Memory Revisited

Back in 2004, I joined this programme called TRYLA which stands for Tun Razak Youth Leadersip Awards under MIM. Back then, the 1 Malaysia concept is not yet implemented but the participants were from various races and yes..we had fun and it worked well.

Teringat ni because one of the participant ada video part of the programme masa di TLDM..one of the leadership module ni tak sah if takde modul ketahanan diri. I and Yanti were the only askar in the group so that part memang dah alah bisa tegal biasa...but memang seronok bila kita joined with others yg tak pernah ada latihan ketenteraan..penerimaan nya macam-macam. Those who joined ni ada yg sudah bekerja, masih belajar or masih mencari pekerjaan..but all in all we ha fun. Insyaallah if ada gathering nanti I'll post the pictures and you could see how we overcome the differences to be together..anyway, kudus to Shah for the video and also the picture with Najib.

Yesterday was Adam's first experience being a kindy student. Class officially will start on 5th Jan 11 but yesterday I registered him, bought uniform and bayar yuran. Since I probably will be away from Feb until May, Adam too will have a long break from Feb tu. The teacher said it will be a waste (buang duit la lebih kurang) to let him start by Jan and continue paying for school fees eventhough he is on leave. She suggested I send Adam for second term class. After lengthy discussion, she agreed to let Adam sit for a trial school session for Jan but Adam will be given photocopy version of the school material. I am grateful for even a sit in the class session as long as he is given an opportunity to go to school for next month/next year. He is soooo looking forward to go to school and remind me so often to alter his school uniform. The thing is, he is tall so 'S' size uniform tak fit..'M' size pula seluar agak panjang so I have to alter sedikit. But then, cerewetnye dia with his uniform...when I said I nak basuh dulu, siap pesan jangan berus kuat-kuat nanti koyak..hahaha..like la mommynye memberus baju kuat sangat. Pagi tadi dah tanya bila I nak lipat kaki seluarnya. Nak rasa annoy pun iye juga but mostly I'm amuse dengan kerenah Adam.

Since balik dari kindy, baru nampak rajin sikit nak belek buku, play with the alphabetical map yg I beli dah berkurun simpan, yang selama ni dia main buat construction building sahaja. Baru start tengok coloring book yg ada alphabets tu. Sebelum ni, bila start ajar je ABC or 123, rasanya adalah sampai halfway je..then mula la complaint macam-macam...penat la, dahaga la, sakit leher la..sooo original. But sometimes, out of blue dia akan nyanyi ABC..sampai Z..haha..so cara Adam belajar is through listening and watching..bukan reading...typical la. Mommy kena polish Writing and Reading Skills la nampaknya..Speaking so far takde masalah..masalah nak ajar dia letak full stop aje sekarang ni..haha.

That's Mohamad Adam Muqriz's progress who is 3 years 8 months and 19 days today.

: Done shopping for Adam (School bag, shoes, socks, stationaries-although the kindy will provide it but he insisted on something he pilih sendiri..hailah).

: Done bills payment..hopping in the afternoon glaring heat to pay all the bills..fuhhhh.

: Not yet is hair cut for Adam...he badly needs it.

:Despair..over driving back to KL...expecting MASSIVE Traffic Jam..huhuhuhu...

Conclusion: Very, very hectic, tiring and so not relaxing weekend.

Boss (not the one yg I selalu mention..I have several bosses kan..) said to me through phone: Are you ready?

My standard answer (being the askar): Yes Sir although it is not confirm yet..but I'm ready...(padahal apa yg readynye? Kain baju? Kerja berlambak tahun depan if ikut takwim? Adam yg nak kena tinggal again? mental? fizikal?)

Boss: Good, kira confirm la ni..apa yg tak confirm pula?so please settle the documentation with the **** on Jan okay...I take it you have no problem?

I: Noted that sir...I have no problem with that plan (but dalam hati dan kepala ni dah start plan camane nak susun all the work).

Call me pathetic but that's how I was trained...never say No unless I already try it and can't do it anymore. Sometimes makan diri sendiri la...conflict of interest.

I talked to mak Aji..talked to hubby and though I got their blessing...hanya satu sahaja yg buat saya rasa berat hati. Tapi yelah..both hubby and Mak Aji said ini rezeki and dugaan yg datang sekaligus...dalam Allah beri rezeki, Dia juga uji saya dengan cabaran berjauhan dengan anak kesayangan saya.

Owh...sungguh fikiran saya sedang sibuk berperang dengan macam-macam perkara...

p.s Hubby, saya upload gambar photoshoot dengan gambar di Genting in my next entry okay ye?

Towards the year end ni kan...sebolehnya dan idealnya..dapat bercuti dengan keluarga, bersantai dan menggembirakan hati dan hati anak...more bonding time dengan anak yg terbiar dek kesibukan mencari rezeki. Berehat dan recharge untuk tahun depan yg masih panjang...haha..angan-angan jelah yg boleh kan.

Adam dah la kena tinggal dikampung..susahkan my parents pula nak menjaga dia. Memanglah dia dah besar dan penjagaan lebih mudah tapi hati rasa kurang gembira. Time sekarang la ibu ayah nak dapat peluang dating..tapi bila ada cucu ni..ehmm...susahlah.Ibu nak ke masjid dan mengaji agama pun susah.

Hailah hati...hanya Allah dan diri sendiri aje yg tahu beban yg ditanggung. Outstation yg bersusun dan satu lagi dugaan yg bakal mendatang datangnya Februari. Jika orang bertanya bagaimana saya nak lalui...terus terang, saya belum fikirkan..sebabnya, perkara belum pasti jadi saya tak mahu bebankan kepala saya dengan masalah yg belum tentu tu. But sometimes during wee hour I woke up from my slumber..yes, saya ada fikirkan dan saya tak pasti samada saya cukup kuat untuk lakukannya...but Allah takkan menguji saya sekiranya saya belum bersedia kan?

On a different note, saya sedang kebosanan di Melaka..huhu...tapi malam ni saya nak tidur awal dan recharge for tomorrow meeting.

Random during break

Absence rend le cœur pousse fondr

mais mon coeur pleure

du vide et la douleur

Je m'ennuie de toi mon amour

I have a lot to say of lots of things that happen. But saya kena prioritize kerja..itu kan azam saya masa awal tahun..hingga hujung tahun pun masih belum pandai. Sekarang ni masih lagi belajar. So for dua hari (semalam dan hari ni), priority saya untuk kerja-kerja terjemahan laman sesawang Rejimen Askar Melayu Diraja. Terpaksa la simpan dan jerukkan cerita yg ada..in which akan ingat-ingat lupa la nanti. Apa nak buat...kerja saya sepenuh masa bukan penulis blog kan?hahaha.. I'll be away for awhile...hingga perkara penting telah dilaksanakan dengan jayanya. Insyaallah.

Dedicated to daddy (requested by Adam to show off his talent) yang missing his anak teruna. Tok nye kata tak payah beli mainan dah next time because Adam could use other toys to make a car port and workshop (binaan dari kerusi, cap dan yg lain-lain tu) menurut description dari Adam when asked.

Harini pula sedang mengasah bakat colouring pula...habis dikerjakan craft book tu dengan contengan yg berbentuk bulat-bulat. I will post the pictures of his work later for daddy okay. But one thing for sure..before he starts with his work..tak kira messy macamana pun..dia akan susun dulu colour pencils..haha..habit mommy yg jadi ikutan. Well done Adam..we'll work out your other talents lagi nanti okay.

:SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1430:

Jangan lupa doa akhir dan awal tahun. Selamat menyambut tahun baru dan beroleh keberkatan dalam hidup seharian dengan azam yang dirahmati.

p.s Thank you hubby dearest for the wish. Insyaallah I will try harder to become a good wife and best friend to you.

p.s.s Gambar tak boleh upload..dunno what's the problem. Memadailah dengan ucapan rasanya.

Weekend was spent memenuhi hajat Mak Aji dan Adik. We went to Jalan TAR and SOGO for Mak Aji's shopping craving. SOGO memang tengah sale. As usual la handbag yg menjadi pilihan Mak Aji. I would like to shop also (MAC memanggil melambai je) but mengenangkan big plan coming soon...simpan jelah duit.

Jalan TAR macam biasa la penuh dengan manusia. If it is me, memang takkan kesana la if takde urusan yg betul-betul penting. Adam was cranky sebab letih berjalan katanya.

Next week I'm free from outstation and sangat lega rasanya to be able to be at home but week after that, memang tak berada di rumah la sampai tahun depan (bunyinye macam lama je).

2010 dah hampir dipenghujung...tahun yg penuh dugaan, cabaran dan kehilangan. Dua tahun berturut we had been tested dengan kehilangan..and next year hubby akan pulang kepangkuan kami berdua.

Mak Aji dah nak balik minggu depan..which mean Adam juga akan ikut sebab I will have to go for another series of outstation. Sunyi sepi semula la rumah ni.

This is a post event which baru sekarang I have a chance to write about.I had a week (more or less) seminar at PD starting tuesday (last tuesday). Since I got a room for one, I planned to angkut Adam and of course Mak Aji to accompany me. Because he was like..."Adam nak duduk hotel mommmyyyyyyy.." sampai bingit telingaku. So I told Mak Aji that I will go and see how the hotel first because honestly..for my duration of 2 years tinggal disitu, I would say that hotel would not be in my list of hotel to stay. Adding to the bad review I got from the other visitors, I'm not that keen nak bawa Adam but yelah, sometimes ada hotel yg values respond from the visitor and try to upgrade their services kan.

Since I went there just in time to sit for the morning session, tak sempat la nk masuk bilik lagi..but I went to the loo and of course..once glance dah tau camane. Masa lunch break, I masuk bilik and the first thing that greeted me was a very unpleasant smell of wet carpet and dusty carpet..yuck yuck. Even when I opened the window pun tak dapat nak hilang the smell.

Itu satu hal la..at night pula lain ceritanya..jeng jeng jeng...since my room was at the farthest end and there was no occupant beside my room (I know sebab the balcony light was off and takde dengar suara orang bercakap), supposedly sunyi sepi la kan...tapi the night was very noisy sampailah I told the 'noise' to keep it low sebab saya letih and I need my sleep.

Patutlah Mak Aji ada tanya saya boleh tidur ke tidak masa 2nd night tu..haha..second night was peaceful sebab bilik sebelah dah ada orang and I pasang the quran recitation all night long.

I guess hotel semua fully booked so that hotel was probably the last choice. I have another meetings coming on soon..tapi Mak Aji nak balik kampung dah sebab ada kenduri (and she misses Pak Aji la our guess..hehehe).