya this thing happen on Friday masa aku 'berkejar' dan lambat nak ke kelas. My class start at 5 pm and sometimes I have work to do at the office so I'll be a bit late la. My class is at Shah Alam pulanye. Time tu la sibuk driver-driver poyo ni nak tunjuk skill. Aku bukan peduli pun tahap skill korang bawa keta atau laju mana keta korang...yg aku peduli is I get to class on time je. Tu yg ada some sengaja drive kat fast lane taknak mengalah.

I did merungut to my hubby..I think I won't be 'disturbed' if I'm only driving my Kembara. I think I'm happier with my Kembara or my Sutera. Not with this car..though it's a lovely present (at first)

He told me last week that he's going for the ESQ seminar this week but it just slipped from my mind.I guess my brain is only capable of storing good and happy news je kut lately (..ternyata sangat lame my excuse for being forgetful). Jadinya when he reminded me again I was a bit taken aback...outstation?again? (err..and then was reminded that I already asked the exact question when I was told). It is no fun without him I tell you. Who will be my shoulder to cry on when I am at lost and feel the need to lash out my frustration? Who'll be sharing the joy of having successfully convince the board meeting of our decision? (ni my doa since the meeting is tomorrow) and of course...yang lain-lain la.hahaha. But then reminded myself again that this is not the worst of all. I had gone through months without him (memberi semangat untuk diri sendiri). But yeah...where's the fun kan? Nevermind, at least by next week I could see his face at home since he'll start 'raya' holiday sooner than I (abeh pun sooner jugaklah nye).

Before nak share gambar waktu iftar di Otak-otak, I would like to share my hero's picture. His latest trend is wearing a shade. His sunglasses tu dah lama kitaorg belikan since dia 1 year old. Sebabnya dia suka benar nak pakai my shade..disebabkan mommy rasa ngeri je everytime dia pakai my sunglasses (bukanlah sebab I love my shades more than I love my own son but my shades tu kepalang mahalnye..if nak beli sekarang dengan tahap ekonomoney skang ni..huhuhu..memang la tak dapek dah) maka we bought him one. Dulu dia tak berapa nak berkenan pakai sangat tapi lately boleh kata he wants to wear it..malam nak tidur pun pakai weh..tu yg kelakar, then complaint lak gelap mommy tak switch on lampu. Bila inside the car, he pushes the shade on his head..bila tanya why he does that, answer dia senang je, "akak akai macamni"..woho..I think he picked up masa we all keluar mana-mana and he saw someone is doing it. Which is normal la kan at his age...imitate apa yg dia nampak.

Tak sah le takde otak-otak if nama restaurant nye Otak-otak kan? Tapi rasa cam frozen otak-otak pulanye. For me and hubby rasa kurang umphh sket coz we all pernah merasa yg lagi sedap.
But I really like this one. I ordered coffee and the coffee came with the biscuit on top of it. Cuma rasa coffee tu jenis instant coffee la. Sebab I am a coffee lover so boleh la bezakan. But it's not that sluggy or thin..its just a bit flat for my taste.

I did mentioned about refilling of air kan? Ha..we choosed sirap bandung. Memang non stop refilling nye.

To sum up, oklah..cuma makanan je tak sempat nak snap sebab dah waktu berbuka. Semua orang dah tak sabar nak makan..kitaorang makan sup ayam berempah (hubby I cakap soto-since hubbyku itu jawa jadinya no argument okay), kacang panjang goreng cili, ayam madu masak sambal, kerabu udang dengan mangga, asam pedas fillet ikan and for dessert makan bubur pulut hitam. Ini juga first time hubby and I berbuka di luar. Tahun ni memang cemerlang..last year memang boleh kira ngan jari how many times we had iftar at home. Hehehe..boleh sekali lagi kut dear? Kat Wendy's ke or SR ke?hehehe.

We (Adam and mommy) have a quiet sunday since hubby is on duty. Sungguh sunyi sampaikan Adam bertanya berkali-kali when daddy is coming back. Sedih sungguh anak terunaku itu bila diberitahu daddy balik esok. Then dalam nangis-nangis ala sebak gitu sempat remind me lagi, 'mommy, daddy call adam nak cakap'. Aduhai..agaknya tak seronok bila berdua je ngan mommy..cheh!

Hari ni memanglah tak masak apa pun untuk diri sendiri.I only cook porridge je kat adam since itu permintaannye. Hari ni I offered chicken soup tapi dia kata nk 'akan bubur asik..ada ayam'.haa..jgn tak tau, anak teruna I yg usianya baru 2 tahun 5 bulan tu ada selera and kemahuan sendiri. If masak makanan yg bukan dia minta..alamatnye susu jelah jadi makanan sepanjang hari. Nasib baik selera Adam belum lagi advance minta nasi briyani atau apa-apa yg mommy tak pandai masak.

Yesterday after class, hubby and I went to Kota Damansara. My sister nak beli barang dapur. Disebabkan banyak barang nak dibelinye terpaksa le dia minta kakaknye ni datang. Memang banyak pun..sampaikan tak sempat balik ke rumah my mentua nak berbuka. So we had our iftar at "Otak-otak Place". Actually tempat ni kitaorang punye last choice since tempat lain dah penuh. Tak pernah makan pun sebelum ni. kat situ Makanan?err..boleh la..just yg menarik jugaklah..air, bubur hitam and nasi boleh refill tanpa batasan. Waiter dia pantang tengok gelas kosong..mesti dia nak penuhkan. Rasa sampai perut penuh air la. Gambar sempat la diambil tapi ada rasa malas sket la nak upload. Maybe in the next entry la kut.

Dalam sibuk-sibuk, sempat lagi la post entry.Baru perasan ada 2 entry hari ni ye?huhuhu..okey, straight to the main point..which one is the best?

Cover 1

Cover 2

Nampak suram sket coz cover tu warna kuning . Sila undi ye..walaupun macam tak sempat je coz nak submit esok dah pun.

I have a new project to do (as if la tak cukup sibuk dah dengan assignments and work segala benda kan) for my album collection. Dulu-dulu kan mana ada digital camera right? so we have all the black and white film negatives and some had lost if not totally ruined. In order to preserve (echeh) the memories for my 'anak cucu', I decided to scan the pictures and save the cd and in the files. There are hundreds of them including my hubby pics during his training stints. Yesterday, I managed to scan my wedding reception (at my house) pics. Kat rumah hubby ada video so tak perlu la nak scan lagi. This task put smile on my face. Terkenang-kenang betapa la I don't like my hubby and refused few times to be his wife. Actually, this wedding reception took place after we were married for almost 9 months. Org dolu-dolu kata 'nikah gantung' ke hapa tah. While 'nikah gantung' tu my hubby were at Breast, France, underwent submarine training jadinya memang tak stay together la.

It's a tradition for the Armed Forces officer to have this sword bearers to 'officiate' the reception. It's not a must. If it was up to me memanglah malasnye nak buat this ceremony tapinya kawan-kawan baik yg requested bersungguh-sungguh. At first they wanted to organize my reception at the officer mess tapi tak sanggup aih dengan segala protokol yg perlu dipatuhi. Memanglah lagi senang keje I kan..siap dah ada yg volunteer nak jadi organizer siap dah plan segala AJK..hahaha. Tapinye biarlah my family yg uruskan...biarlah we all yg bersusah payah pecah kepala organized semua kerja last minute (termasuk buat gubahan hantaran dan cari baju for the bridesmaid and the two cutie flower girls). Kenangan terindah..hehehehe(walaupun tak berapa nak indah masa tu la)

I confiscated 2 handphones from the students (they are not allowed to bring hp to the school) before the exam and I only have chance to look in their hp just now. Oh, since I am their'mother', i have right to check whatever necessary to prevent unecessary problem. You know what I found in their inboxes? Sms-es full of lovey dovey words to and fro their girlfriends. Masyaallah..they are just 16 years old!! I understand the maturity level has since rocketed but when my 16 years old 'anak' addressed himself as 'papa' to his girlfriend whom also addressed herself as 'umi'....what do you have in mind???? I understand if their needs to have girlfriend are because they need someone to boost their confidence and to give them so-called 'semangat untuk belajar'. But this 'papa' and 'umi' thingy is for what reason other than they are ready sexually to be together? I myself only call my hubby 'abang' when we are married. Then sometimes I call him daddy when we have Adam...not during engagement though I have a valid license to call him 'abang' already.

I don't know what to think...to advise this hormon surging teenagers!! I tell you...they look innocent enough to commit the offense tau. Alah..type budak-budak nerd la. Which make me think...what will become of Adam's generation??? Of course they will be more advance than my 'anak-anak' ni kan? Nauzubillah.Jauhilah keluargaku dan umat Islam dari perkara yg mungkar.

I look at her face, searching for any signs..any sign at all to indicate what she's facing right now. Her eyes talked of misery, anguish and suffering but her lips confused me with the most sincere, benign smile and the music of her laugh;make me even confuse. Alas, she maybe an optimist or even a virtue of patience. If I am to be in her shoes...I don't think I could be like her. Live and work like nothing is wrong with her life..concerntrate and attentive to her tasks. Ya Allah, may you give her a place in your heaven for her sacrifices. Give her solution and way out from the mess. After all, perempuan yang baik adalah untuk lelaki yang baik. Amin.