"Life is about making choices"

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Yesterday we had a huge disagreement in our 4 years 7 month old marriage. Well, not disagreement la juga since hubby agreed with everything I said and admitted his mistakes. But I had my says and I had made choices, in which tak semua la yg hubby agreed. I know and realize that to make a marriage works, both parties have to contribute and to make it a smooth sailing journey, only one could be the captain with the other as the first mate.

I am not going to lament about the problems, disagreement, rows and all here. A normal marriage may have to go through the phases...which most of marriage couples will experience.

But when I had sacrifices a lot for this marriage and had to forgo lots of things which were important to me, I would expect a better understanding from my spouse. Yelah, 'to err is human' and nobody is perfect in this bloody world but better understanding is not that damn hard kan? What's more to say if you have to choose your priorities? Stick to where you should la kan? I don't want to be a nusyuz wife or even derhaka to suami but he, as a person, who value myself and my opinion shouldn't do what had been done. It doesn't hurt to think twice or thrice....rather than hurting your spouse's feelings kan?

I don't need condemnation from you all, and I don't think I need any comments as I deserve to feel, to act and to decide for my own self.