My mom said, "Breakfast is important if you want to get rid of the excessive weight"

My usual reaction will be, "Ye ke?" and mom will reply, "Check in the internet la"...hahaha...because her anak-anak memang manjang online, termasuk la adik kecik so dia rasa we should aware of all the facts. But, the time that we spent online adakah untuk searching for infos? I could say yes now since I'm back of being a student but before this? Usually I'll google on recipes, places to go for holiday, IKEA website (sekarang pun), ada juga la info about health, beauty and makeup and fashion and baby. Nowadays pula tambah dengan Facebook.

Cerita tentang fb ni kan, masa minum-minum dengan my colleague, timbul tentang cerita cemburu bila dapat 'bertemu' kekasih lama di fb. Of course cemburu the spouses la kan. Ada baik buruknya fb ni. Yang baiknya dapat berjumpa kawan-kawan lama yg dah berpuluh tahun tak jumpa..mengeratkan tali silaturrahim. Yang kurang baiknya bila bergaduh bercerai berai dek kerana fb ni juga...runtuh masjid yg telah terbina sekian lama because of fb. Not to mention yg propose, yang mengurat, yg mengayat dalam fb ni...macam-macam.

I discussed about perasaan cemburu ni with hubby last night and I asked him to come clean about his feeling if I go out with my exes without him? Maybe just for drinks and chat only la. He told me before (masa awal-awal kahwin dulu la) that he is okay with it as long as I know the limitation. Tapi jawapan semalam sudah berubah la...when he said, of course he will feel jeolous if I went out with my ex without him tapi dia akan berbaik sangka la yg I hanya keluar minum dan tahu the limitation...hehehehe..then I cakap la, dulu he said okay..ni dah coming to 5 years together dah kata jeolous pula...tersengih-sengih la dia..admitting that he cannot imagine his life without me, ever..and he doesn't want to risk it by any chance.. hehehehe..meleleh dengar ye.

So, memang I didn't add the exes in the fb. Tak nak cari masalah. Of course, no feelings, love or affection involve lagi tapi hati manusia...I tak berani mengambil risiko kegembiraan bertanya khabar for 30 minutes meruntuhkan mahligai yg susah payah we built from scratch for almost 5 years..

Jadinya, entry harini bukan tentang macamana nak hilangka berat tapi about fb..hahaha..go figure la camane bleh menyimpang jauh ni.

Ops...forgot one entry...in which hubby said shouldn't be posted (jokingly la since dia malu malu kucing). One night when we were watching tv (Adam was sleeping otherwise no conversation would took place), hubby popped one bonus question...what movie or story had me crying? Since dia tau wife dia ni jenis stone je tengok cerita sedih cam takde makna...so, I asked him first (memang la favourite perangai jenis jawab balik dengan soalan ni) which movie had him mopping..huhuhu..his tears..expecting jawapannya takde la.

Tapi jawapannya..."Mohabatein" (Not sure about the spelling though)...well...sebelum I asked why, hentam ketawa sampai tergolek (betul-betul tergolek eh)...sampai hubby dah termalu-malu dah...teruk nye bini ye. Then I proceded by asking why did he cried? Yelah..since memang cerita hindustan ni not in my list, curious jugaklah nak tau. Jawapannya? Biarlah I simpan je...anticlimax ye? Dah janji tak nak reveal so have to keep it..hehehehe. Tapi seriously, cannot imagine la camane nak nangis tengok cerita hindi ni..coz sibuk tengok the actors and actresses salin baju macam-macam style and warna...tak masuk lagi bab menari pusing-pusing naik turun gunung ganang tu. Bab buka baju lagi and bab baju basah lagi..hehehehe...

Me? kena adil ye? I cried my heart out for Puteri Gunung Ledang and Green Miles. I watched PGL, like hundred of times and still cry whenever I watch it. Hubby said...I think too much and when I watch a movie...it always a movie that need intrepretation..which he doesn't really like...hehehehe...yelah, mana boleh sama je minat walaupun share semuanya kan? but, Mohabatein????hmmmm...

Date: 28 Oct 2009

Time: 0720

Place: Living Hall, PD

When I came from the kitchen to get Adam's thing before sending him to his baby sitter house, I 'catched' him climbing on the cabinet.

Me: Adam, jangan panjat la, nanti jatuh.

Adam: Adam nak ambil emote (remote) ni aje.

Me: Kenapa Adam tak panggil mommy minta ambilkan?

Adam: Mommy shibuk. Adam ambil sendiri. Adam anjat (panjat).

Me: Bila pulanya mommy cakap mommy sibuk kat Adam?

Adam: Semalam (Dengan selamba on tv cari channel cartoon).

Me: Adam nak tengok cerita apa tu?

Adam: Cite (cerita) alam (semalam)...ada car.

Me: Hari-hari tengok tengok Rory tak boring ke?

Adam: Boring la...

huhuhu...kesimpulannya, budak-budak kecil ni memory sangat kuat...once we denied their wishes by giving excuses..they will remember. Sometimes memang masa tengah busy la diaorang nak meminta itu ini...termasuk la I. Lesson learn...thanks Adam for reminding me my mistakes.

Right now, I am under pressure to complete my group writing assignments (ada 2 hutang dengan Kak Mona and Rahan), my term paper, article review and paling pressure nak siapkan proposal my research. Ya Allah, bagai macam nak pecah kepala aku baca semua scholar articles about child development. Nak mencari article yg paling tepat untuk merumuskan dan 'menceritakan' tentang research aku. So far my proposed tittle yg telah mendapat anggukan Dr Aziah is, "Motivating speaking skill through play acting among the pre school children at Pusat PERMATA Negara". Tak sure la pula nanti fikiran berubah nak mengalih arah ke ESP's area pula. So I have to do LOTSA reading on motivation, children development and psycology, literature and children lit...rasa aku la setakat rough mapping yg dibuat. Sakit sakit sakit kepala. Since my research is ethnography, kena mencari pusat PERMATA la untuk buat pilot study...BUT, itupun if rajin teramat dan I have time to spare in which I really doubt la.

I know I know..this entry is so 'rojak' and halibut...if you feel dizzy reading it, janganlah baca. Tuan punya blog need to release some steam off her head.

Weh, baru first sem dah pening bab research ni...apa cerita ni? Takpelah (console diri sendiri), at least taklah terkedu di akhir sem baru nak menggagau mencari articles and references. At least I prepare the boat and well equipped it before I go sailing..hahahaha...literary ek.

Bulan december ni dah start masuk second sem...bila dapat course time table..uhuk uhuk...senak perut dan usus bila 'membaca' nama prof f will be with us for next sem...I don't want to speculate until I get to know her..as in 'don't judge a book by its cover' la kes..tapi bila ada sekali tu 'selisih' komen-komen dia to my classmates, at least it shows some of the true color la somehow. This sem punya lecturers memang best...sangat understanding the demand of part time students like us...boleh tolerate certain things dengan berhemah..next sem? I don't know what to expect.

Awal december juga start with acara bercanda di Pulau Langkawi...macam nak start saving for shopping tapi bila discuss dengan 'CEO', semua spending kena freeze sampai ekonomi negara pulih. Mau tak..CEO tu rugi USD 700 baru-baru ni. Lupakan niat shopping, just hiburkan hati berjemur sampai gelap jelah nanti.

Urghhh...makin tak make sense apa yg aku tulis. Back to my reading.Current status is doing the assignment for Kak Mona to compile..sabar kak..nanti saya hantar.

Yesterday (cerita dah basi sebenarnya) Adam was being difficult when I sent him to his baby sitter...he cried and refused to go and insisted to follow mommy to work. Then I told him that he cannot follow me to work...and anak I ni memanglah a difficult negotiator. Tau apa dia kata? haa..'mommy beli mainan kat Adam!'. My oh my...pandai minta toys dah. So I agreed la and thought he will forget camtu je...but no..as soon as dia bangun dari evening nap, terus dia bagitau baby sitter dia 'Adam nak balik, mommy nak beli mainan.' Even masa daddy dia ambil dia, he kept repeating it. So we went out, first to get his hair trimmed sebab dah cam apa tah rambut panjang. Baik betul dia this time around..dah boleh duduk kat kerusi tu alone with having to hold him dah. Then after that, he reminded us again that he wanted his toys..hmmm...so we went to the town and let him choose what he wants Nasib la tak banyak pilihan kat The Store PD nih..tapi memang boleh agak apa yg dia kan pilih...apa lagi if not car. This time dia nak yg besar remote control one but I said no..nanti bukan setakat dia je yg main, dengan daddy sekali terjebak. I only relented to the one yg memang main dua tiga kali sure patah punya. If you know my son yg memang lasak and kasar tu...dia akan 'repair' and 'modify' his toys as he wish. So baik la I buy mainan yg memang tak rasa rugi sangat if rosak hancur berderai sekalipun. I don't know about other kids but I know my own kid tak selalu dapat apa yg dia nak. We agreed to let him appreciate apa yg dia dapat sebab bukan senang nak dapat. Tapi, being a 2 years old..boleh ke you harapkan appreciation comes by taking a good care of the toys? Bukan in Adam's case I think.

Sakit kepala masih berterusan. Tidur, bangun, tidur, it is still there..looming inside my head.as big as a lamp post.hahahaha.memang sangat sakit.

On the other note, kami berjaya mendapat rumah sewa di Setia Alam. Setelah membuat house viewing, we decided to take the offer. Terus bayar deposit to the owner. Will move in early next month. Tak ramai lagi neighbours nampaknya sebab area baru, rumah pun brand new. Tapi convenient la to my office. Tried to get the officer quarter tapi penuh and yg ada pun under pembaikan sampai next year. The house area tu sunyi tapi guarded with built in alarm. I memang prefer rumah yg tak sesak dan sibuk...walaupun jauh sket tak pelah. Yang penting ada few playschools for Adam. Since next week plan nk balik Taiping, we'll make appointment for playschools viewing la pula another week. Penting tu...have to look at the curriculum, the teachers, the school compound and also foods provided. So far from the survey done through googling in SARA forum, the best still is the Taska Fantasia. Ok la kut I guess sampai ada waiting list sampai 2010. Will update on that soon. But now, I have reading on Piaget and Erickson to be deal with...bismillah.

"Life is about making choices"

Hari ni dek sakit kepala yg amat, bagi kerja je kat students and start la pertapaan I kat pejabat yg sengaja digelapkan. Since ada lagi 'hutang' pada kawan-kawan untuk written assignment, gigihkan diri juga la browse untuk cari balik info yg ntah mana diletak. Sambil-sambil blog hopping nak hilangkan gelisah dihati.

Yesterday we had a huge disagreement in our 4 years 7 month old marriage. Well, not disagreement la juga since hubby agreed with everything I said and admitted his mistakes. But I had my says and I had made choices, in which tak semua la yg hubby agreed. I know and realize that to make a marriage works, both parties have to contribute and to make it a smooth sailing journey, only one could be the captain with the other as the first mate.

I am not going to lament about the problems, disagreement, rows and all here. A normal marriage may have to go through the phases...which most of marriage couples will experience.

But when I had sacrifices a lot for this marriage and had to forgo lots of things which were important to me, I would expect a better understanding from my spouse. Yelah, 'to err is human' and nobody is perfect in this bloody world but better understanding is not that damn hard kan? What's more to say if you have to choose your priorities? Stick to where you should la kan? I don't want to be a nusyuz wife or even derhaka to suami but he, as a person, who value myself and my opinion shouldn't do what had been done. It doesn't hurt to think twice or thrice....rather than hurting your spouse's feelings kan?

I don't need condemnation from you all, and I don't think I need any comments as I deserve to feel, to act and to decide for my own self.

Right now, I am so piss off with the durian case so to let myself cool down and think reasonably so that I will not say hurtful words to remind 'that person I refuse to name' for thousand of time that I CANNOT TOLERATE DURIAN EVEN THE SMELL.

Inhale deeply......(my hand is shaking with anger)

Time flies aite? Dah habis pun satu semester of my postgrad pogram. Terkejar sana sini, sampai rasa nak termuntah (teringat la pula nak muntah bau durian dlm car tadi pulanya...inhale....) buat presentation dan assignments. Last meeting with my group for the assignments and also the research proposal tadi, barulah realize yg will only see each other coming new sem pula nanti. Itupun hopefully lulus la semua paper. Yesterday we had the SPSS workshop for those who are going to do a quantitative research. Mine is a qualitative but menyibuk jugalah pergi....ilmu tak rugi kan? Yang bestnya the lecturer sediakan breakfast and lunch lagi for us..hehehehe. After the class, we had, according to Kak Has, 'the best cendol in the world, if makan boleh tergolek dua tiga kali la' at Sect 18 kut if not mistaken. She drove us there so tak perasan seksyen bape. Since Dila and Mas yg the night before tu dah reminded to ajak them tetiba cancelled of joining so I will put up the 'inviting look' of that superlicious cendol ye. Oh, by the way, it's called 'Cendol Pak Akob' depan masjid. Ramai tu orang tapi for the sake of mas and dila, kitaorang ambil la gambar kenangan.hehehe. malu jugaklah cam tak pernah makan cendol lak..beria amek gambar.hehehe.

Anyway, even rasa cam tak cukup hari to finish all those presentations and assignments..we had real fun this sem, thanks to the joy brought by the classmates. Hope to see everybody coming this new sem.

(from left) Tum, tuan punya blog and Raihan

My classmates yg hadir for the SPSS.Ramai yg 'menghilangkan' diri.
Kesedapan cendol Pak Akob jelas diwajah Kak Has..hehehe.nasib tak bergolek dia.


Lagi gambar cendol untuk tatapan mas dan dila.eheks..rugi you all.

Nazrul and Suria also joined us.

Ha..gambar last ni untuk korang teka...siapakah 'lembaga' dua orang yg dah crashed ni. Teka teka...

Tajuk hari ni, 'When Stranger Calls'...amacam?

Pernah tak korang dapat panggilan dari customer service from mana-mana perkhidmatan yg pernah korang langgani or dapat? Lately ni boleh kata semua service ada customer satisfaction questionnaires. Typical questionnaires come in form and we have to tick boxes kan? but nowadays they do phone interview instead...in order to improve their services la katanya. Few times jugaklah I was intervied for customer satisfaction service ni. Ada masa they called us right on time. Masa tak buat apa-apa yg penting la. Usually Honda and Perodua services will call me after I serviced my cars but then they usually will call me on Saturday since I already told them I will not 'entertain' them on any other day. Yang tak berapa considerate ni usually from credit card agencies. Walaupun dah bejuta kali lemon dah I told them I don't have a credit card and I don't have intention of getting one...diaorang ni call jugak. Dah la tu, they called me when I was in the class, when I was attending meeting...betul-betul annoying. I try to understand their responsibility and commitment tapi if memang I tak pakai credit card, camane nak jawab pasal service? And then, when I told them I don't use any credit card, mula la pulak sesi promote credit card which usually...rude or not.. will make me hang up immediately.

Just now I got a call from Pantai Hospital requested to talk to 'Encik Adam Muqriz'...hehehe..berkerut jap aku fikir sapa...hahaha..anak terunaku rupanya. Apa ek jadi if I really give Adam the phone and let them interview him..hehehe. The 'operator' requested 25 minutes of my time. I told him, if he could make it 10 mins then I will answer his questions because I have work to do, which was true coz I was doing 5 works at one time..hahahaha..

Tapi, truly....I don't like strangers and I don't usually talk to strangers...yup..I am that unfriendly to strangers..sorry.

I need a good cup of coffee..a strong one and hot one fresh from the pot. Didn't have time to mix one this morning before I go to office. I love coffee...love to drink it and to smell it. It produces such an aroma that other beverages cannot beat. Usually, whenever I pass any coffee shop or Kopitiam, I will stop for awhile to soak and blend into the smell. It does give me a really good feeling and more hope for this life..

When I was pregnant with Adam, coffee was a culprit for my aneamia so I was instructed to stop drinking it and that was a real challenge. But when I was reminded by the fact that I detest hospital (government and private alike), I have to summon my will to stop for the sake of the baby. Then the challenge came again when I was pregnant with the second baby but only for a short while. But then I don't need Dietician or my Gynae or hubby to tell me to stop my coffee addiction for awhile. I took care of myself, ate properly and healtily hoping that our baby will be healthy and mommy will not be hospitalized again.

As much as I love to drink coffee...I do love my baby more and will do anything to bring them to this world safely. And I cannot take it when peoples said I lost my second baby because I like to drink coffee a lot.

What bring to this? Hell, the BabyCenter.com informed me that I am supposed to be gloriously 30 weeks preggy!!

Date: 12 Oct 2009

Time: About 8 pm

Place: Living Hall

Hubby (will be H after this): Esok abang takde camane?

I: Macam tu la (diikuti kena tarik hidung..lama-lama makin panjang hidung aku ni).

H: Makan jaga tau...no maggi!!

I: Maggi la senang..dan sedap.

H: Takde khasiat la, tak baik for health.

I: Oh..I will add the mushrooms, letak prawn sket, broccoli and telur...sihat ape?

H: huhuhu..nak makan juga...

I: Eh, siapa tah cakap tak de khasiat tadi?hehehehe. Tak boleh...you have to go back and send me a report about Adam.

H: Mak cakap dia dah okay.

I: I know that..tapi no way...hehehehe.

Why the dialogue??? I am bored at home alone today!!!

p.s. owh..in case you're wondering darling hubby, I had chicken fingers for dinner..no maggi. But have to abstain from rice since mommy dah kenyang malam semalam stuffing the seafood macam tak makan seminggu.

p.s.s. I miss you and Adam...huhuhuhu.

Some people really switch off their hand phone when on holiday..can you believe it? Do believe that okay...I tried to reach this person for week to no avail. I thought he had changed the number but when I asked from several sources, the same number was given so obviously that number is suppose to be the correct number. So, I tried again this morning for the very last time and guess what?? my call was answered!! He told me he was on leave for the whole week and he switched off his cell so that nobody will disturb him???hmmm...oh okay..if I am a civillian working at some establishment..I guess it'll be okay but we are not...me and him are not civillian okay!! I really don't want to elaborate what and to what extend this action affected my decision and plan....I might write something terribly rude.

But that action had me and hubby in a real action pursuing estate agents, setting house viewing appointments and not to mention a very short and stressing and panicking time to pack all the stuff to move. A dear friend of us offered her maid to help but I don't think it is necessary since only we know what and where to put in those boxes. Maybe I'll accept her offer when we're repacking the stuff kut. I will have to report to the new place on the 1st November 09...and I have 2 weeks left to sort out everything. But I thank God for a small mercy-my hubby is around to help with the crisis. At least I have him for myself exclusively to hear all my worries. Tak perlu menyusahkan orang lain to listen to our problems.

Trying to find the best place for our little nest which is nearby to my office and also hubby's office yg also convenient to Adam's playschool memanglah susah. Nak lagi susah, I nak cari neighbourhood yg tak sesak...huhuhu. Memanglah ada tapi will have to consider the distance pulanya. Tapi I am grateful walaupun macam-macam yg perlu ditempuhi...hanya kami yg tahu kesusahan yg ditanggung lebih 2 tahun ni...though macam-macam la orang nasihat itu ini...well, you will not know until you are in our shoes...then tengok la boleh hadapi like we did. Bercakap memang senang tapi if you hadapi sendiri.....adakah sesenang like what you said???

Have one more class and one more presentaion to plough through. But got several written works to be done. And is expected to 'work' harder and all out for the boys who don't even realize that THEY are going to sit for the SPM...and not me! Over the weekend (since my MIL was not well), we postponed again the tours to the relatives houses (beraya kat Taiping sampai seminggu neh..tu la pasal). Bought new shirts and pants for Adam since he outgrew 'em pretty quickly nowadays, also new pairs of Croc for hubby....ate ke hulu kehilir with the 'jamban' selipar. Sometimes I do cakap gak kat dia, "I bought you shoes which I wouldn't even buy for my own self just for you to keep it in the box? Takpelah..if you passed away then I don't have to buy a pair of new shoes for my new hubby aite?"..so mean of me but tau pun mau pakai sekarang ni tapi seriously, the selipar was really a sore eyes. Since hubby justified by saying, "takkan nak pergi pasar pakai the Obermain, so pakai selipar la." I really don't mind simple guy with minimal style tapi I do mind simple guy with selipar....just couldn't digest the idea la. If setakat pasar boleh la terima tapi if everywhere yg dia tak perlu pakai shoes, dia opted for the selipar..,hmmmm.

Enough about cerita selipar, these 2 guys in the pic had a very interesting conversation last weekend. The conversation originated from the McD glasses we got when purchased the food.

Place: Inside the car

Date: 12 Oct 200

Time: 12.45 pm9

Adam: Mommy, nak tengok cawan.

Hubby: Gelas la, bukan cawan.

Adam: Ni cawan, bukan gelas.

Hubby: Ye ke?

Adam: Nodding vigorously to defend his answer.

Hubby: Cawan ni untuk apa?

Adam: Cawan untuk minum (and threw a wary look at daddy...as if nak cakap,"takkan itu pun daddy tak tau?")

Hubby: Minum dengan cawan macamana?

Adam: (demonstrated how to drink) macam ni la.

Hubby:Oooooo...(sambil tahan sengih).Abis, minum ngan gelas camane?

Adam: Haa?ni cawan bukan gelas!!

Mommy had to interupt to avoid unpleasant emotional outburts. Hehehehe..confident je walaupun salah.hahahahaa...macam perangai Mak Teh je ni.

This morning since I have to teach the Diploma class at 8 am, I went to the office a bit later than usual. Usually I bath Adam myself and then send him to his baby sitter. This morning he woke up and asked for his daddy. When I told him daddy went to work, he started crying. This has been a routine since last 2 weeks. He cried again when I put on my uniform...though he understand that mommy has to go to work, this time around he said, "Adam nak ikut mommy work". Then I asked him, "Kenapa nak ikut mommy, Adam boleh stay dengan mama (his baby sitter) and play dengan abg Irfan and baby Kasih kan?". He keep on geleng kepala and said, "Kasih kacau Adam, Irfan kacau Adam...tak nak".

I notice his behavior ni ada pattern. Masa mula-mula I hantar dia to his baby sitter, dia memang buat perangai menangis non stop, pujuk tak nak sampaikan his baby sitter ended up dukung or riba dia sepanjang hari. Then bila dia dah 2 tahun, dia dah okay, boleh sesuaikan diri dengan seorang lagi budak yg dijaga mamanya...boleh main sama and communicate nicely la...then when I thought he is all grown up and a bit independent...he does that perangai again...it started when he got high fever la. He becomes so dependent and cranky and moody...and we thought sebab dia tak sihat jadinya memang perangai pun 'kurang' sihat sikit la...but even now pun, walaupun poo poo dia masih lembik (pardon me if you're reading this while eating okay), rasanya Adam dah sihat. Yang peliknya, manja dia tu bertambah pula...langsung tak nak ditinggalkan hatta when we have 'to go' sekalipun.

Since my term paper I'm writing and presenting is about education for pre-school children..I'll have to do some background study on children development also. I'm curious really to know why these patterns of behavior exist. Insyaallah will share with everybody when I finalized my writing. Kadang-kadang I am amuse bila tengok susah payah dia berusaha nak bagi I naik angin. Suka dia test level kesabaran mommy dan daddy. Of course la..daddy punya patience level memang tahap professional la..mommy tak mampu nak tandingi. Nowadays if I marah dengan dia, I will not give him the satisfaction by screaming angrily. I'll just keep quiet and ignore him. Adam suka bersembang dengan I..tanya itu ini and when I stop answering his questions, mula la dia cebik-cebik nangis..know his mommy is ignoring him...baru tau nak say 'sorry' and 'please'. Daddy pula bila mommy diam..mula la giat anak terunanya....haaa..itu satu lagi behavioral pattern tu..suka menyakat!!!

Minggu ni PD sangat sibuk...sibuk dengan poster-poster, ceramah, kempen dan macam-macam aktiviti la. Pening kepala setiap kali keluar rumah. Pagi-pagi nak drive ke pejabat pun sakit hati bertambah dengan kerenah driver yg drive macam nak menghirup angin laut pantai PD je lagaknya. Tak prihatin langsung la dengan orang yg bergegas nak ke pejabat atau terlambat untuk hadiri mesyuarat. To cut it short, sememangnyapolitik ni memeningkan kepala la. Of course, without politic and politicians, macamana sesebuah negara nak ditadbir kan? Pendapat personal I je ni ye so don't blame or connect it with other matters. Saya tak gemar dengan politik walaupun my parents and In laws memang hebat berpolitik. Keduanya menyokong parti yg berlainan so setiap kali pulang bercuti, I get the opportunity to get different opinions...yg saya simpulkan untuk mendapat kesimpulan sendiri.

Oleh sebab I tak mengundi untuk Dun Bagan Pinang, it is 'amusing' to see how people really work and defend their believes...terpulang la, each to theirs la kan?

Apa yg saya nak lihat ialah keputusannya nanti...but for those yg wajib mengundi, jalankan tanggungjawab dengan amanah.

Last 2 weeks memanglah tak tergambar stress yg dihadapi. Ada ketika terdetik rasa nak give up je dulu study, nak berikan perhatian yg sepenuhnya pada anak nan sorang itu, pada suami nan sorang dan rumah sewa nan satu itu. Maybe pada sesetengah orang apa la sangat sekadar anak sakit seminggu tu kan. Tapi for me dengan rate kerja yg mencanak banyak...memanglah dugaan. Semalam setelah semalaman Adam demam (with hubby ad I bergilir jaga dia takut temperature naik), we decided to try the hospital. Nak bawa ke Columbia Seremban terasa jauh sangat untuk sikecil tu so resorted to Government Hospital (cringe cringe). Setelah lebih 3 jam menunggu (sebab Adam diberi kod hijau yg stated masa menunggu antara 30-120 jam), we were called to see the only doctor for that day (blame the kempen pilihanraya Dun Bagan Pinang). Adam had to went through tests and hanya kami yg berada disitu yg tahu kesukaran nak deal dengan patients yg jenis macam Adam..huhuhu. Then off to the treatment room untuk ambil darah for blood test dan masuk air since dah 6 hari weh budak tu cirit-birit.

Hasil ujian yg diperolehi setelah menunggu selama lagi 4 jam, Adam ada minor infection didalam perut. Bila ditanya kenapa, mengapa dan bagaimana..Doktor hanya mampu mengatakan, apa saja yg dia minum or makan boleh jadi penyebab. Hmmm...tak berapa puas hati sebenarnya but then agaknya Doktor tu pun boleh tengok muka aku yg berkerut tak puas hati dengan explanation dia assured aku yg jangkitan tu hanya sikit aje...insyaallah with the antibiotic akan berkurangan la dalam maa 2 hari ni. Hopefully la betul kan sebabnya kesian sangat dah kat Adam...walaupun keaktifan tetap maintain tapi berat badan dah turun 2 kg tau. Kalau berat mommy yg turun takpe juga kan. Tapi so far setelah makan ubat, diarrheoa dia dah kurang. Lega sikit jiwa mommy dan daddy. Semalam pun tidur sampai tak sedar since bila check temperature Adam dah normal...huhuhu..nak dekat 2 minggu tidur tak menentu...mata pun macam burung hantu dah jadinya.

Mommy yg sangat letih amek turn rehat..gambar ni Adam yg ambil ye by using my hp camera.

Sempat la posing lepas drip dah habis tunggu masa nak balik je. Budak ni la yg berhempas pulas menangis kena amek darah and masuk drip sampai 3 orang lelaki dewasa kena pegang dia.haha.

Bila dah kurang sakit, dia guna tangan dia yg berbalut ni 'tembak' orang yg lalu lalang depan treatment room tu. Dia kata 'Adam jadi formers(transformers)'.

Dek kerana taknak baring atas katil terpaksa la dia tidur rehatkan mata dengan memeluk daddy.
Mommy amek turn pula bila daddy nak ke toilet. Manja sangat anak terunaku..kena pujuk je bila bergerak sket..sakit agaknya.

I am worried, sick,busy,tired and clueless, therefore forgive me for not posting or uploading anything. I will, insyaallah once everything is A ok. Pray for me please..


Your truly,

Jue Fauzi.

At this rate (with works and study are piling high), I am a bit reluctant to accept any guests. Bukanlah kerana saya anti sosial person who value privacy so much I hate people coming to my house. I like friends coming to my house and I like cooking for friends and families who are willing to come to our humble nest but it's just not the right time of the year. Adam is still not feeling well...and when he is not well, he is so fussy mommy cannot do anything...anything I mean everything including going to the loo okay...apatah lagi to cook for guest and to tidy up my house (one week vacant is enough to accumulate dust and whatnot) in a snap. I am also occupied with works at the office and involved with series of visits from politicians. Adding to it, I have assignments due this weekend also. But when a very close friend of mine asked to come to our house..I can't just say no. So, kitaorang (hubby bergegas balik dari office to help me out with the food) masak dan beli la juadah untuk tetamu. Since I have one lonely and single junior..hehehe..jangan mare ye Tasya..we invited her to come also. Dia datang nak basuh pinggan je katanya..the food were very simple since both of us memanglah takde masa nak masak food yg 'vouge'..hahaha..laksa, satay,nasi impit, lemang, rendang and kuah kacang plus biskut-biskut raya were yesterday night menu. Hopefully our guests balik rumah kekenyangan...and hopefully jangan la ada kawan-kawan yg 'insist' of coming to our house these 2 weeks. Saya super sibuk ye kawan-kawan..bukan sebab tak suka menerima kehadiran tetamu ye. Nanti saya juga yg ralat dengan makanan dan layanan yg tak seberapa. Insyaallah lepas 'krisis' antara saya dan masa..silalah datang.

The food yg sempat disediakan..satay tu of course beli la kan.

My friend Azie with her family

Sesi melihat album perkahwinanku.hhehe..malu I tau.

After perut diisi

But apapun thanks to my friend Azie, her hubby and her family for gracing our humble house. Harap-harap layanan yang diberi memuaskan hati semua (err..Adam je yg masuk tidur tak puas hati coz toys dia diusik..susah betul.)