The Journey part 2

YLepas balik dari hospital tu I rasa the contraction intensified tapi fikirkan maybe awal lagi, I diamkan dulu. Sakitnya lain macam aje this time. Mom paksa I makan petang tu sebab bila dah start sakit tu dtg kerap nanti dh takde selera nk makan katanya and I will need extra energy for the hard work later so I pun makan walaupun takde selera dh sebenarnya. Then after maghrib dah memang nak bercakap pun tak mampu. Around 10 pm camtu I cakap dengan hubby, rasanya it is time to go to the hospital. Masa tu air ketuban memang tak pecah lagi and takde apa-apa show selain dari intense contraction. Sampai kat ER, tetiba urat belakang I tarik. Terus cakap dengan nurse I nak pitam. Masuk untuk check, the same Dr yg checked I petang td bagitau I dah buka 4 cm. So walaupun sakit, I rasa positive la kan. Inshaa Allah dapat le normal delivery this time. I was wheeled to the labour room and bila Dr O&G checked bukaan, I was bewildred, horrified and nervous sebab TAKDE BUKAAN lagi. Rasanya korang boleh imagine kut camane sakit bila dua kali buat VE, plus the second time tu Dr kata dia tolong untuk bukakan bukaan plus contraction yg dh makin kerap. After that I was transfered to the ward for the night. Memanglah tak boleh tidur tambah lg dengan dua belts yg melilit perut to monitor contraction and heart beat baby kan.

8 Jan 2013

I was commisioned into the service on this date 10 years ago and I was wheeled into the labour room at the same time I received my scroll, at about 1000H. I struggled with the pain and knowing yg there is no opening yet and baby position is still high, I have trouble to stay upbeat and positive. Just when the Dr help to speed up the opening dgn pecahkan air ketuban, the real pain of labour started. Gynae keluar masuk to monitor my progress and finally around 1200 camtu, pakar O&G, Brig Jen Dato' Dr Razak masuk to explain the real deal. He told me that emergency caesarian had to be performed sebab baby heartbeat is getting slower and my pelvic bone is small and normal delivery is difficult. Baby position is not helping normal delivery to progress. Sebab apa nanti I have to reconfirm dengan hubby sebab by then I was delirious with pain I barely acknowledged apa yg Dato'cakap. Yg I ingat I senyum bila dia kata takkan nak dapat anak pun menangis...haha.
So, I was transfered to the OT about an hour later. Masa tu gynae dtg buat VE again. If I was not in too much pain, memang I nak cakap tak yah la seksa I lagi.hehe. When she said, my cervic dh dilated at 8 cm dah, I macam confused, boleh go for normal delivery tak? But she said the risk is still there so pasrah la kena sembelih lg my tummy. I remember being so tired and I slept on and off during the surgery. Alhamdulillah Allah SWT permudahkan urusan kali ni and tepat jam 1414H, 8 Jan 2013, our second son was delivered to this world.
He was born with umbilical cord tangled around his neck. That was why I cannot deliver him through normal delivery. Alhamdulillah the cord was loosely tangled, otherwise it could lead to something more serious. Misalnya if I insisted for normal delivery juga.
Hubby was there, in tears bila Dr cakap we have to opt for the emergency c-sect. I lak rasa legaaaaaa, dalam hati bleh cakap lagi, cepatlah belah perutku. Sebabnya contraction memang dah full force tapi Dr kata tahan, tahan, jgn push. Uishhhhh.. cakap memang la senang kan tapi orang yang nak kena buat ni la yg rasa sangat susah. Naturally bila bukaan dah sampai 8 cm plus contraction dh kuat, kita automatically akan meneran tanpa disengajakan betul tak? But, Dr ada reason when they asked not to push.
Lepas keluar dari OT they placed me at recovery ward for awhile sebelum I was wheeled to the Observation Ward. Usually after a night at Observation Ward tu dah boleh masuk ward biasa dah tapi disebabkan I have few problem post op maka I stayed there until I was discharged.

To be continued...

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The journey

4 Jan 2013
Braxton hicks dah start semakin kerap. I even time it up berapa kali perut mengeras. Indeed it is more frequent than before. Baby is very active. Kicking my ribs, buat wave la sampai boleh nampak my tummy bergerak from bujur to a very odd shape. Hehehe. Lower back pain yang selama ni sakit on and off dah start sakit but not too intense yet. Same goes to the lower abdomen discomfort tu. I tell you, nak bangun bila once dah duduk tu punya la seksa but if I sit for a long time nanti backache pulak. Then maybe sambal hubby masak agak pedas so the whole night I frequent the loo sampai rasa letih. Manja pula perut I ni lately sampai pedas sikit tak tahan.

5 Jan 2013
Awal-awal pagi hubby dah bertolak ke Lumut to settle his work and then to bring my mom to Kl. Since hubby is going to start his one year course here and coincidently the course will start during my due date period, I have to rely on mom to take care of me during the early days of confinement period. Plus Adam pun akan start going to GA next week. Memang banyak la event next week. So, instead of balik kampung to deliver, we have to deliver here since once hubby start his course, tak sure dia boleh balik masa I nak deliver nanti. Of course dia nak untuk be at my side during delivery and azankan our baby walaupun I cakap I tak kisah sangat to deliver alone. My dad pun ada to azankan if it comes to that kan. But I have to listen to his wish juga kan. Dah la katanya menunggu nak dapat baby no 2 ni sampai 6 tahun. Maka tak dapatlah anak no 2 I ni jadi orang Perak like his abang.

6 Jan 2013
Alhamdulillah my hubby and my mom selamat sampai semalam around 2130H. All the while he was at Lumut, asyik wassapp tanya I ada sakit ke belum, dah makan ke belum. Kesian hubby I. Nak kemana-mana pun hati tak senang risaukan I sakit masa dia takde. Biasalah bila dah cukup term ni, keselesaan optimum tu memang takdelah kan. Tidur pun tak lena, berjalan pun kelajuan sama standard dengan kura-kura je rasa. Dari dapur ke family hall rasa macam jauh sangat..haha.
As usual, bila my mom datang, macam-macam la yang dibawa bersama. Buah rambutan la, tempoyak la, daun pandan, daun kari, daun limau purut semua dibawa. Senang nak buat air mandi I nanti katanya. Bunga kantan pun ada nak dibuat laksa. Lunch tadi dah dimasak sambal tumis ikan bilis yang mak yong teringin nak makan, petang ni pula my mom masak laksa sebab bila dah bersalin, I selalunya tak makan dah laksa until anak I dah dua tahun camtu so dek kesiankan mak yong yg menunggu masa je ni, my mom pun buatkan. Habis la musnah diet routine my hubby and my sis. Tapi yg my mom masak tu semua untuk mak yong kan, takde siapa yg paksa diaorang makan pun.
So far I takde rasa sakit-sakit yg tak tertahan lagi la. Rasa macam kedudukan baby pun still tinggi. Camne rasa? Bila bangun dari posisi baring, masih lagi terasa ketat kat tulang rusuk. Bila tanya my mom, jawapan dia sama je ngan jawapan dlm buku mahupun pakcik google which is, baby tu tahu bila sampai masa dia nak turun sendiri. Hehehehe. Apa yg boleh dibuat sekarang, banyakkan berdoa dan tawakkal pada Allah SWT. Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui.

7 Jan 2013
Semalam I mentioned to hubby yang if baby nk keluar anytime pun mommy is ready sebab dah makan laksa. Hehehe.. Then malam dah start sakit sikitx so I rasa macam dah tak lama ni. Then, pagi around 1000 masa I tengah kemas dapur, rasa cam nak ke toilet. Jeng jeng jeng, tengok dah ada bloody show kat panty liner. Apa I rasa? Takde la nervous sebab nampak darah ke apa sebab mentally rasanya dah prepared. Tunggu until 1500 baru ke HAT Tunku Mizan. I rasa belum masanya but just in case kitaorang gi juga la check. After ctg and VE ( yang ni sangat tak suka okeh), Dr tanya I samada nk admitted atau nk tunggu kat rumah. Of course la I nak balik kalau takde keperluan. So, balik dulu and tunggu la masanya tiba. Sangat berdebar. Owh, and masih takde opening and baby pun tinggi lagi. Masya Allah, apa pun kami berdoa agar dimudahkan walau dengan apa cara sekalipun kelahiran baby nanti.

Will be continued...

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We are waiting

Alhamdulillah it is already the second day of the new year. Since Adam school session will only start next week, takdelah we all sesibuk kawan-kawan yg menghantar anak kesekolah hari ni. Harini mak yong sibuk settle urusan LHDN dan LTAT sebelum terlambat..hehe. Nanti dh start confinement susah la pula hubby nak uruskan dek dia pun akan start sibuk dengan studynya.
Settle urusan di LHDN Wangsa Maju, terus ke Columbia Asia Setapak for appoinment. Patutnya jumpa Dr Sudha my gynae tu hari Isnin tapi dia ada emergency case jadi ditunda kehari ni. As usual during consultation and scan, bagitau la dia yg kadang- kadang rasa cam menstrual cramp and backache. Mula-mula dia kata uri cam kat bawah, kat situ mak yong dah gelabah. Alamak,camne all these while elok je terletak tetiba kat bawah lak? Then after awhile, which agak sakit gak la since dia pressed kat bekas luka c-sect tu agak kuat to get a clearer view, dia kata okay uri terletak elok. Fuhhhhh, alhamdulillah. Tapiiiii kepala baby belum engage lagi. Still high katanya...hukhukhuk. Then for safety measure she recommended ctg. Jadinya terlentang la mak yong for 45 mins. Baby pulak tidur so masa yg patutnya 45 mins je jadi longer than that sebab midwives terpaksa goncang-goncang kacau baby suruh bangun. Alhamdulillah baby is doing fine in mommy's tummy. During the ctg, ada la very mild contraction so Dr Sudha kata try buat VE. Masa dia kata let's do VE to check samada ada opening ke tak, I dah seram sejuk. Dalam banyak-banyak benda, this thing la yang paling I tak gemar. I rasa mommies out there pun paling tak gemar bila kena buat procedure ni kan. Hati dap dup dap dup lagi bila dia kata langsung takde opening. Ni dah minggu ke 39 you all. Through readings and Dr pun cakap, it is not unusual baby head tak engage lagi until labour, but if by 8 Jan masih belum ada sign of labour, other possibility must be considered. Jadi, sementara menunggu masa itu tiba, I am going to do everything I can, inshaa Allah. Doa kami semoga both of us selamat tanpa masalah. Amin.

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First entry on the first day

Alhamdulillah masih diberi upaya dan peluang oleh Allah SWT untuk bernafas dimuka bumi dan berpeluang menulis untuk entry pertama tahun 2013.
Selamat Tahun Baru 2013. Hopefully 2012 yang baru aje beberapa jam ditinggalkan akan memberi semangat yang lebih to us untuk menghadapi cabaran baharu di tahun baru ni.
We celebrated the stroke of midnight by going to bed early..haha. Sungguh tak meriah ye tak? I was not feeling well last night and Adam was very tired so we decided to call it a night though malam masih muda.
Last year we attended New Year Celebration at the mess tapi frankly said, I prefer to spend the remaining hour of 2012 at home, safe and comfortable.
Hari ni we attended Adam's Induction Day at school. Since this year is his 3rd year at the school, takde masalah sangat sebab most of the teachers know him. As usual, we picked up his message book, talk to his class teacher, sorted out his transportation and we are done. Yuran dah dibayar lebih awal sebab tak mau bersesak harini nak membayar yuran dengan parents yg lain. His first day of school will be on the 7th and since tahun ni dia akan dihantar dan diambil oleh school van, we pray for his safety and hope everything will be fine.

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