This boy's hair is a bit long but mommy like it very much so mommy will get it trim to the minimum..haha.. Although ada makcik yg tanya, ni lelaki ke perempuan? Aduhai..if anak I ni perempuan..tak ke dia pakai skirt? Mommy dia ni sikit punya teringin le tengok all the blouses and skirts and all the girl things... "Dia tak rimas ke rambut panjang ni?" Of course la rimas makcik tapi mommy dia still has a say in his hair style so selagi ada hak ni mommy dia nak gunakan sepenuhnya la..haha..tapi susah nak jaga la..kena extra care..kalah mommy punya hair care..start schooling sure kena korbankan ni..huhuhuhu..

Why Do I Love School Hol?

I'm not a teacher but I still love school holiday. Because we could kidnap mak aji without second thought...pak aji sekarang sibuk dengan business dia so jarang amat ada di rumah. We all yg kesian kat mak aji yg kebosanan ni ambil la peluang. If hari bersekolah susah la sebab adik kecil masih bersekolah...walaupun kitaorang dah hasut suruh dia stay di asrama je (senang nk kidnap mak aji dan pak aji bila-bila masa) tapi being the youngest..tak payah harap la.

And then, traffic is sooooooo light I feel like singing when driving. Walaupun masa ke pejabat traffic memang sedia tak sibuk, tapi masa balik tu la yg sesak dan senak. If I go back on time (meaning when the clock strike 5 pm), traffic boleh la tahan lagi but if it is later than that..better la jadi penunggu kat pejabat tu until after maghrib. Sesak dengan orang balik dari office, students college yg baru habis kelas..budak-budak sekolah yg blik sekolah dan parents budak-budak yg parking tepi jalan nak ambil anak masing-masing.

Lagi, parking kat area my house is soooooo banyak yg kosong I could choose yg paling dekat dan paling best. My parking yg ada bumbung ada satu je tapi keta tuan rumah ada 3..camane? Rasa nak jual je lagi 2 tu. Ni bukan masalah I sorang je but masalah bersama kat sini..tapi masa cuti sekolah ni banyak yg kosong sebab orang pergi bercuti.

Banyak betul sale..lagi-lagi nak Christmas ni kan..haha..tapi bila mengenangkan outstation yg bersusun ni..huhu..lupakan jelah hajat tu. Shopping kasut dan beg sekolah Adam jelah bulan depan.

Mode: Beginning of flu and fever like symtoms.

But masih unable to sleep. Not because of the cups of coffee I minum di pejabat tadi but because masih mencari idea to write. Bukan for the blog but for the pidato. No, no I'm not the one yg akan make the speech. Only prepare it for someone..sebab I asked for his favor..to do it in favor of me..makanya saya tolong la dia..although I'm not feeling well at all.

Adam demam after my mom demam..and thanks to Raya and long holiday and school holiday..all clinics were closed during weekend. Lastly Columbia juga yg open.. Adam ada a bit infection kat throat and mom got tonsilitis..which confirmed my suspicion bila dia susah nak swallow makanan. Nasib baik pergi awal ke hospital sebelum it swell lagi teruk.

Balik ke KL dengan jam yg takde punca from Changkat Jering's toll. Badan penat and sampai pun late at night.

Pagi tadi went to office, banyak betul pressing matters. Which make me rasa serabut sangat sebab semuanya nak cepat dan segera. Dengan problems staff dan problem sendiri..banyak betul nak difikirkan at one time.

Balik je rumah after bath dah start rasa nak demam...hopefully this is nothing..sebab saya nak cuti dan saya sangat susah nak dapat bercuti..and I have series of outstation selepas cuti.

p.s Hubby..I bukan kurang kasih sayang as I said tapi sebenarnya I tak sihat dan I miss you..hehe.

I and Adam celebrate the Eidul Adha at my camp. He slept very early last night since I told him that he has to be ready very early in the morning if he want to follow me. Saya pun tak sanggup nak hantar dia to his sitter walaupun akak tu bersungguh suruh hantar dia since dia pun keseorangan di Hari Raya. Susah macamana pun I bawa juga sikecil ni. Dari dulu lagi dia sangat suka if dibawa to my office. While waiting for makan-makan, we lepak la at my office.

Cadangannya nak terus balik ke rumah mertua and then ke Putrajaya. Tapi plan satu pun tak menjadi. Anak teruna I bila dah mengantuk dan panas..dia nak balik rumah mandi dan tidur aje. Sempat la I did my laundry and kemas-kemas rumah sementara dia tidur. And yes, we do miss daddy so much. We are lucky sebab we still could see daddy next year...alhamdulillah.

So, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA QURBAN FOR ALL.

Influenced by imitation..I guess macamni le bila takde lelaki dalam rumah. Tu dia kidnap my cucumber tempel kat pipi dia. But I told him, his cheek dah chumel..licin berkilat..tak perlu letak cucumber dah..hahaha. But you know la budak kecik ni..lagi kita larang..lagi le bersungguh dia nak juga. Jangan sampai minta make up pula sudah..but so far he know la that make up for ladies..like mommy and ateh..daddy and Adam tak pakai make up..only perfume..hahaha..

Picture of the drummer adalah request dari daddy. Since I said NO to a guitar..dia sampai mengigau nakkan drum. Sanggup korbankan set Chuggington demi drum itu..so, everytime dia ada di rumah..itulah keje dia..jamming dengan drum set.

So daddy, enjoy the pictures..

Of late, so many things happened and almost in tandem...which left me at the mercy of fate and luck. Since I'm the one who have to make the decision, think of ways to solve the problem and also the one who have to face all the consequences...I have lots on my plate right now. Being a very much normal human being... I do feel so tense and up to the point of depression. The obvious sign are the nagging backache and headache. Yesterday I thought retail therapy will do me good especially when hubby paid for it but how wrong I could be...and ignorance enough to think that buying clothes..no matter how expensive it is could cure my restlesness. Sure enough it provided a good adrenalin rush pumped through my system but it didn't last long enough for me to feel calm, rilex and collected to face the challange.

I don't know what else will be good for me except from praying, reading Al-Quran and recite the selawat every time I feel I'm at the lowest pit. So I (again) got these set from Dr Zaza...after lepak-ed at her clinic this evening...went back and nearly dozed off in the tub while Adam was watching Mr Bean (again). Can't find time for a spa treatment so I did it myself at home. Hopefully i will be able to sleep like a baby tonight without nightmares and hopefully Adam will not wake up (again) in the wee hour demanding foot rub..I only could hope.

p.s Anyone interested with VS product with discount of course, could contact me.

Susah betul hati..gundah gulana jadinya. Resah...rasa berat je perasaan. Pesan sidia jika hati resah banyakkan baca Al-Quran, solat sunat. Saya tahu semua tu dan saya buat. Tapi adakalanya hati resah ni tak nak mengalah. Bukan saya tak biasa ditinggal-tinggalkan tapi ada certain time...saya perlukan someone to comfort...offer me a warm hug after a long hard day at work after kena maki hamun segala. Sometimes Adam also could be a challenge for me..ada masa dia punya keinginan..dan kenakalan as a kid. Sometimes when I'm too tired and emotionally drained..I feel so down and frustrated dengan kenakalannya. Dia dah besar..saya tidak boleh lagi memarahinya seperti yg saya buat sebelum ni. Tapi ada masanya saya terlalu penat untuk berdiplomasi.

Saya senang hati bila sidia kini bertugas ditempat baru...tidak lagi akan keluar membuat patrolling setiap hari...tapi masa untuk berbual (ber ym) sudah terhad dengan beza waktu 7 jam. Dikala saya sudah melelapkan mata..dia baru habis waktu kerja. If dulu selepas patrolling dah boleh online..tapi sekarang..masa semakin terhad. Saya rindu teman lawan bicara saya, saya rindu my devil advocate, saya rindu logik diayg sometimes buatkan saya geram dan saya rindu segala-galanya tentang teman hidup saya itu.

p.s. saya sedang emo sebab apa tah..

Still fuming because he didn't get the loop set in which I told him to be grateful..not all kids get what they want.

Amazingly this is my first entry in November. Sad but true..I've neglected my 'story book' for awhile. Worry not..I'm still alive and bouncing here and there..as usual working my ass off. I have around 3 events (until now) before the year end...fuh! Hopefully Dec will be kinder to us. Which left me with Adam's registration unregister YET!! Yes, yes I will do it soon and Yes again I will register him definitely (Thereby hoping my mom will come here soon).

Of late, he has been nagging me (unmercifully to my ears every waking hours) to get him a guitar...owh yes..you do read fine..your eyes do not betray you..Adam is asking for a GUITAR. I don't know where he gets the idea of wanting to play guitar (Mr Bean cds did not have any of this, I checked one by one last night) but he expressed his intention quite effectively by showing the act of strumming it...pengsan. The other day at Toys' R Us..he saw a drum set and he wailed (very loudly) for it and I said no..very firmly and he settled for the Chuggington's repair station set, which was the initial intention of going there. Actually, he wanted the loop set but the said set was not available at IKANO and I have to brave the crowd and the horror of traffic to go all the way to Mid Valley for it...so I told him..if he could settle for the repair station, I will buy it..otherwise he'll have to go home empty handed..and of course the smart guy will agree..hehe.

And while touring the outdoor toys section, he was distracted by the swing and slide thing which costs thousand and of course..mommy is more willing to invest the thousand for that for Adam's education fund..sorry dear..of course you couldn't get your heart desire all the time.

And last night..we discussed about circumcision...haha..I guess daddy was pretty shocked when I told him Adam said he didn't want to be circumcisioned because it will cut off his birdie and it will cause him pain. I know he is 3 years 6 months 29 days old but I also don't know where he picked it up when the only grown up he is with are us ( I and my sis) and of course we do not discuss about that matter at all. I'm hoping (really hope)..the wet dream bit will come after daddy is around...I'm not sure how to discuss these things...cause for me Adam is still a baby..in my heart..he is the little boy. When did he grow up to talk about those things eh?