Petang ahad yang sejuk dek hujan tak berhenti dari malam tadi memang sangat menyamankan. Perut pula kenyang dialas nasi kerabu..fuhhh...damai je jiwa. Saya tak bertanggungjawab masak nasi kerabu yg sangat sedap tu tapi Kak Shidah, emak kepada Mimi yg belajar Add Math dengan adik saya yg menghantarnya semasa menjemput Mimi balik selesai kelasnya tengahari tadi. Plan saya dan Ain nak keluar membeli barang-barang dapur yg sudah kehabisan tapi memandangkan Adam yg baru sembuh dari demam (iye, this time demamnya lebih seminggu), saya tak berani bawa dia keluar rumah kerana cuaca yg sejuk dan hujan ni. Postpone lagi la hingga hari cuti warga Wilayah pada Selasa akan datang ni.

Semalam agak panjang lebar saya berbual (ber-ym) dengan hubby walaupun dengan connection yg timbul tenggelam di Congo dan Malaysia. Banyak yg dibincangkan dan alhamdulillah otak saya kurang sikit serabutnya. Dah lama saya tak dapat berbual panjang dengan hubby sebenarnya. Walaupun dia call setiap hari tapi dengan kesibukan saya dan dia, juga jarak yg jauh menyebabkan ada yg tak terucap..hehe.

Therefore, walaupun harini hujan dan mood pun mendung aje...tapi hati saya lebih tenang dan happy....walau hakikatnya..banyak lagi kerja nak buat, barang belum start packing dan keperluan yg harus dibeli belum lagi dibeli...hahaha...

Hubby said few days back, "Ayang macam tak nak pergi aje ni"...and sesungguhnya itulah perasaan saya. Hubby said that after I told him I tak prepare apa pun lagi before departing to Australia this coming 12 Feb 11. Yeah...I know I'll be missing Adam like crazy..one aspect that wretch any mom's feeling surely...if it is possible..I would bring him with me..anywhere I have to go but since I'm going under the expense of Australian Government...I'm not allow to do that.

I got my ticket and visa today and the flight will be in the morning. Juga, bila terbiasa hubby hantar setiap kali fly, I miss him too this time around. I will have to make do with the driver assigned to send me off..no goodbye hugs from hubby and Adam nampaknya...and I also miss my mom..been almost a month since I last went back to see her.

I have more or less 14 days more to sum up everything, to settle most of things and to kiss goodbye to Adam...difficult time for me...and affecting everything. I'll write again soon..probably before I go.

ADAM DEMAM..so of course hari minggu hanya dihabiskan di rumah aje. Mommy pun letih..bila Adam demam, mau la bangun 3-4 kali semalam check temperature, kasi ubat, Adam trips (sila notice -s tu ye) ke toilet lagi since I forced him to drink plenty of plain water...huhu..badan sendiri pun rasa nak demam. Ni la nasib if daddy takde...semua kena tanggung sorang-sorang. Pagi tadi after I sent my sis work, terus ke Jusco sebab Adam nak makan donashi. Ikut ajelah selera orang demam kan..kesian dia, dah turun 0.5 kg since demam 2 hari. Tapi dia makan satu aje..walaupun kata teringin nak makan. Went to clinic sebab ubat batuk dah expired..and ambil ubat demam sekali. Both of us tertidur kat family hall and I was woke up bila hubby call. Sorry ye darling, I was a bit disoriented so cakap pun slurred dengan rasa mengantuk.

Harini lunch and dinner sempoi aje so I letak la gambar-gambar at Bird Park lagi instead of gambar ikan goreng and bubur nasi..hehe...

One of many favorite pictures ..the expression yg mahal..hehe..sama je dua-dua tu..
I love your surprise look Adam..hehe..
Ateh, Adam and bird

Esok I ada Mess Night..huhuhu..malasnya...lagi malas bila pergi single when orang lain bawa couple masing-masing..buhsaaannnn....

Iye..saya memang tak sedar diri...badan yg sakit dan sengal ni didera lagi tanpa belas kasihan. This time around, berjalan-jalan di Taman Burung Kuala Lumpur. Mau tak bertambah sakit..it is the largest of its kind in the world...hambek...lupa yg dari leher sampai ke hujung kaki, if ada pergerakan je rasa nak menangis sakit. Outing sempena cuti Thaipusam ni memang last minute. We went out to have lunch at Jusco..I tetiba teringin nak makan steamboat. Sebab ada member yg sibuk survey tempat steamboat..I yg over teringin..haha. Sebab breakfast dengan cereal aje, so perut memang tengah menyanyi la time lunch...after solat, we decided to go sight seeing kat Bird Park yg tak pernah pergi walaupun dah lama jadi warga Malaysia. As usual, plan last minute camni yg menjadi pun. Tak payah la mimpi nak plan berminggu-minggu..ada jelah halangannya. Dari melepak kat Shopping Complex menghabiskan masa dan wang ringgit..better habiskan masa dan duit bagi edutainment kat anak. Adam was happy chirping non stop (sampai kena marah) macam birds yg ada tu dari dia sampai hingga la dia masuk tidur.

If you have time, you should go there..menarik tengok all types of bird. Yang sakit mata tengok orang dating peluk-peluk pun ada juga. Aduhai...sampaikan dalam bird park pun korang nak buat hal ke? Tak malu kat burung-burung yg ada ke? I share few pictures of colorful birds yg ada dalam park tu. Nak letak semua I tak sempat nk buat watermark..hehe.

We purposely ambil gambar disini supaya I tak payah tulis banyak about this place..hehehe..you can read yourself or you can visit http://klbirdpark.com for more info about fees, opening hour and feeding session. Iye..Adam pejam mata sebab panas katanya.

Kesian ateh nye kena dera..dah mommy usung kamera amek gambar..kena la ateh layan dia main swing sampai tanak turun.

P.S Daddy, jangan sedih ye...bila you balik kita pergi Butterfly Park pula okay..hehehe.

The result of my weeks of migrane, worrying, and buzz a bizz (my own word..hahah) hectic working days, sending Adam and fetching Adam to and from school is..jeng jeng jeng..2 kg weight loss...soon..am gonna hit the amazing 4 again..hehe.

I went for a medical check up at Gleaneagles (I'm not splurging money for nothing hokay) because it seems that if we want Australia visa, we have to undergo medical check up at Gleaneagles (if at KL). Everything went under the scrunity of the doctor (very thorough I tell you) and I'm clear..alhmdulillah. When I went on to weight myself...WOW!!! hahaha..I had shed the 2 kilos by being stressed..

Camane la berat tak turun..I skipped breakfast and lunch for most days sebab tak sempat...lame excuse kan? That's the truth..sadly. And this morning, we had UKA or Ujian Kecergasan Asas. It is a test to see our fitness...inclusive of 2.4 km run, heaving, shuttle run and jumping..huhu...we have to pass these tests so have to run like mad..hehehe...so I have a very sore body..from head (headache) to toe...and of course I'm not allowed to go to bed early..we have Ceramah Agama so after I fetched Adam from school, we went to hunt (hahaha..coz mommy was basically flying and dragged Adam together) for Adam's dinner and my breakfast, lunch and dinner combined together meal. Then I mandikan Adam, fed him dinner, at the same time eating my food..had hot shower for my knotted muscle and drove back to my office which was about 10 km from my house..come back and since I'm tired but not sleepy..I have time to post an entry.

And yeah..I got my parcel yg I tunggu-tunggu today..rasa macam nak lompat-lompat..haha..Tak sempat ambil gambar the parcel tu sebab tak sempat tunggu I dah buka..but I'll share the picture of the content tomorow..hehehe...I'm smiling..

For a week I had a terrible migrane. For me, it usually caused by these factors aje; Hot weather, a sign of PMS, Oily food kurang tidur and stress. I rasa probably because of stressful week la I dapat migrane ni and sebab asyik dapat nigtmares aje so tidur tu tak berkualiti. Usually if kena migrane attack, I would 'berkurung' dlm bilik aje...the darker, quiter and cooler are the better. But yelah..siapa yg nak hantar ambil Adam ke sekolah pula. Sure he can 'ponteng' but I would hate it for him to miss the activity. Dah la bulan depan nak start cuti panjang dah. This is the second week I got migrane...so, dah dua minggu sebenarnya kepala tak berapa nak betul.

At time like this, terasa sangat ketiadaan hubby. If dia ada, for sure la ada yg boleh tolong ringankan kerja...and ada juga yg boleh tolong 'ketuk-ketuk' kepala bagi rasa lega.

When I woke up this morning, ada rasa kurang (sebab cuaca mendung je harini and I slept sangat awal semalam) sikit sakit kepala I so banyaklah house chores yg dapat dibereskan. And since dah berminggu tak masak due to my sakit kepala...harini I masak awal..hehehe..

I kan, bila buka je blog LG and few other blog, sure terliur-liur je tengok juadah yg dimasak dan di tayang tu...so arini perasan juga orang nak terliur...hahahaha...(setakat sayur dengan masak lemak ayam ni orang jeling sebelah mata aje ni..) maka I upload gambar our lunch. Breakfast tak payah la sebabnya memang seisi rumah ni amek light breakfast...roti and jam atau cake aje.

Masak lomak ayam..I tak makan sebab oily...

I and Adam shared mix veges ni...anak teruna I tak tahan pedas..pelik juga la sebab Jawa tak tahan pedas kan..I ni lain la..bukan breed Jawa..hehe..

P.s.Daddy yg selalu tanya I makan ap..ni le yg kitaorang makan for lunch..dinner ni tengok camane dulu..probably buat meehon aje sebab mommy kepingin nak makan..hehehe..

If people ask me how do I handle being a single mom (temporary ye tuan puan..saya masih bersuami)...jangan la terkejut bila I cakap..I pun tak pernah handle it..hahaha...I redah aje. Redah punye cerita ni maksudnya...banyak la air mata yg tumpah..dan mimpi ngeri bangun berpeluh tengah malam. Like yesterday night..I dreamt of terlupa basuh uniform sekolah Adam..seriously bangun jam 3 pagi terus masuk bath room nak basuh baju...hahaha...padahal uniform Adam ada 2 pasang so taklah jadi problem if I tak basuh sepasang..and yes...I wash my baju using the traditional way...hand wash. Berpeluh weh mimpi ngeri macam ni. Lately memang tidur tak pernah lena...sebab fikiran agak serabut fikir macam-macam...

I have another 3 weeks to settle banyak kerja before I'm going for my course. Susah hati ni nak tinggalkan Adam..susah hati juga nak siapkan sebanyak mungkin kerja sebelum I berkursus...pendek cerita minggu keluh kesah kembali lagi.

Bila urusan rumah tangga dan anak harus diuruskan seorang dan hubby tidak berada disini..dan bekerja full time, harus ada kesulitan. Masa yg ada harus diurus dengan sebaik mungkin..and sometimes, kerja luar jangka yg mengganggu rutin yg dah diatur boleh sebabkan kekalutan dan masalah. My routine sudah berubah pattern as Adam goes to school. If dulu, masa lunch usually spent buat kerja (sebab saya jarang lunch) but now masa tu digunakan untuk menghantar Adam ke sekolah. Bila ada aktiviti yg dibuat masa ni..memang la saya rasa nak jadi Hulk Hogan...ditambah bila ada suara sumbang yg bercakap dia pun ada anak bersekolah tapi boleh aje attend majlis or meeting or apa-apa la event yg berlaku...yes...sure you can..sebab you ada isteri or suami yg tolong hantar anak you...I don't have a husband to help me out.

Sometimes, nak mengharap orang lain faham my situation yg kena handle semuanya sendiri..memang tak boleh la...sebab at my office takde siapa yg berada in my situation.

I am not strong..sometimes menangis juga bila berhadapan dengan situasi-situasi yg sukar ni..just that I know the risks when I let hubby goes...cuma rasa payah bila orang lain tak boleh faham kesusahan saya menghadapi semuanya seorang diri.

Well, now the pictures below bukanlah gambaran kesusahan saya..it's for this boy's daddy sebenarnya..because I know..he misses us more than we miss him..hehe..

Listening to music sebelum crash...tengok mata dah tau tahan mengantuk tu.

Kunun pose ala budak besar la ni..


A Kidnapped Teddy is his companion for tidur nowadays...I call it as such sebab teddy tu hak milik my sis yg Adam kidnapped masuk our room and refused to rturn back.


Ini routine terkini Adam..balik from school, mandi, makan and terus tidur..wake up around 9pm, main and reading session before tidur and bangun esok paginya.

Happy Anniversary

If anak, dah masuk usia bersekolah dah. Maybe ada antara skot-skot yg ada anak sebaya dengan perkhidmatan kan..who knows. Terasa cepat masa berlalu..dari hari pertama mengangkat sumpah taat setia, hinggalah ke hari melapor Basic Graduate Course..yg men-saudarakan kita semua. Panjang cerita jerih perih dan bahagia juga duka sepanjang bersama. Ada juga saudara yg sudah pergi dijemput Pencipta..dan kami yg masih berjuang hari ni menyambut Ulang Tahun Ke-8..serious sebak.

The date is fixed on 12 Feb 2011...Insyaallah. We'll be a week late because the tickets are sold out due to Chinese New Year..I don't mind much. That way I could settle few more works and have more time with Adam.Will update about it when it is confirmed...pray for me.

Colorful work

Whenever we go to my sis house, I always peek to her fridge..sebab so colorful of Alil's drawings from school..and wonder when are we going to have drawings like that on our fridge. My dream comes true today..hehe...Adam brought back his work from school so I put it on the fridge...honorary to the fridge la..haha..It's a collage done by him. Ye, ye..I know those yg dh ada anak sekolah sure cakap apalah sangat benda ni kan? This is important to us as Adam's daddy is not with us and I don't want him to be missing every meaningful moments of Adam's experience at school. He already made friends and even bid farewell to his friends when I fetched him.

The first work on the second day marked its presence on our fridge..

Adam's name is misspelt..I will email to his teacher..

P.s. This is for you daddy... :)

Adam's @ GA-Day 1

Alhamdulillah, at 1530 Adam finished his first day at Genius Aulad Wangsa Maju. I went a bit (ridiculous I know..hahaha) early and I thought I was the first..but to my surprise..I'm not that bad..hahaha..coz dah ada few parents yg dah terpacak depan the kindy. At first the principal released those who are with the transporters and then this one girl who cried once she saw her mama. Dalam hati (and I am sure every mom and dad yg ada kat situ dah gelisah kut anak derang pun nangis camtu juga) I anxious nak tengok muka Adam. Not long after that the principal announced she will release 4 YO dulu...and I nampak la anak teruna I turun tangga berpimpim tangan with one of the boy...I nampak dia tercari-cari I dalam ramai parents yg terpacak tu..heehe..nampak je muka I, terus tolak tangan principal yg suruh berbaris...since I dah tercongok kat depan pintu and I said I'm waiting for Adam..dia terus release Adam..jeng jeng..tetiba budak kecik ni bedebuk jatuh depan I..hahaha..nasib dia tak meraung I tell you..Adam memanglah cegitu gayanya..bila dah focus pada something ke someone ke..bukannya reti nak assess keliling dia dah..longkang ke, apa ke..aci redah aje.

Balik dari GA, sebab I apa pun tak telan dari pagi, only air kosong dengan supplement aje, tanya la Adam nak makan apa...reward la sebab dia behave himself and tak nangis buat drama kat kindy..tau apajawabnya..."Adam dh kenyang makan kek kat sekolah"..waaaaaa....tapi ada sambungan..."Tapi nk makan donashi boleh juga"..hehehe...pantang la...

So, terus la ke Jusco cari donashi feveret dia..

Ni masa I nak bayar parking..sampai umah habis tunggang terbalik donashi dalam container tu..bercampur-campur dah jadinya.Actually dia dah tertidur masa on the way balik dari jusco tu..so terpaksa la mommy dukung..tidur la sekejap and then bangun tengok Pocoyo..while mommy update blog...hehe..itulah kisah first day Adam..alhamdulillah he could adapt to his new surrounding well..maybe dah terbiasa tukar sitter and selalu kena tinggal dengan mommy and daddy...cerita best..I dapat cuti 2 hari you..walalala..alhamdulillah..dapat la siapkan Adam ke kindy.

Adam's First Day at GA

When I started my kindy years and first day of Year 1, my dad just left me at the school gate and I went back walking with others...which differ greatly from Adam situation. Of course, with the traffic, distance and these days crime rate..I will not let my son coming back walking with others. I started my kindy at the age of 6 years old whereas Adam starts his at 3 years 8 months...banyak bezanya kan?

Since I bought his uniform, I procastinated nak jahit seluar dia yg agak panjang. I ni bila menjahit je, mula la tegang otot bahu and leher..tu yg rasa malas aje. Since takde siapa yg nak jahit if I tak jahit, last night I jahit one of his pants..jahit satu dulu la kan...while doing it, I cakap dengan my sis, anak I unbelievable dah nak sekolah dah...hehe..rasa macam muda remaja lagi..

If mak aji yg jahit sure benangnya invisible aje and cute aje..but since anak mak aji yg jarang-jarang pegang needle ni jahit..dah la lama..nampak tak cute pun ada..hehe. I ironed his baju and pants with a thought..macamana ye nak 'lepaskan' Adam esoknye?..hehe..yesterday, I yg tak lena tidur you..

Awal pagi, I ada kerja di Embassy so terpaksa tinggalkan dia with sitter dulu. Masa I tengah siap, nampak dia kusyuk baca bedtime story book atas katil so I snap his picture. Our routine before doa tidur is bacakan dia one story per night..rasanya ada 3 stories lagi yg tinggal before we could move on to another book.
Dari Embassy, I have to 'run' like mad in order to fetch this guy from his sitter house and send him off to school. I do regret for not having a chance to put him on his uniform but nak buat macamana..at least I got a chance to hantar dia to school on his first day. On the way, I snap his picture for daddy and my parents to see...and having missing the moment.

This is while waiting for the other kids to being sent off first..I let him cool down and try to take away his anxiety.

Another few steps to start a new milestone...

He looked worry and nervous but he didn't cry..proud of him...so after kiss him goodbye and wish him good luck, I went away and saw him being led by another teacher to the class. I feel my baby is all grown up now and after letting his hand go..I know, Adam will be a different person already...soon, he'll have friends and teachers who will guide him and be part of his life..we are no more the only significant persons in his life..we have to share that part with others.

My sadness and proudness mixed into one huge emotion. I do pray Adam will become a good Caliph, a pious person and dutiful son as well as a smart boy..Insyaallah.

P.s Adam is very excited to go to school (he said this) and his school hour start from 1330 until 1530 until this friday and he'll come back at 1645 following monday.Be proud Daddy..this is our son!!

We should had completed this one workshop by this week but due to the cuti given by our PM, terpaksa tunda hari Jumaat minggu ni. Seriously, my first week of the New Year dh havoc. Ingatkan dapat la buat kerja dengan tenang dan tersusun..organized. Kisahnya, my new staff was admitted sebab strok..and then the other one is down with fever while the other one is on leave...which leave me alone at the office.

Tarik nafas panjang-panjang....exhale...tapi cam tersangkut..huhu..minggu ni dah la banyak kerja, unexpected things camni yg buat saya rasa macam nak ketuk-ketuk kepala sendiri. Ye, ye..kenapa bagi cuti pada staf yg sorang tu..or kenapa tak tarik balik cuti dia and suruh dia datang kerja. Saya terfikir juga la..dan memang saya boleh buat macamtu. Saya pun ada anak yg kali pertama nak bersekolah..tapi saya tak bercuti pun. But, itulah yg membezakan sikap pegawai dan sikap anggota bawahan. Bak kata Boss saya yg terdahulu...jgn bersikap seperti anggota bawahan sedangkan anda adalah pegawai. Jika anda bersikap seperti mereka..tiada beza pangkat di atas bahu anda..huhu...prinsip camni yg buat aku fikir berkali-kali.

Rasanya saya akan buat pembaharuan terhadap mutu kerja saya dan anggota dibawah perintah saya. Insyaallah. Sebab saya dapat rasakan, mutu kerja yg diberikan semakin menurun prestasinya. If you can't trust yourself to be better...push yourself harder to be the best la jawapnya...sigh sigh...

Maid Oh Maid

Last entry I talked about interviewing maid untuk jaga Adam until he goes to school. So, kisahnya dari hari Jumaat la berjanji dengan akak ni..tapi sebab Adam demam, saya tangguh la..seriously if Adam demam, I will not go anywhere sebab panas dia boleh naik mendadak. Semalam pula ambil my sis di Jln Duta and hantar dia ke rumah..so pagi tadi jelah berkesempatan berjumpa. Rupanya dalam masa I duk tangguh tu dia dah dapat kerja baru as tukang masak.

She was married to a Malaysian guy (dia ni warga Indonesia) and ada sorang anak yg dah besar...then bila dah ada kerja dia suggested I hantar Adam to her to take care at her house. And her house is at Kg Baru..huhuhu...part ni yg susah nak kasi dia faham..I'm looking for a daily maid who could come to my house and go back after I come home. Saya tak mencari baby sitter for my son. Few times juga la dia duk ulang cakap if I boleh hantar ke rumah dia, she's willing to take care of Adam. Lastly I cakap la..if dia dah dapat kerja then it's okay la..tak payah la. She then recommended her friend pula yg katanya mencari kerja..I said (tak mengharap la janji orang yg macamni) if ada takpe..if takde pun takpe..not to worry.

Without a maid, Adam probably kena balik kampung juga duk dengan my parents. Maybe that's the best for Adam and my peace of mind la rasanya...wallahualam..Allah know the best for us.

Welcome 2011

My plan to do an entry for the last day of last year tak tercapai..waaaa...I switched on the laptop and even prepare to type an entry but then hubby called to wish me Happy New Year, langsung terlupa..hahaha...dengar suara hubby je lupa apa kerja nak buat..terrible me and my lovesick la. Last year we were together sambut new year di rumah baru...this year sama juga, just sambut alone tengok firework dari tingkap rumah je...from the family hall, boleh nampak Menara KL, from my bedroom boleh nampak KLCC so tak payah bersesak pun boleh tengok view yg cantekk. Just that last night I takde mood nak snap any pictures...really...walaupun sangat goges scene nya.

So, 2010 had left us all with many stories..be it sweet, memorable, bitter or wonder. I have my own share of 2010 and let just say it was full of it. Alhamdulillah Allah still grant me a day of this new year to breath. Adam wake up very early..huhuhu...and of course if dia dah bangun, mommy juga kena bangun walaupun mata masih tutup. Semalam dia demam and after 2 doses of pcm..nampaknya panas dah kurang.

Plan semalam nak pergi inteview maid..yeah..you heard me right..we are going to hire a maid but daily maid yg datang pagi dan balik petang. Why do I need a maid? Secara logiknya memang tak cost effective sebab I ada anak sorang yg dah besar..but sebenarnya ada banyak reasons. If ada rezeki I, maybe I'll be away this February and that left Adam yg bersekolah...terpaksa cuti sekolah for 4 months. Although his principal bagi peluang for trial one month and he will only start schooling back in June...kesian dia la nanti tertinggal jauh. So after lenghty discussion..I will left him with my sister for the months I'm not around. The maid will come and prepare his breakfast and lunch and for him to go to school. Yang kerja lain will discuss with the maid la..we'll see how it goes petang ni.

Where will I go? I don't know for certain if I'm going so I will share once it is confirmed. So far insyaallah la..but mana tau ada last minute change pula.

Apa pun, we would like to wish a Happy New Year kepada semua. Semoga dengan kedatangan tahun baru ni, akan memberi kita lebih rahmat dan ketakwaan kepada Allah swt. Selamat Tahun Baru 2011 you allll....wishes from:

Adam Muqriz dan Daddy, Mohamad Shaifudin

Adam Muqriz and Mommy

...and lastly dari tuan tanah...