THROUGH MY EYES

Just pictures- worth million words surely

2012-01-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

Between hectic lifestyle ( which always drive my skin therapist crazeee) and the loves of my life, moments captured through rare events are priceless to me.Yeah,I do post pictures because I love what I see in it and the happiness radiated from it.
Well,I take what it takes to cheer myself,otherwise I will always be the mournful soul who you don't appreciate to be around :)
So, what cheer you up the most?

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POYO?

2012-01-22T21:22:00.001+08:00

Few days ago while chatting with my sis while waiting for the traffic light to turn green,she mentioned about the word above.I know,I know,everybody know it but being me,I want to know what is the real meaning,origin and when we started using it. I asked her but she gave a vague answer as she was also unsure of the real meaning but still use it nontheless (as we all do all the time kan?) So,i use my finger to click on google (which rarely a disappointment) and few findings popped out.
But I am interested with this one url http://m.urbandictionary.com definition of POYO.
According to the website,Poyo has more than one meaning but in Malaysia's context,it is used to define a pretentious,fake,show off kind of person.AND it is an insulting word okay.Alamak!!So I have to ask for forgiveness from my friends whom I blatanly said as POYO.Though meant as a joke or friendly banter among friends, we don't know who may keep it personal. Friends,please forgive my ignorance and if I say it again,it surely mean Pay On Your Own okay.hahaha.smile and have a blasting Gong Xi Fa Chai.

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Flash Mob

2012-01-20T13:14:00.001+08:00

Pernah terserempak dengan aksi flash mob tak sepanjang you all dimuka bumi ni? Apa itu flash mob? Bukan flash flood yang sering terjadi di KL kala hujan tiba-tiba ye. According to Merriam-Webster online dictionary 'flash mob' is defined as a group of people summoned (as by e-mail or text message) to a designated location at a specified time to perform an indicated action before dispersing. Pertama kali used in 1987. Selalunya flash mob ni berunsurkan hiburan seperti nyanyian,tarian dan ekspresi seni. Owh,kalau ada perhimpunan yg berunsurkan politik dan menyanyikan lagu parti masing-masing itu bukanlah tergolong dalam kategori flash mob ini.jangan salah tafsiran ya.
Flash mob lebih dikenali di dunia barat dimana ekspresi seninya lebih 'open' and berani.Namun,di Malaysia juga ada diadakan flash mob okay. Jika kita search dalam youtube 'flashmob Malaysia' kita akan disajikan dengan flash mob yang menarik kerana ada 3 jenis bahasa dalam satu flash mob. Ianya diadakan di KLIA dan saya rasa masyarakat Malaysia sekarang lebih bertoleransi dengan kaedah penyampaian kreativiti seni dalam bentuk ini.
Saya pernah sekali sahaja terserempak dengan flash mob ini di kota Melbourne semasa di dalam tram.Agak lucu dan mengerikan (sebab takut ditarik menari bersama).Sebaik pintu tram dibuka,kumpulan ini terus berhenti,keluar dan menuju ke destinasi masing-masing seolah-olah tiada apa yang berlaku.Penumpang tram yg ada terpinga-pinga sesama sendiri dan kemudian ketawa bersama.
Saya rasa bagus juga untuk buat orang Malaysia tersenyum dengan flash mob ini.Sebab senyuman orang Malaysia sekarang sangat mahal. Do you agree?

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Bunga dan Aku

2012-01-18T22:02:00.001+08:00

Bagi Adam ayat ganti nama 'aku' itu adalah satu dosa kerana dia telah diingatkan supaya menggunakan ganti nama yang sopan seperti 'saya' atau ' I' apabila membahasakan diri kepada kawan-kawan.Jadi,apabila saya atau orang sekeliling dia menggunakan ayat 'aku' dihadapannya,nescaya bakal mengundang kerutan didahinya diikuti dengan kata ingatan bahawa ayat 'aku' itu tidak disukai Allah.
Oleh sebab itu,saya hanya gunakan dalam penulisan atau semasa berbicara tanpa kehadiran Adam.
Okay,back to the root of the story.Diatas tadi hanya preemble.hahaha.maaf ya.
Saya suka bunga yang segar,hidup dan bewarna manis.Saya tidak gemar bunga plastik sebab bagi saya ianya fake dan mati.Therefore,saya hanya punyai 3 jambangan bunga fake ini dirumah.Itupun setelah dinasihati Ibu yg katanya rumah saya terlalu ringkas dan kaku.Bagi saya,tanpa bunga plastik lebih senang mengurus kebersihan rumah sebab tak banyak habuk yg melekat sana sini. Nak menghias rumah dengan fresh flower setiap 2 hari adalah diluar kemampuan. Di pejabat pula,saya tak pernah menghias dengan bunga mahupun gambar peribadi.Yang ada hanya buku-buku dan files.
Namun semenjak saya menjadi Pegawai Penasihat BAKAT,dan dalam pelaksanaan tanggungjawab itu,saya banyak menyimpan bunga-bunga plastik ini dipejabat kerana keperluan.Apabila mengurus sesuatu function atau aktiviti,pelbagai perkara dari yg paling besar dan penting hingga ke yg paling kecil dan tidak penting harus difikirkan.Warna ribbon kerusi,warna font backdrop,hatta tissue toilet pun harus diperiksa.
Pejabat saya yang dahulunya simple dan straight forward telah banyak berubah.
Itulah yang dikatakan,pekerjaan dan tanggungjawab boleh mengubah personaliti seseorang.Kawan-kawan sekolah yg mengenali saya mungkin dapat menilai perubahan diri saya sekarang.hahaha.What about you?

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Stress Free

2012-01-17T22:17:00.001+08:00

Tajuk agak mengujakan tapi percayalah,ceritanya biasa-biasa aje.Banyak perkara 'menarik'yang boleh ditulis tapi memandangkan status pekerjaan saya yang menitik beratkan soal keselamatan dan kerahsiaan maka tak banyak la cerita 'menarik'yang dapat dikongsi bersama. So,banyaknya cerita tentang anak yg bagi saya stress free..when he behaves that's it.
Hari ni saya sambung bermain basketball.Percayalah,lemak-lemak yg dh lama tepu ni sangat susah nk terbakar walaupun saya bersukan 3 kali seminggu(tak termasuk berjalan sana sini melangsaikan kerja).Niat saya nak kurus sedikit supaya baju mess kit saya nanti selesa dipakai.Tapi macam tak berjaya je harapan tu.Owh,berbalik pada bermain basketball tadi.saya telah terpelecok semasa sedang berlari mengejar bola.Terkehel kaki kanan saya.Terasa sengal sampai susah nak tidur.Last week saya bermain basketball dan terseliuh tangan kanan.Nasib juga minggu tu pulang ke kampung so dapatlah saya berurut.Tapi minggu ni ada plan lain jadi tak dapat la balik berurut dikampung.Semasa saya mengambil Adam dari rumah pengasuh,kaki dah terhincut dan trust his eyes,Adam tanya kenapa mommy jln macam senget (ni ayat dia). When I told him,saya tak sangka dia akan reply begini, Mommy tak payah pergi kerja la,rehat dirumah cepat baik kaki tu.When I said I agreed with him but kena hantar di kesekolah dahulu.He replied, Eh,tak payah la hantar Adam ke sekolah,nanti kaki mommy bertambah sakit.Lagipun siapa nak jaga mommy nanti?Hahaha.nice try sayang but off to school you go.
Hari-hari saya yang stressful banyak diceriakan oleh Adam.Ada masa dia tambah juga stress saya but Im happy when I come home and listen to his chatter.Amusing and entertaining.
That's my stress free remedy.

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monologue

2012-01-13T15:24:00.001+08:00

I do thing wholeheartedly,never without worry whenever my bosses give me tasks.I do complained when I think it's too much to be done at a time,not because I don't want to do it but because I am afraid the result will be poor due to lack of time and concentration.I have certain standard when I do things and it really drives me crazy when people especially my bosses fail to understand it. Truly,I had disturbing dreams concerning works all year long, for last year.I woke up confused and anxious every morning. My skin specialist had gave up on me everytime I went for a treatment session.I do understand her frustration because believe me,it's my face and I do feel frustrated too when my-free-from-acnes-pimples-sort-of-problem face started to experience that problem early this year. I blame it on stress and my therapist blame me for worrying too much.
It is not easy to juggle works,child,study and being a wife at the same time without any help from a maid and husband.Coming back on most weekend is not much of a help when I have to do everything on my own on weekdays.Not that Hubby is not important,it is just I have to do a lot on my own. At times,I feel so down and low.Nothing beats appreciation from your boss when you are so tired and burdened with works.I don't expect gifts or expensive things from my bosses.I want my bosses to recognise that the works done were my hardwork,and not claiming I don't have any work and such.Who did all the works if not me?My ghost?
Really,some people just won't realize what they did wrong until it's too late.

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Of branded items and saving plans.

2012-01-10T11:51:00.001+08:00

Saya suka handbag,shoes,baju cantik-cantik,yang fashionable.Bila berjalan tepi kedai-kedai ni kalau tak masuk rasa rugi sangat.hahaha.Since ada anak,minat kumpul handbag dan kasut yg berjenama dah kurang.Kalau ada pun once in a blue moon baru saya beli baru. Sebab keperluan anak lebih utama therefore saya utamakan Adam.Then,saya sambung buat Master menggunakan duit sendiri dan masa sendiri.Keinginan yg ada terus disimpan rapat-rapat because the cost of course fees,ulang alik to class,books for revision,materials and other essentials for assignments and such semuanya ditanggung sendiri menggunakan gaji dan duit simpanan yg ciput dlm bank. Walaupun saya dan husband both are working,and alhamdulillah dapat menampung hidup untuk hidup selesa,we have to be cautious bila berbelanja. Nak membeli macam dulu masa bujang,masa belum ada anak memang tak dapat la.
Bila macam-macam bil nak tackle,bila masa nak menabung kan?Kerja lain ada juga simpanan KWSP untuk hari tua tapi anggota tentera mana ada simpanan begitu.Jadi pandai-pandai la menabung dalam Lembaga Tabung Angkatan Tentera atau Koperasi Tentera untuk simpanan masa depan. My hubby pula menabung dlm simpanan emas untuk the three of us. Supaya ada tabungan untuk pendidikan Adam dimasa hadapan.
Dulu,my mom selalu pesan pasal saving money and masa belum berkeluarga saya ambil mudah perkara macamni.Sekarang ni baru saya realize,wang simpanan ataupun aset adalah penting.Tak banyak,sikit perlu kita put aside dari gaji kita.As my mom said,duit tu sikit pun cukup,banyak pun cukup tapi depend macamana nak agihkan ikut keperluan.
Investment?Itu cerita favourite hubby...I?I prefer to make money by the traditional way.hehehe.

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Tahun Baharu dan Cerita tahun-tahun yang lalu

2012-01-08T12:28:00.001+08:00

Salam to everyone.Being away from this blog for quite sometime now,and nothing more can be used as excuses other than my hectic lifestyle (cheeewahh)..adakah buat saya rasa seperti seorang wanita yang bekerjaya dan independent? Of course begitulah sebabnya namun,kegembiraan bekerjaya dan independent semakin kurang...walaupun gaji semakin naik,alhamdulillah dan saya (sejujurnya) agak risau memikirkan bagaimana nak mencari pekerjaan baru yg dapat menawarkan gaji pada jumlah yg sama seperti tahun ini(*nail biting) but saya berdoa agar rezeki kami dimurahkan Allah S.W.T dan agar dipermudahkan urusan kami dimasa hadapan.
Okay now,it is more or less had summarised my new year resolution.
Banyak perkara yang berlaku dan lebihnya tentang dunia pejabat dan kerja-kerja saya yang tak putus dari awal hingga hujung tahun 2011. Sepanjang tahun 2011,kerja saya banyak fokus terhadap event planning and execution sampaikan tokey kedai cenderahati,tokey kedai barang hiasan kenal baik dengan saya. Saya berharap agar tahun ini,saya akan dapat lebih fokus pada primary duties saya therefore dapat jalankan tanggungjawab sebelum berhenti kerja hujung tahun ini.Inshaallah.
Perhaps I will be able to write again soon here.So long.

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October is here

2011-10-06T15:48:00.001+08:00

Well,I obviously been struggling to produce 2 to 3 entries per month now.Not a good thing for my sanity though.Yeah well,what's wrong with blogging when you are under lotsa stress kan.It's not like you commit something sinful or unforgiving.It will only cause your reader to feel gloomy,depress and unhappy (Only!!!).Hehehe. As I write in this blog of mine, many times ago, blogging release a major burden of stress and unhappiness I often encountered. Or dissatisfaction of anything that I cannot express verbally.
Yup,I am busy,I don't have time to blog more than I would like to,I have to prioritize my work now as I am so desperate to find time to do all the things I have to do and I am simply too tired at the end of the day to do anything else.
My new semester has started officially weeks ago and we have a number of assignments and readings to do but I don't even touch the books. At this stage, I feel like giving up my study. I hate it when I don't have enough preparation for classes and I hate it when I have to hand over my job to someone else to finish because I have class to attend. It is so difficult at this moment because ( I know it's cliche coming from me) I have major events to handle.
My son is growing up alone sometimes when I am at the most busiest week, Often than not he sleeps without my good night kiss...kesian.
So, I started my October rant by ranting about my stressful life.Hopefully I will have something more exciting and wonderful to share in the next entry.Inshaallah and amin.

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Ancaman emosi

2011-09-08T14:37:00.001+08:00

Bila balik kampung dan jumpa saudara mara yang ada setahun sekali baru berjumpa agaknya apa hot topic atau soalan 'killer' korang dapat?Ataupun dapat saudara mara yg jenis tak peduli sangat perkembangan hidup orang lain asal orang bahagia je? I have (alhamdulillah) families yang tak peduli sangat asal bahagia je tapiiiiii...ada pula jenis yg hubungannya hanya sangkut sebab dia kawen with my saudara (sedarah) yang type nye suka melemparkan soalan cepu emas yg buat mata I terkebil-kebil. Sepanjang beraya sekejap tu soalan fave ialah:
1. Takkan family plan lagi kut anak dah 4 tahun?
2.Dah naik pangkat dah?Haritu dengarnya ke luar negara berkursus?
3.Duduk jauh-jauh ni bahaya.Nanti husband cari lain pula.Tak risau ke?
4.Rumah yg beli tu dah siap renovate dah?berapa ribu keluar?
Haiyooooo...ko ni bekas wartawan melodi ke senah weh? Apa la kekdah jumpa sekali setahun ko nak selongkar cerita orang ni?
Bila kita jujur cakap takde rezeki lagi bab zuriat,orang balas kita tak cukup usaha..camane? Dah bila menipu cakap memang plan pun taknak anak sampai Adam masuk sekolah menengah dah ko kata tak elok merancang ni..rancangan Allah lg baik.Dahtu bila kita cakap takde rezeki tu bukan maksudnya Allah nye rancangan lagi baik ke tu?Pening layan orang camni. Bila kita fullstop bab anak,dia cari lagi bab pangkat,bab harta.aduhaiiii..
I nak smash pun orangnya dah berusia.kita kena hormat orang tua.jangan sakitkan hati orang.Tapi bila beria dia sakitkan hati I ni..rasa geram je nak balas.
Walaupun perkara tu nampak kecil,kita tak tahu kan samada orang suka atau tak kita tanya perkara camtu.Nak ambil tahu perkembangan pun carilah yg umum dan tak bakal sakiti perasaan orang.Kalau dah takde apa sangat nak tanya,diam kan lebih baik.sedekah je senyum banyak-banyak.Dapat gak pahala.

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Who is the stranger?

2011-09-07T20:42:00.001+08:00

Sekian lama saya tak dengar nama dia disebut,tiba-tiba harini ada orang call number saya bertanya boleh tak dia nk bercakap dengan Encik H?Saya sampai minta orang tu ulang suara sebab macam tak dengar.hahaha.Sejak bila saya berkongsi no telefon dengan si H ni sampaikan orang mencari dia through this number?
Annoying?No..Angry? pun tidak tapi musykil sikit la.I just cakap salah number ajelah to the caller.Memang salah la pun sebab walaupun saya pernah kenal orang yg bernama mula H tu,saya dah tak kenal dia lagi sekarang.He is just another stranger to me.
The incident was the first after so many years and hopefully will be the last.Amin.

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Rumah Terbuka?

2011-09-07T14:18:00.001+08:00

Alkisah panjang lebar I menaip tulis kisah open house ni tapi dek kerana brilliant nye otak I ni..I terdelete dengan tak sengaja menggunakan cara yg paling complicated.Bravo! Bravo! Sentapppp.Sebab takleh recover.huhuhu.
Takpelah,takde rezeki cerita yg penuh hiburan tadi nak tersiar.
Kisah utama nya ialah niat I dan hubby sayang I tu nak buat kenduri kesyukuran plus open house sebab masih dibulan Syawal yg indah lagi.Staf-staf I yg sekerat dua tu duk menyanyi-nyanyi boss nye tak buat open house ke tahun ni..shesh.rumah I tu sentiasa open for family and friend datang beraya okay.Tapi bila dah start kerja ni korang jangan la ding dong loceng rumah tu time I gi pejabat..of course la pintu tu tak tebuka. Jadi tak payah la tunggu I jemput hampar red carpet baru nak datang rumah kan.hehehe.
Yang leceh a bit for sedara and kawan-kawan yg nak datang sebab kena tinggalkan ID di pos pengawal.Dah nak wat camane I duk dalam kem kan.Tunggu I duk tanah sendiri boleh la korang datang tak kena tinggalkan ID card kat mana-mana kan.
Okay,tarikh nak dibuat open house dah dipilih. Nanti I invite di FB.Just menu masih lagi dalam peringkat perbahasan.Belum lulus lagi diperingkat kabinet menteri dlm rumah ni.Kalau ikut ke jawaan hubby I tu,of course la makanan ala ala jawa yg ada.If ikut ke utaraan I ni,of course la laksa,bihun sup yg jadi pojaan.hahaha.Kena tunggu incik hubby balik belayar baru boleh finalize menu tu.Biskut raya tentu la ada and of course tahun ni I order secara berhemah.Sebabnya tahun lepas hilang ingatan sekejap kut sebab I order sampai la raya tahun ni ada balance lagi..hambek.Tapi I dh buang la sebab dah expired lemau.
So,hopefully kesibukan lepas puasa ni berpada-pada la supaya I boleh kasi staf-staf I tu puas hati I buat open house.Yelah,dah tahun depan boss nye nak resign dah..mana nak merasa dah kan.hehe.And for me and hubby berjumpa kawan-kawab yg hopefully sudi hadir.I tak mention sedara mara sebab harus datang tanpa alasan la kan.hahahaha..

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Raya 2011-The Aftermath

2011-09-05T13:23:00.001+08:00

I was assigned to proof read a book which is going to be launched at the end of this month during a conference.If it is a normal working days,3 days should be adequate for rough checking but when it has to be done in the week of Hari Raya,it becomes a nagging bothersome yg prevent total bliss and happiness celebrating raya.Time Raya ni la nk balik kampung my parents dan jumpa sedara mara yg once a year baru jumpa.Takkan I nk miss the opportunity of enjoying the festive days ni.But work is work.Sacrifice la a little bit of time yg boleh to finish it up.Balik beraya ke rumah mertua dan sempat la singgah to 3 houses of mak pak sedara hubby.
As usual,yg enjoy sakan is Adam.This year ada kemajuan,alhamdulillah our effort hantar dia ke kindy berhasil.Socializing with his cousins and also sedara mara is not a problem anymore.Kalau tak jenuh la bersuruh memujuk segala ajar dia berkawan.
The remaining days of cuti ni dihabiskan dengan tackling the laundry yg bergunung tu,kemas rumah and straightening Adam's routine to prepare him for school.Maksudnya,follow kindy schedule for him siap-siap so that by wednesday dia tak tunjuk perasaan.Ironing belum lagi and also nak isi kuih-kuih raya dalam bekas.Manalah tau ada yg datang bertandang.
Hubby is going back soon too and I will start my busy routine back.The blissful and blessful Ramadan is indeed missed.
Let me share few Raya pictures with you.Salam Aidilfitri dan maaf zahir batin from us.

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Menjelang Syawal

2011-08-26T16:59:00.001+08:00

Semalam selesai kerja dan menjadi mak supir menjemput Adam dari pre-school,saya singgah ke JJ sebab nak ambil barang di Aster Spring.Ingat nak berbuka diluar aje memandangkan hanya saya dan Adam je yg ada...tapi masa tengah main tarik tangan dengan Adam sebab dengan keras hatinya dia nakkkkk juga kereta Ben 10 yg tergantung dlm kedai di JJ tu,hp saya berdering-dering.Mulanya saya nk ignore aje sebab saya geram dari pagi orang asyik kacau saya..tapiiii....bila tertera nama Panglima saya..wahhh....mati I kalau sesuka hati tanak angkat kn.
Saya kena buat editing untuk publication yg bakal kuar tak lama after raya...jadi maksudnya adik-adik sekelian....bekerja la time raya ni hokay.So on Monday kena jumpa Dato' W untuk maklumat lanjut.Notice tak ayat monday disitu....sehari sebelum raya tau...huhuhu....Disebabkan mak saya selalu pesan,bila orang minta tlg dgn ilmu yang saya ada...jgn merungut,jgn kedekut.Jadi saya redha...moga ramai orang yg mendapat manfaat dari kerja saya...insyaallah.
So,dalam masa tu Adam dah happy pilih kereta Ben 10 tu dan tanpa saya sedari sambil saya bercakap dengan Panglima saya tu,saya dah bayarkan harga kereta tu...cisss....melayang sepuluh hinggit saya.

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Di hujung Ramadan

2011-08-25T06:43:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum....
This year saya langsung tak menulis tentang Ramadan yg diraikan. Takde cerita langsung rupanya.Semalam saya berpeluang menjengah sekejap blog sementara menunggu event habis...sedihnya la rupa blog saya yg tak di hapdate ni. Jadi saya telah strategize masa selepas sahur untuk menulis.Lepas sahur ni routine biasa mak mak bekerja la....pressing baju sekolah anak,siapkn beg baju untuk junior learners@,beg buku untuk genius aulad@ dan baju kerja mommy yg sangat lamaaaa nk di press tu.
Apa beza Ramadan tahun ni dan tahun lepas? For us,tahun ni masih lg bertiga (tiada lg tanda-tanda nk berempat) huhuhu...,daddy dah balik menetap di Malaysia (alhamdulillah)...namun dapat jumpa dihujung minggu ajelah.Sama like last year Ramadan,jika takde majlis berbuka(yg sngt kerap dan I dislike),saya masak sendiri juadah berbuka. Walaupun letih sampai rasa nk tidur masa menumis...saya tetap gigih polish skill masak yg tak seberapa ni. Kenapa?sebab susah nk cari lauk yg dimasak dengan kasih sayang di Bazaar Ramadan. Saya serik buang duit beli lauk yg belum sampai masa berbuka dah ugut nk expired. Baik la saya jimatkan duit tu aje.
Lastly,tahun lepas tak berjaya khatam quran tp this year alhamdulillah saya berjaya.Awal Ramadan dh susun strategi and it work..hehe. Yelah,semuanya nak buat sorang kan...kena la susun masa dgn kerja.
Tahun ni raya turn rumah saya..yahuuu....if turn di klang pun ok je tp adik beradik hubby saya semua lelaki jadi kurang meriah la nk share cerita tudung ke,make up ke.Just yg tak berapa fun sebab saya kena drive sendiri dari Kl to Taiping...huhuhu....
Anyway,walau apa pun cerita Ramadan dan persiapan kita nk sambut Aidil Fitri,jgn lupa orang-orang disekeliling kita yg kurang bernasib baik atau sedang berduka menyambut lebaran.Take care.

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The bearable

2011-07-10T23:14:00.001+08:00

Finally...after a very long and unforgettable year,my husband is coming back to us. Right now,I am as happy as a kid in the chocolate factory...or a toysland...or wherever fun...never mind the fact that I barely had a sleep this whole week,due to the well known situation, and I have to wake up really early tomorrow to drive to KLIA. However, the excitement is so sweet..hehe.
I am sleepy but too excited to sleep...haha...like any kids a night before a trip...haha.

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Random on rainy day

2011-07-07T19:45:00.001+08:00

Pernah terfikir apa nama yg nk diberi pada adik Adam...tapi tak pernah ada yg betul-betul melekat dihati.Nama Adam dulu memang dah siap sedia masa dia dlm kandungan lagi.Walaupun masa belum confirm whether he is a baby boy or girl..dh siap panggil Adam.Nasib la keluar dengan 'bird'...kalau tk jenuh mommy n daddy nk modify ikut kesesuaian.
Terfikir juga tamau tau jantina the next baby nanti..best juga kalau menanti apa yg kita tak tau...
Tapi sungguh...masih tiada yg terlintas dihati...

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My Angel

2011-07-06T22:54:00.001+08:00

Sekarang ni bila mommy bebel dh pandai complaint kata mommy bising.Mommy suruh apa-apa sure pandai menjawab dulu baru nak execute. Bab bercakap non stop boleh la tabal jadi juara.Mommy yg cekgu ni pun surrender.Teacher dia kata dia ni sensitif...agak la..kalau tak kena mood,tak ikut kehendak dia mula la sentap aje.Claim kata dah besar..jln ke school tu kalau boleh tak mau mommy pegang tangan dah.Lately ni suruh mommy hantar halfway je...dia nak jalan sorang-sorang ke school...banyak la kerenah...mau orang sambar culik naik kereta ke,motor ke...meraung mommy.
Belajar rajin disekolah aje...balik rumah bila mommy minta revise,jangan kau harap la.Doa masuk toilet katanya boleh baca kt school aje..baca surah al-ikhlas tu pun sebab mommy ugut nak merajuk..haha..
Al-Fatihah dh laju..baca kadang tu macam takde full stop.Yg paling rajin dengar di rumah tu doa makan and doa sebelum tidur.Tapi,bila dengar dia baca ayat-ayat suci,terasa hati ni gembira...sayu dengar dia bertatih membaca.
Ada masa rajin tolong mommy...sampai habis dishwash tu dikerjakan basuh cawan dan pinggan dia.Tapi bila mood mendung sampai,jgn harap la...
Mommy sekarang ni sibuk aje...dah la sorang diri nk handle rumahtangga...ada masa dia merajuk dek mommy sibuk mengadap laptop siapkn kerja...mula la keluar air mata drama dengan ayat drama "mommy tak sayang adam...kesian adam takde orang sayang".Pandai manipulate kasih sayang mommy demi nak dapat apa yg dihajati.
Daddy dh agree nak hantar dia ke morning school.At least psikomotor development tu terbentuk elok dari mengadap cerita Ben 10 aje kat rumah pengasuh.
As Adam grows every day..it is a wonder to wait what new thing he discover daily..what new surprises he throw to unsuspecting us...and how wonderful he becomes each day.Alhamdulillah...we are trying to fulfill the amanah given to us.

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It's time...

2011-07-04T01:58:00.001+08:00

No, no, bukan due nk bersalin...walaupun berharap juga in the near future. My best buddy,soul mate,kawan bergaduh(hehehe),husband,my abang....apa pun gelarannya pada saya...insyaallah akan kembali for good tak lama lagi.Walau tak juga dapat hidup sebumbung after this,kira better la dari dapat jumpa 6 bulan sekali.At least kalau tiba-tiba sakit perut tengah malam,ada juga yg boleh speeding balik ke KL sapukan ubat...hahaha...ye..saya punya manja memang tahap mengada kadang-kadang...ampun la korang kena baca dengan meluat ye. Saya sungguh tak sabar nk melawat KLIA hujung minggu ni...walaupun sibuk tak hengat dengan kerja,ajaib bila boleh senyum-senyum..sebab my other half is coming back la wei...happy overdosed tak kira apa kata orang.

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Pagi yg terang...

2011-07-02T15:17:00.001+08:00

I came back during wee hour this morning..about half past twelve and crashed onto my bed at about 2 am....after a short reading,I succumbed into unconsciousness. As usual,anak teruna I tu early riser dikala weekend..in between bangun urut kaki dia yg sakit, bangun temankan dia ke toilet,bangun lg bila dia nak susu,and again for my own toilet time...dapat la tidur dlm 2-3 jam rasanya. Bila tengok cermin,aduhai...dark ring bergelung bawah mata I yg kuyu tk cukup tidur.Adam dah 4 tahun you all, tapi I tetap kena bangun malam macam dulu juga. Pagi ni nak angkat badan dari katil pun rasa payah tapi dek kerana adik-adik nk balik kg dan juga report card day Adam,kugagahi juga la..
Kisahnya,berjumpa class teacher Adam,Teacher Ida. As predicted for him (my own assessment as a teacher-mommy),dia willing to learn,show more interest in drawing,story telling,coloring than sitting down activity yg perlu konsentrasi.Adam by far lebih towards kinestetik type of learner.I'm still tabling his inclination so lebih senang nak memantau pembelajaran dia.Attitude wise,ada masa he's a bit sensitive, but very cooperative dgn kawan-kawan.I'm not overly worry though pencapaian Adam is average.After cuti 3 bulan and few days off (sebab mommy meeting tak sempat hantar ke sekolah),dia manage to the level yg I feel proud of.
Report card day anak ni sebenarnya mak-mak and abah budak yg lebih excited rasanya.Of course la bila kita pay sejumlah kos untuk pendidikan anak,mestilah perkembangan yg baik dan setara yg diharapkan. This is my first experience...fuh..risau juga kalau anak I tu trouble maker ke kt sekolah..hehe.Alhamdulillah,I appreciate all the work of Genius Aulad's Wangsa Maju teachers for my son.

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Demented and Disturbed(but not the writer)

2011-06-27T17:33:00.001+08:00

"If I could summarize my life,it will take a century to find a full stop."
I read it somewhere but I can't remember when and who said it ..haish. Hidup saya taklah sehebat itu sehinggakan nak simpulkan kisah pun ambil masa berkurun lamanya. Hidup saya sangat simple dan normal (ada masa sahaja berlaku abnormality disebabkan kehendak perkhidmatan) dan kehendak saya juga sangat simple.Saya hanya mahukan kebahagiaan,kebebasan dan kesenangan.Bukan kekayaan tapi sekadar cukup untuk memenuhi tuntutan duniawi. Lately saya rasa ada yg terbuku dihati.Ketidakpuasan yg tak mampu saya jelaskan. As time goes by,saya yakin tentang apa yg saya putuskan dalam diam.Itu yg terbaik untuk hidup saya. As people often said,"Life is short so make it sweet."
Tak perlu saya rasa bersalah kerana tiada apa yg salah dlm keputusan saya.Saya cuma nak berhenti bekerja sahaja.hehehe.hardly a world crisis issue kan.

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I'm a happy tabber

2011-06-23T19:08:00.001+08:00

Owh yeah,the title is to compensate my musing..tak faham pun takpe. But the thing is I finally 'rajin' to find application yg enable me to blog by using my Samsung Tab. Jadi saya boleh update blog tanpa perlu log on to my laptop. Itu cerita intro la.
Isi kandungan cerita this time ni about cerita 'kembara' saya mencari bahan-bahan untuk persiapan sudut inovasi dan gimik pelancaran.Saya rasa macam sedang 'diuji' selepas balik kursus ni.Apa tak nya,one after another function yg perlu saya handle.Bukanlah besar mana pun tugasnya tapi tanggungjawab yg perlu dibawa tu yg agak mencabar. Kali ni sebab di beri tugas membuat gimik yg berinovasi tanpa keluarkan budget yg besar.Haha.Nanti saya tayangkan gambar sudut inovasi dan gimik yg menelan belanja kurang RM300 ye.Sampai saya tak boleh tidur mlm la nak fikirkan cara nak laksanakan tugas ni. Esok adalah perasmian sudut inovasi yg saya usahakan kurang seminggu ni.Will keep it updated.Just wish me luck for its smooth running.

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Long Hiatus

2011-06-07T17:12:00.002+08:00

Rindu betul nak ber blog but each time saya nak post entry surely tertangguh sebab ada hal lain yg lebih SEGERA. Reason yg paling cliche ialah kesibukan saya yang melampaui batas tu. Keluar rumah masa matahari tak naik lagi...balik rumah pula masa matahari dah tenggelam nak timbul balik dah. Reason lain ialah sebab saya masih tak pandai-pandai lagi guna Galaxy Tab untuk meng upload entry blog. Sekarang ni 'laptop' rasmi saya ialah Galaxy Tab..sebab portable untuk dibawa kemana sahaja. Semua kerja-kerja saya dengan mudahnya dibuat menggunakan hadiah birthday dari incik hubby.

Minggu lepas masa saya berhempas pulas di Stadium Bola Sepak Cheras, banyak kerja saya yang dapat disiapkan. Owh..bukannya saya dah tukar profession jadi athlet pula tapi saya bekerja untuk SUKMA ke 14. Kalau korang ada tertengok acara perasmian SUKMA kat television (not sure which channel yg tayang la), itulah yg kitaorang kerjakan selama seminggu tu. ATM telah diminta membantu pihak MSN untuk acara pembukaan dan penutup SUKMA kali ni. Jadi ada la elemen-elemen askar dalam acara tu. Saya pula menjaga bahagian protokol dan jemputan VIP aje..hehe..tapi siapa yg nak jemputan untk acara penutup 12 Jun 2011 ni boleh message saya ye.

Kesibukan tu tak membantu saya dalam hal-hal rumahtangga. Banyak kerja lain yg tertangguh..even anak yg sakit gigi tu terpaksa tahan sakit sebab saya sibuk tak sempat bawa dia jumpa dentist.

Yang agak 'best' pun saya berjaya tengok angka 4 kat weight scale setelah sekian lama. Seminggu ni saya hanya minum air aje rasanya sebab selain dari gigi sendiri yg sakit sebab ketatkan braces..saya sendiri tak sempat makan...minum tu sebab sambil berjalan pun sempat..hahaha..

Agak horror la bila dibaca but saya buat dengan ikhlas dan gembira...cuma sedih sebab anak terabai aje. Gambar-gambar akan diupload berasingan sebab as usual...masih didalam kamera.

2011-05-10T15:57:00.002+08:00

Hari pertama ke pejabat, I do feel a bit lost..boleh? Bukan tak jumpa pintu pejabat tapi tak tau dari mana nak start buat kerja. Kerja ada ke awal-awal ni? Hahaha...percaya la, boss saya tu (menurut kata staf saya), tak sabar-sabar tunggu saya balik ni. Terus masuk meeting esok jadi cuti yg asalnya saya minta start dari esok terpaksa la dibawa kehadapan.

Selainnya, saya rindu la hari-hari saya kekelas. Memanglah agak penat sebab kelas start dari jam 0800 sampai 1700 setiap hari but when we enjoy doing something, we don't feel it kan?

Saya juga terlepas nak wish Happy Mother's Day to all mother. We all bawa Ibu keluar jalan-jalan and we gave her a wrist watch yang dia nak sangat-sangat tu. As long as she is happy, we are happy too.

Since hubby is around (yeay) during Mother's Day and I balik pun on time aje for it..maka dapatlah hadiah..hehe..every year dapat kiss aje from Adam and Hubby..hehehe..that or lunch or dinner treat la. This time I dapat Bread Maker from lovely hubby and Adam. I know I know..orang lain dah berkurun lama dah ada BM ni..dah tukar 2-3 kali dah pun..but I'm still happy for it. So, sekarang ni sedang dalam proses nak belajar gunakan that bm sepenuhnya. Nak guna kena shopping dulu but since balik ni rasa malas+letih nak keluar. Badan masih adjusting to the weather..iye iye..I pergi bukan 3 tahun or 4 tahun I know but bila tukar mendadak ni kan..badan pun rasa tak sihat. Dari sangat sejuk to sangat panas...mana la tak rasa nak demam kan.

Malam ni hubby ajak dating tengok movie..hehehe..dating bertiga la dengan adam. I really want to watch Fast and Furious but Adam mmang sah tanak berenggang from us..but it depends juga la..tengok dulu if the movie is okay or not for adam...bawa dia sama so kena be cautious with the movie content. Sementara masih bertiga and Adam also dah besar, so boleh la bawa dia..nanti bila ada sikecil..hehehe..kena tunggu another 3-4 years lagi la nak tengok movie kan.

2011-05-06T22:25:00.002+08:00

Rasanya macam baru semalam saya berpeluh-peluh selesaikan urusan dokumentasi untuk datang ke Australia. Dan masih teringat-ingat angin sejuk yang menyambut kami di Tullamarine Airport 3 bulan yg lepas. Macam baru semalam aje bersengkang mata menyiapkan portfolio dan assignments. Semalam selesai majlis graduation kami dan hari ni ada beberapa kawan-kawan sudah pun pulang. Giliran saya petang esok dan merupakan orang terakhir meninggalkan DITC (from our course). Semasa majlis graduation, semuanya sebak.. kerana sepanjang 3 bulan bersama, walau ada masa tak sependapat, tapi hubungan masing-masing masih erat. Apatah lagi kami berempat yang tinggal serumah. Rumah yang sentiasa ceria dan gembira dengan gelak ketawa. Walaupun ada kala masing-masing tension dan serabut dengan tugasan, ditambah kerinduan pada orang-orang tersayang...tapi we support each other well.

I do miss the good times we had together...in the class and outside the class. Saya gembira to finally go back to Malaysia but biasalah..tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang...inikan pula tempat mencari ilmu. I'll post the graduation picture later sebab dah pack semua barang-barang untuk balik. Until we meet again all my friends...Sayonara.

Happy Birthday for Soul Mate

2011-05-01T22:40:00.003+08:00

Last 3 weeks saya dapat nightmare. Bila bangun tu memang berpeluh sakan. Saya mimpi saya terlupa wish Happy Birthday to my hubby..boleh macamtu? Haha..punya la saya anticipate birthday dia kan sampai termimpi-mimpi. Harini saya wish awal-awal through phone and facebook. Sebab beza masa antara Malaysia dan Melbourne, jadi saya wish ikut masa Melbourne la..sebab saya ada presentation pagi ni..if saya tersengguk masa present nanti susah pula kan. As usual bila tanya dia nak apa for present..jawapan cliche setiap tahun mesti keluar. Tapi tahun ni saya paksa dia beritahu apa dia nak..hehe..kejam kan saya. Last year saya bagi apa yg saya rasa nak bagi tapi tahun ni saya minta hubby decide apa yg dia nak. Saya nak juga rasa bagi hadiah pada dia. Dari bertunang sampai la dah 6 tahun of marriage, apa pun dia tak pernah minta. At least saya nak merasa juga memberi something he'll use or wear yg saya beli just for his birthday. Again, Happy Birthday to my dearest best friend, my special boyfriend, and my soul mate. Semoga Allah swt sentiasa memberkati dirimu dan segala yg diperlakukan olehmu..my dearest. Happy Birthday from me and Adam. We love you so much.

2011-05-01T15:58:00.004+08:00

I'll be leaving Melbourne in another few days...unbeliveable of how fast time goes by. I am grateful for the experience here..meeting new friends, getting new experiences and of course learning something valuable for my own self. Though some of the subjects are only repitition for me..and sometimes make it so hard for me to concentrate in class because I had learnt it before and I know most of the things taught in the class..but when I open my mind and just shrug off the feelings..I am more at peace and able to concentrate. I chosed to think of other ways of learning the same thing. It is not taxing for me and I am able to enjoy my days in the classrooms better that way.My family came last week to celebrate our anniversary and birthdays..Adam's, hubby's and mine too. Of course I was deliriously happy and the happiness was so intense it is still a wonder I still can concentrate with test that week. Of course, hubby reminded me more than once to focus on my study but yeah..I miss them much and nothing can be done..hehe.

I think this will be my final opportunity coming here as a sponsored student. Again, I had attended all advanced courses and to attend this course itself is a luxury given to me by Allah swt. Maybe we'll come back here as true tourist because I just love Melbourne. You will have to come here to know the feeling. Insyaallah, given opportunity, I'll return back to this lovely city. In the meantime, I have 2 more tests before graduation on Thursday. I'll kiss goodbye to the Down Under on Saturday evening. Most of my classmates are going back on Friday so I'll be alone at the block by Friday night...and thinking of good old times together. I shall miss everyone but as everybody said, good times will end one day and we have to face the reality one day soon.

Adam posing with giant Koala at the Koala's Conservation Park

Feeding Kangaroo at the Farm

Spending the evening at Great Ocean Road

At the city

Happy Birthday Mohamad Adam Muqriz

2011-04-09T19:56:00.000+08:00

You're our precious, our beloved son and little qaliph in our lives. The one and most loved by whom touched by your smile. Our prayers for you to be a righteous son, devoted to your creator and religion. We pray for your well being and happiness.

Mohamad Adam Muqriz, our heart and soul, may the age you gain will bring more for you as you grow up. Fight my little qaliph and never let your sword of courage down to let others trample you with hatred and malice. Always be true and carry honesty above your proud head. Mohamad Adam Muqriz my love, as we surrender our faith to Allah swt, always know that we love you so much and you're always our little munckin of happiness. Happy 4th Birthday my dear son and Insyaallah, Allah will give you the best with our doas. Mommy and Daddy love you so much.

Love from mommy in Melbourne and daddy in DR Congo for Adam in Malaysia.

2011-04-09T19:49:00.002+08:00

Saya dah kata, bila mood menulis datang kan, hari-hari la ada entry. Sengal kaki berjalan seharian tawaf bandar Melbourne..hasil?huhuhu..tawaf Mekah ada juga faedah dan barakahnya kan? tapi kalau tawaf bandar melbourne..apalagi jika tawaf Direct Factory Outlet(DFO), duit la banyak keluar. Minggu ni sale sakan sempena Easter dan Good Friday so ramai betul umat di DFO dan Melbourne City. Bersesak-sesak dengan macam-macam kerenah. Keluar dari DFO, tersentak dengan hujan..alahai..windy and raining semua cukup. Berlari-lari la kami berdua mencari tempat berlindung dan makan malam (merangkap breakfast dan lunch)...terperasan dua student dari Malaysia tapi sebab dah terlalu kedepan..taklah sempat menegur.

Ada masa saya pelik juga..dan tertanya-tanya..segelintir students Malaysia di bandar Melbourne ni agak 'kedekut' senyuman dan sapaan. Bila bertemu ada yang sekadar menjeling aje walaupun disedekahkan dengan senyuman...sadis sungguh dan diluar batas pemahaman saya. Sekiranya bangsa lain berada dibumi asing ni, pantang jika terjumpa saudara serumpun..hatta ditepi jalan pun sakan bersembang. Saya tak nafikan..ada yg ramah dan baik mesra menegur..tak semua yg masam mencuka. Tapi itulah..terkilan bila senyuman dibalas dengan jelingan. Apa nak dikata?hmmm...

2011-04-09T01:10:00.002+08:00

Iye iye..sindrom menulis sudah datang (so glad). Tapi entry bithday Adam I dah tulis lama..during March lagi..haha..sangat excited dengan birthday anak..sebab setakat hari ni kami hanya ada sorang saje permata hati. Susah payah kami nak dapatkan sorang tu jadi maafkan keterujaan saya sebagai mommy.

Saya ada cakap dengan housemate yg saya sangat appreciate weekend ni..err..setiap weekend pun saya bersyukur tapi weekend kali ni saya rasa sangat happy. Ada few reasons:

Saya dah hantar Portfolio Part B (sangat rasa nak menjerit lompat-lompat tapi control okay). Belum dapat feedback dari Guidance Officer tapi at least beban sampai tak tidur bermalam-malam tu dah selesai alhamdulillah. Separuh dari perjuangan sudah berjaya.

Lagi 2 kali weekend saya dapat jumpa hubby dan anak kesayangan saya..insyaallah. Makin dekat reunion kami jadi saya sangat happy overloaded. Bukan senang nak dapat peluang berholiday di luar Malaysia sebabkami bukan kaya raya. Allah tarik nikmat saya bersama anak tapi Allah gandakan rezeki kami sekeluarga..alhamdulillah.

Minggu ni ada sale best sempena Easter. Saya tak sambut tapi saya sambut sale tu..haha. Bukannya boleh shopping bagai nak gila pun sebab elaun ciput aje. Sekadar nak beli barang keperluan untuk guna masa Bush Camp nanti (minggu depan). Tapi perasaan bila beli barang tu kan yg paling best walaupun setakat beli ubat gigi..hahaha.

Hubby ingat saya bercamping esok jadi awal-awal lagi dah turunkan pesan dan doa..hehe..masa tu saya tengah mamai baca sms dia. Then dia call berkali-kali dan saya mamai lagi..iye..sehabis kelas harini saya balik terus zzzz...masa dikelas tadi pun saya jenuh melawan rasa mengantuk dan keletihan akibat tak tidur malam seminggu ni. Punya la dalam hati berdoa jangan tertutup mata saya dengan rasa mengantuk..alhamdulillah..saya berjaya..hehe. Petuanya..saya skip lunch harini..sebabnya kalau la saya lunch..dah tentu mata saya lagi berat. Dan saya ter skip dinner..sebab saya tidur..huhuhu. Bangun jam 12am nk wish birthday anak (dan solat)..perut berkeroncong lapar. Minggu depan dalam jadual ada camping di Lady Northcote Camp. Saya macam berat hati sikit nak pergi. Seronok bila tengok jadual aktiviti. Macam-macam ada..rafting, high rope, giant swing, archery, scavenger hunt. Tapi sekarang ni autumn kan..sejuk masyaallah. And then waktu solat saya la soalnya..tapi insyaallah akan dipermudahkan harapnya. Start dari hari Rabu after lunch and balik hari jumaat. Yang tak berapa nak syioknya..balik aje dah kena prepare another assessment..waaaaa....tak syioknyeeee..

2011-04-03T17:22:00.003+08:00

'Sting' the pilot Stop for breakfast dulu

Sale Botanic Gardens

Siang tadi we sent our friend ke East Sale for his course. After 2 months bersama di sini, terasa sebak juga bila melambai pulang tadi. Malaysian disini cuma berempat dan dia seperti Abang Long yg menjaga kami berdua. Abang Long yg seorang lagi jarang keluar jadi kami bertiga yg kerap bersama. Hari minggu memang rutin kami keluar dari pagi hingga malam dan tanpa dia, memang akan terasa kurangnya. Perjalanan ke East Sale tadi mengambil masa 4 jam lebih juga. Tak silap saya jaraknya dalam 220km dari Melbourne. Our friend akan meneruskan perjuangan for Instructor Pilot Course or IPC sehingga bulan August ni. Semoga dia tabah dan bersabar dengan cabaran baru di RAAF East Sale. Sempat juga kami berjalan-jalan disekitar Port Sale dan tentunya kemeriahan takkan sama seperti di Melbourne. Jika di bilik kami di DITC, kelengkapan komputer dan internet disediakan, disana tiada. Jika disini sangat senang hendak kebandar (Stesen keretapi hanya 1km diluar base), disana perlu berjalan sejauh 7km untuk keluar. Jadi, kami doakan supaya Mej Sting dapat sesuaikan diri dengan baik. Kalau tension pun..boleh terbang dengan PC9 tu..jadi mungkin kuranglah sikit kerinduan pada family dan kawan-kawan di Melbourne.

2011-03-29T16:27:00.005+08:00

Frustrated..I'm burning holes on the notes as well as the computer staring at the words and trying very hard to digest its meanings. At last (frustrated and nearly giving up and searching for other materials), I went out with the other ladies to the mess. I don't really want to have dinner but I just want to have that long walk from our house to the mess to clear up my mind...hoping I could focus on my tasks afterward. Thanks to a gorgeous looking New Zealander, I had a good laugh with the ladies..well, I'm not looking at him and trying to get his attention (the fish on my plate look more tempting and delicious to me) but he happened to sit at our table. I had a good discussion with one Pacific Islander sitting in front of me while my ladies friends were attempting to listen to his conversation with the two guys from Laos. I guess he noticed their interest and announced (out of context as my friend said) that he misses his fiancee. Upon hearing it, the two ladies shut off their antenna and focused on their meals..hahaha..

While walking back, we histerically recollect the moment he looked at us when we were at the lounge drinking coffee after we had dinner. I have to admit he is a good looking guy...and the ladies are right to have starry eyes...hahaha. But we don't want to be blame for any harrassment issue..though as I said to my friends, we could always blame that for being the ETDC students, we are now not in our right mind.

Sigh..sigh...where am I just now? Owh..my reading materials are still on my table waiting for me. I finally decided to go through it one step at one time since I have plenty of time. I'll finish with analysing the 4 articles tonight and continue with the tasks tomorrow and the activities the day after. On friday, I'll have to concentrate on the CALL (Computer Assisted Language Learning) Programme overview and by Saturday, I'll finish half of my task..Insyaallah.

I have to go out on Saturday because I have to buy few necessities for the coming Bush Camp and on Sunday we'll be driving to East Sale. Pilot is going there for his target course and we'll miss another good friend...hmm...not so great week but perhaps a good weekend? We should see, shouldn't we?

Our Pilot is going away soon and we will miss another good and reliable company

My classmates from Indonesia, Vietnam and Thailand

p.s. I miss my Adam and my family too.

2011-03-27T13:10:00.004+08:00

Assignment menimbun tinggi memanggil-manggil minta disiapkan tapi tuan rumah rasa sangat malas nak membaca articles dan journals dihari minggu. Semalam seharian berjalan mencuci mata (sedang berlangsung F1 di melbourne minggu ni jadi bandar melbourne sangat padat dengan manusia semalam and harini juga) di sekitar South Warf dan terus naik train ke rumah sepupu pilot di Carrum. Kami cuma diberitahu ada makan-makan tapi tak la menduga rupanya ada birthday party for darling Hazimi yg genap setahun..aduhai..segan sungguh bertandang kerumah orang yg baru first time tu jumpa tanpa bawa apa-apa. Nak masak pun bukannya kami ni berdapur kan. Cuaca semalam agak sejuk dan menambah degree of 'kelaparan'...bila ramai Malaysian berkumpul..faham ajelah..sedap bersembang dan sedap juga menyuap makanan.

Di Base pula, memang sudah dimaklumkan awal-awal lagi..adanya gangguan elektrik selama 2 hari (Sabtu dan Ahad) for maintainance purpose. Saya sampai kerumah semalam dalam jam 11 malam and by then dah ada elektrik...kalau takde alamatnya tak tidur la dek kesejukan.Harini saya keseorangan di rumah sebab another 3 housemates pergi ke Temple for routine prayer. Sehabis basuh baju and lipat baju, kemaskan fail dan baca sikit-sikit for kelas next week..

Next week dah minggu terakhir bulan March..dan April yg sangat ditunggu-tunggu bakal tiba. Tapi yg agak kurang best sebab kena fikirkan banyak submission bulan April. Research Paper juga kena submit sehari selepas cuti panjang..aduhai...jadinya, in order to be able to bergembira dengan hati senang masa cuti nanti, kenalah bekerja keras dari sekarang dan siapkan kerja lebih awal. Mampukah???

Owh..black crows dah mula banyak...petanda Autumn? hmm..suka betul melepak atas lampu..bila hari-hari mendung tu..sangat rasa gloomy..black crow and gray sky.

view from outside my room..kes boring la ni.

Lone flower still blooms in the midmorning..tatau ada lagi or not in another 2 weeks.

2011-03-19T15:10:00.004+08:00

This week saya demam. Started on thursday dah start feeling feverish and getting worse on Friday. At last, I requested to go back to my room and sleep. Bangun je tidur petang friday tu..woooo..tekak rasa swollen. But hari Jumaat tu birthday my junior yg sedang course sekali with me so tak mau la jadi party pauper kan..kesian amoi tu first time sambut birthday here. After few snaps and melantak cake yg sangat sedap (made by our seconded officer's wife), dengar ghost story and main game, I masuk tidur after telan another 2 panadols. The season is changing and I think it is the main reason. Lagipun dengan penat berjalan ke Sydney and homeworks yg banyak, tak membantu badan untuk rehat. Next week is another challenging week.Dah start sumamtive assessment dah..I'm praying for the best..Insyaallah.

The whole gang albeit Wasito from Indonesia

Blue from Vietnam with me

Finally Wasito made it (Far left)

Here and There

2011-03-16T13:27:00.006+08:00

I love my blog so much and if I don't write that often, it really means something..of course, in my case now I'm terribly busy adjusting my life as a student (full time from 0800-1700). I have so much thing to share, from great experience of going places, our 6th Anniversary and Japan earthquake which resulted the tsunami and becoming a major concern everywhere in the world.

My heart and prayer go to all Japanese and also Malaysians who are there.

Trying to be strong at this dark moment, prayer and helps are the most needed by the people in Japan. Be strong and Insyaallah, our prayers will be answered.

Right now, I'm sitting at my desk trying to recall back events and memories of the past. Having a small gap in between meals and preparation for tomorrow's classes. The course..how should I describe it? When I have no time for my beloved blog..hubby said it should be quite challanging for me. Yeah..in a way I agree with him. Of course, I am doing my Master and I attended AELIC in USA so those really help me with this course. I think what really tiring me every day are the amount of input and also the micro teaching sessions which I really detested.

But I have a fair share of fun (going to places I would never have chance if not because of this course). I had the most tiring driving experience when we travelled for 2000km from Melbourne to Sydney by car. That was the greatest miles I ever did. Then we had the experience of being up close and personal with Sydney Opera House..spent there almost hours horsing around and being lunatic. We drove back and enjoy the 12 Apostles which I think so amazing and wonderful. Our 6th Anniversary came on the 12 th March and hubby called and sms me beautiful words and I truly feel touched. This year we have to make do with simple wishes but very meaningful nevertheless. I'm looking forward April because my husband , son and sister will come here and we'll have fun exploring Melbourne together. I feel sad everytime I go somewhere because I would love to have my beloved together with me.

All in all, please pray for all peoples who are suffering a great deal. may they will be given strength and will. Enjoy the pictures and insyaallah will post an update when I have free time.

2011-02-20T10:41:00.002+08:00

Dah seminggu berlalu and am counting days to meet my family. Pathetic it may sound to many but yeah..being apart is not easy. I call Adam 2 times a day and it is still not enough. He is missing daddy more when I'm not around it seems. Pelik kan..patutnya rindukan I la but dah terbalik jadinya. Whenever I call, he'll ask me to ask his daddy to call him. He even asked tokwan for daddy's phone number so that he could call daddy. I guess all those while when I ada, dia distracted with many things so dia rindu dia pada daddy tu kurang la..but when I'm not around and he has times to think about daddy, tu yang sampai merajuk tak mau cakap ngan I bila daddy dia tak call.

Am not that happy as I may look as I have to think about the little heart I left at home. I guess it is a challenge in weeks ahead as I'll be starting my class tomorrow. I hope I'll be given strong heart and will to go through this. Insyaallah.

From Laverton to Point Cook and Dandeenong

2011-02-15T17:27:00.002+08:00

Since this week we are still on ARPF(Administration and Reception Period Familiarisation), kelas belum bermula. Everything is sorted out during this week like logistic needs, registration and books. Oh yeah, nama pun student kan jadinya adalah buku-buku tebal yg perlu dibaca. Many are wondering what i'm doing here. Well, I'm attending English Teaching Development Course and this course is a 3 month course. Under the MAJDP or Malaysia Australia Joint Defence Programme, we are sponsored by the ADF (Australia Defence Forces) to do this course. Alhamdulillah, yes I'm lucky enough to be sent to attend this course. Bukan apa...selalunya those yang from TESL line memang tak dihantar for this course sebab they said it's a waste of money since we are going to learn what we had learnt. Tapi yelah..I graduated back in 2002..and now is 2011..changes and improvement have been going on and we have to keep abreast with the latest style of teaching kan?

Okay..enough of what am doing here. Nak cerita sebelum ni tak boleh la sebab last minute cancellation pun boleh jadi..hahaha..mau beria cerita tiba-tiba tak datang sini..

Since there are plenty of Malaysian here, rasanya harini je tak de lawatan ke rumah-rumah. Semalam berjalan ke Point Cook ke rumah Seconded Officer di sini and after we had marvellous laksa, roti jala, red beans bun and corn pudding (fuh...calories), we went to Dandeenong to another friend's house..and of course makan lagi..the day before we went all the way to Port Sea to another Seconded Officer. Wife dia masak grilled lamb (I tak makan lamb so tak tau la rasa camane), sambal udang..sebab dia stay dekat dengan laut..near to Port Phillip..udangnya besar okay..yummy..soup yg sedap..makan dengan sambal kicap and ice cream...

Terpaksa la ke gym and berlari petang tu nak bakar all the calories accumulated. So, memang la sangat terjaga makan we all ni..and makan di Mess pun sedap juga..hahaha..sebab halal jadinya memang tak de masalah makan.My plan is to lost another 10 kg..tengok macamana pencapaian nanti..dengan dugaan makan sedap-sedap ni..

2011-02-13T16:54:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah I arrived safely at around 2045H Melbourne time..dalam jam 1745 la waktu Malaysia. After cleared from the Immigration process yang sangat lama sebab ramai orang, we were lucky terus jumpa driver yg sedang menunggu. After daftar and terima kunci dan cards, we borak-borak with Malaysia Seconded Officer here until about 0010 and terus masuk dan mengemas barang-barang keperluan.

For my family, alhamdulillah I'm safe and sound. I'll call you as soon as possible. Love from me.

2011-01-30T15:28:00.002+08:00

Petang ahad yang sejuk dek hujan tak berhenti dari malam tadi memang sangat menyamankan. Perut pula kenyang dialas nasi kerabu..fuhhh...damai je jiwa. Saya tak bertanggungjawab masak nasi kerabu yg sangat sedap tu tapi Kak Shidah, emak kepada Mimi yg belajar Add Math dengan adik saya yg menghantarnya semasa menjemput Mimi balik selesai kelasnya tengahari tadi. Plan saya dan Ain nak keluar membeli barang-barang dapur yg sudah kehabisan tapi memandangkan Adam yg baru sembuh dari demam (iye, this time demamnya lebih seminggu), saya tak berani bawa dia keluar rumah kerana cuaca yg sejuk dan hujan ni. Postpone lagi la hingga hari cuti warga Wilayah pada Selasa akan datang ni.

Semalam agak panjang lebar saya berbual (ber-ym) dengan hubby walaupun dengan connection yg timbul tenggelam di Congo dan Malaysia. Banyak yg dibincangkan dan alhamdulillah otak saya kurang sikit serabutnya. Dah lama saya tak dapat berbual panjang dengan hubby sebenarnya. Walaupun dia call setiap hari tapi dengan kesibukan saya dan dia, juga jarak yg jauh menyebabkan ada yg tak terucap..hehe.

Therefore, walaupun harini hujan dan mood pun mendung aje...tapi hati saya lebih tenang dan happy....walau hakikatnya..banyak lagi kerja nak buat, barang belum start packing dan keperluan yg harus dibeli belum lagi dibeli...hahaha...

2011-01-28T17:46:00.002+08:00

Hubby said few days back, "Ayang macam tak nak pergi aje ni"...and sesungguhnya itulah perasaan saya. Hubby said that after I told him I tak prepare apa pun lagi before departing to Australia this coming 12 Feb 11. Yeah...I know I'll be missing Adam like crazy..one aspect that wretch any mom's feeling surely...if it is possible..I would bring him with me..anywhere I have to go but since I'm going under the expense of Australian Government...I'm not allow to do that.

I got my ticket and visa today and the flight will be in the morning. Juga, bila terbiasa hubby hantar setiap kali fly, I miss him too this time around. I will have to make do with the driver assigned to send me off..no goodbye hugs from hubby and Adam nampaknya...and I also miss my mom..been almost a month since I last went back to see her.

I have more or less 14 days more to sum up everything, to settle most of things and to kiss goodbye to Adam...difficult time for me...and affecting everything. I'll write again soon..probably before I go.

2011-01-22T18:54:00.004+08:00

ADAM DEMAM..so of course hari minggu hanya dihabiskan di rumah aje. Mommy pun letih..bila Adam demam, mau la bangun 3-4 kali semalam check temperature, kasi ubat, Adam trips (sila notice -s tu ye) ke toilet lagi since I forced him to drink plenty of plain water...huhu..badan sendiri pun rasa nak demam. Ni la nasib if daddy takde...semua kena tanggung sorang-sorang. Pagi tadi after I sent my sis work, terus ke Jusco sebab Adam nak makan donashi. Ikut ajelah selera orang demam kan..kesian dia, dah turun 0.5 kg since demam 2 hari. Tapi dia makan satu aje..walaupun kata teringin nak makan. Went to clinic sebab ubat batuk dah expired..and ambil ubat demam sekali. Both of us tertidur kat family hall and I was woke up bila hubby call. Sorry ye darling, I was a bit disoriented so cakap pun slurred dengan rasa mengantuk.

Harini lunch and dinner sempoi aje so I letak la gambar-gambar at Bird Park lagi instead of gambar ikan goreng and bubur nasi..hehe...

One of many favorite pictures ..the expression yg mahal..hehe..sama je dua-dua tu..
I love your surprise look Adam..hehe..
Ateh, Adam and bird

Esok I ada Mess Night..huhuhu..malasnya...lagi malas bila pergi single when orang lain bawa couple masing-masing..buhsaaannnn....

2011-01-20T23:29:00.005+08:00

Iye..saya memang tak sedar diri...badan yg sakit dan sengal ni didera lagi tanpa belas kasihan. This time around, berjalan-jalan di Taman Burung Kuala Lumpur. Mau tak bertambah sakit..it is the largest of its kind in the world...hambek...lupa yg dari leher sampai ke hujung kaki, if ada pergerakan je rasa nak menangis sakit. Outing sempena cuti Thaipusam ni memang last minute. We went out to have lunch at Jusco..I tetiba teringin nak makan steamboat. Sebab ada member yg sibuk survey tempat steamboat..I yg over teringin..haha. Sebab breakfast dengan cereal aje, so perut memang tengah menyanyi la time lunch...after solat, we decided to go sight seeing kat Bird Park yg tak pernah pergi walaupun dah lama jadi warga Malaysia. As usual, plan last minute camni yg menjadi pun. Tak payah la mimpi nak plan berminggu-minggu..ada jelah halangannya. Dari melepak kat Shopping Complex menghabiskan masa dan wang ringgit..better habiskan masa dan duit bagi edutainment kat anak. Adam was happy chirping non stop (sampai kena marah) macam birds yg ada tu dari dia sampai hingga la dia masuk tidur.

If you have time, you should go there..menarik tengok all types of bird. Yang sakit mata tengok orang dating peluk-peluk pun ada juga. Aduhai...sampaikan dalam bird park pun korang nak buat hal ke? Tak malu kat burung-burung yg ada ke? I share few pictures of colorful birds yg ada dalam park tu. Nak letak semua I tak sempat nk buat watermark..hehe.

We purposely ambil gambar disini supaya I tak payah tulis banyak about this place..hehehe..you can read yourself or you can visit http://klbirdpark.com for more info about fees, opening hour and feeding session. Iye..Adam pejam mata sebab panas katanya.

Kesian ateh nye kena dera..dah mommy usung kamera amek gambar..kena la ateh layan dia main swing sampai tanak turun.

P.S Daddy, jangan sedih ye...bila you balik kita pergi Butterfly Park pula okay..hehehe.

2011-01-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

The result of my weeks of migrane, worrying, and buzz a bizz (my own word..hahah) hectic working days, sending Adam and fetching Adam to and from school is..jeng jeng jeng..2 kg weight loss...soon..am gonna hit the amazing 4 again..hehe.

I went for a medical check up at Gleaneagles (I'm not splurging money for nothing hokay) because it seems that if we want Australia visa, we have to undergo medical check up at Gleaneagles (if at KL). Everything went under the scrunity of the doctor (very thorough I tell you) and I'm clear..alhmdulillah. When I went on to weight myself...WOW!!! hahaha..I had shed the 2 kilos by being stressed..

Camane la berat tak turun..I skipped breakfast and lunch for most days sebab tak sempat...lame excuse kan? That's the truth..sadly. And this morning, we had UKA or Ujian Kecergasan Asas. It is a test to see our fitness...inclusive of 2.4 km run, heaving, shuttle run and jumping..huhu...we have to pass these tests so have to run like mad..hehehe...so I have a very sore body..from head (headache) to toe...and of course I'm not allowed to go to bed early..we have Ceramah Agama so after I fetched Adam from school, we went to hunt (hahaha..coz mommy was basically flying and dragged Adam together) for Adam's dinner and my breakfast, lunch and dinner combined together meal. Then I mandikan Adam, fed him dinner, at the same time eating my food..had hot shower for my knotted muscle and drove back to my office which was about 10 km from my house..come back and since I'm tired but not sleepy..I have time to post an entry.

And yeah..I got my parcel yg I tunggu-tunggu today..rasa macam nak lompat-lompat..haha..Tak sempat ambil gambar the parcel tu sebab tak sempat tunggu I dah buka..but I'll share the picture of the content tomorow..hehehe...I'm smiling..

2011-01-15T15:45:00.003+08:00

For a week I had a terrible migrane. For me, it usually caused by these factors aje; Hot weather, a sign of PMS, Oily food kurang tidur and stress. I rasa probably because of stressful week la I dapat migrane ni and sebab asyik dapat nigtmares aje so tidur tu tak berkualiti. Usually if kena migrane attack, I would 'berkurung' dlm bilik aje...the darker, quiter and cooler are the better. But yelah..siapa yg nak hantar ambil Adam ke sekolah pula. Sure he can 'ponteng' but I would hate it for him to miss the activity. Dah la bulan depan nak start cuti panjang dah. This is the second week I got migrane...so, dah dua minggu sebenarnya kepala tak berapa nak betul.

At time like this, terasa sangat ketiadaan hubby. If dia ada, for sure la ada yg boleh tolong ringankan kerja...and ada juga yg boleh tolong 'ketuk-ketuk' kepala bagi rasa lega.

When I woke up this morning, ada rasa kurang (sebab cuaca mendung je harini and I slept sangat awal semalam) sikit sakit kepala I so banyaklah house chores yg dapat dibereskan. And since dah berminggu tak masak due to my sakit kepala...harini I masak awal..hehehe..

I kan, bila buka je blog LG and few other blog, sure terliur-liur je tengok juadah yg dimasak dan di tayang tu...so arini perasan juga orang nak terliur...hahahaha...(setakat sayur dengan masak lemak ayam ni orang jeling sebelah mata aje ni..) maka I upload gambar our lunch. Breakfast tak payah la sebabnya memang seisi rumah ni amek light breakfast...roti and jam atau cake aje.

Masak lomak ayam..I tak makan sebab oily...

I and Adam shared mix veges ni...anak teruna I tak tahan pedas..pelik juga la sebab Jawa tak tahan pedas kan..I ni lain la..bukan breed Jawa..hehe..

P.s.Daddy yg selalu tanya I makan ap..ni le yg kitaorang makan for lunch..dinner ni tengok camane dulu..probably buat meehon aje sebab mommy kepingin nak makan..hehehe..

2011-01-12T19:42:00.006+08:00

If people ask me how do I handle being a single mom (temporary ye tuan puan..saya masih bersuami)...jangan la terkejut bila I cakap..I pun tak pernah handle it..hahaha...I redah aje. Redah punye cerita ni maksudnya...banyak la air mata yg tumpah..dan mimpi ngeri bangun berpeluh tengah malam. Like yesterday night..I dreamt of terlupa basuh uniform sekolah Adam..seriously bangun jam 3 pagi terus masuk bath room nak basuh baju...hahaha...padahal uniform Adam ada 2 pasang so taklah jadi problem if I tak basuh sepasang..and yes...I wash my baju using the traditional way...hand wash. Berpeluh weh mimpi ngeri macam ni. Lately memang tidur tak pernah lena...sebab fikiran agak serabut fikir macam-macam...

I have another 3 weeks to settle banyak kerja before I'm going for my course. Susah hati ni nak tinggalkan Adam..susah hati juga nak siapkan sebanyak mungkin kerja sebelum I berkursus...pendek cerita minggu keluh kesah kembali lagi.

Bila urusan rumah tangga dan anak harus diuruskan seorang dan hubby tidak berada disini..dan bekerja full time, harus ada kesulitan. Masa yg ada harus diurus dengan sebaik mungkin..and sometimes, kerja luar jangka yg mengganggu rutin yg dah diatur boleh sebabkan kekalutan dan masalah. My routine sudah berubah pattern as Adam goes to school. If dulu, masa lunch usually spent buat kerja (sebab saya jarang lunch) but now masa tu digunakan untuk menghantar Adam ke sekolah. Bila ada aktiviti yg dibuat masa ni..memang la saya rasa nak jadi Hulk Hogan...ditambah bila ada suara sumbang yg bercakap dia pun ada anak bersekolah tapi boleh aje attend majlis or meeting or apa-apa la event yg berlaku...yes...sure you can..sebab you ada isteri or suami yg tolong hantar anak you...I don't have a husband to help me out.

Sometimes, nak mengharap orang lain faham my situation yg kena handle semuanya sendiri..memang tak boleh la...sebab at my office takde siapa yg berada in my situation.

I am not strong..sometimes menangis juga bila berhadapan dengan situasi-situasi yg sukar ni..just that I know the risks when I let hubby goes...cuma rasa payah bila orang lain tak boleh faham kesusahan saya menghadapi semuanya seorang diri.

Well, now the pictures below bukanlah gambaran kesusahan saya..it's for this boy's daddy sebenarnya..because I know..he misses us more than we miss him..hehe..

Listening to music sebelum crash...tengok mata dah tau tahan mengantuk tu.

Kunun pose ala budak besar la ni..

A Kidnapped Teddy is his companion for tidur nowadays...I call it as such sebab teddy tu hak milik my sis yg Adam kidnapped masuk our room and refused to rturn back.

Ini routine terkini Adam..balik from school, mandi, makan and terus tidur..wake up around 9pm, main and reading session before tidur and bangun esok paginya.

Happy Anniversary

2011-01-08T11:43:00.002+08:00

If anak, dah masuk usia bersekolah dah. Maybe ada antara skot-skot yg ada anak sebaya dengan perkhidmatan kan..who knows. Terasa cepat masa berlalu..dari hari pertama mengangkat sumpah taat setia, hinggalah ke hari melapor Basic Graduate Course..yg men-saudarakan kita semua. Panjang cerita jerih perih dan bahagia juga duka sepanjang bersama. Ada juga saudara yg sudah pergi dijemput Pencipta..dan kami yg masih berjuang hari ni menyambut Ulang Tahun Ke-8..serious sebak.

2011-01-06T16:50:00.002+08:00

The date is fixed on 12 Feb 2011...Insyaallah. We'll be a week late because the tickets are sold out due to Chinese New Year..I don't mind much. That way I could settle few more works and have more time with Adam.Will update about it when it is confirmed...pray for me.

Colorful work

2011-01-06T16:24:00.003+08:00

Whenever we go to my sis house, I always peek to her fridge..sebab so colorful of Alil's drawings from school..and wonder when are we going to have drawings like that on our fridge. My dream comes true today..hehe...Adam brought back his work from school so I put it on the fridge...honorary to the fridge la..haha..It's a collage done by him. Ye, ye..I know those yg dh ada anak sekolah sure cakap apalah sangat benda ni kan? This is important to us as Adam's daddy is not with us and I don't want him to be missing every meaningful moments of Adam's experience at school. He already made friends and even bid farewell to his friends when I fetched him.

The first work on the second day marked its presence on our fridge..

Adam's name is misspelt..I will email to his teacher..

P.s. This is for you daddy... :)

Adam's @ GA-Day 1

2011-01-05T17:22:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, at 1530 Adam finished his first day at Genius Aulad Wangsa Maju. I went a bit (ridiculous I know..hahaha) early and I thought I was the first..but to my surprise..I'm not that bad..hahaha..coz dah ada few parents yg dah terpacak depan the kindy. At first the principal released those who are with the transporters and then this one girl who cried once she saw her mama. Dalam hati (and I am sure every mom and dad yg ada kat situ dah gelisah kut anak derang pun nangis camtu juga) I anxious nak tengok muka Adam. Not long after that the principal announced she will release 4 YO dulu...and I nampak la anak teruna I turun tangga berpimpim tangan with one of the boy...I nampak dia tercari-cari I dalam ramai parents yg terpacak tu..heehe..nampak je muka I, terus tolak tangan principal yg suruh berbaris...since I dah tercongok kat depan pintu and I said I'm waiting for Adam..dia terus release Adam..jeng jeng..tetiba budak kecik ni bedebuk jatuh depan I..hahaha..nasib dia tak meraung I tell you..Adam memanglah cegitu gayanya..bila dah focus pada something ke someone ke..bukannya reti nak assess keliling dia dah..longkang ke, apa ke..aci redah aje.

Balik dari GA, sebab I apa pun tak telan dari pagi, only air kosong dengan supplement aje, tanya la Adam nak makan apa...reward la sebab dia behave himself and tak nangis buat drama kat kindy..tau apajawabnya..."Adam dh kenyang makan kek kat sekolah"..waaaaaa....tapi ada sambungan..."Tapi nk makan donashi boleh juga"..hehehe...pantang la...

So, terus la ke Jusco cari donashi feveret dia..

Ni masa I nak bayar parking..sampai umah habis tunggang terbalik donashi dalam container tu..bercampur-campur dah jadinya.Actually dia dah tertidur masa on the way balik dari jusco tu..so terpaksa la mommy dukung..tidur la sekejap and then bangun tengok Pocoyo..while mommy update blog...hehe..itulah kisah first day Adam..alhamdulillah he could adapt to his new surrounding well..maybe dah terbiasa tukar sitter and selalu kena tinggal dengan mommy and daddy...cerita best..I dapat cuti 2 hari you..walalala..alhamdulillah..dapat la siapkan Adam ke kindy.

Adam's First Day at GA

2011-01-05T14:15:00.004+08:00

When I started my kindy years and first day of Year 1, my dad just left me at the school gate and I went back walking with others...which differ greatly from Adam situation. Of course, with the traffic, distance and these days crime rate..I will not let my son coming back walking with others. I started my kindy at the age of 6 years old whereas Adam starts his at 3 years 8 months...banyak bezanya kan?

Since I bought his uniform, I procastinated nak jahit seluar dia yg agak panjang. I ni bila menjahit je, mula la tegang otot bahu and leher..tu yg rasa malas aje. Since takde siapa yg nak jahit if I tak jahit, last night I jahit one of his pants..jahit satu dulu la kan...while doing it, I cakap dengan my sis, anak I unbelievable dah nak sekolah dah...hehe..rasa macam muda remaja lagi..

If mak aji yg jahit sure benangnya invisible aje and cute aje..but since anak mak aji yg jarang-jarang pegang needle ni jahit..dah la lama..nampak tak cute pun ada..hehe. I ironed his baju and pants with a thought..macamana ye nak 'lepaskan' Adam esoknye?..hehe..yesterday, I yg tak lena tidur you..

Awal pagi, I ada kerja di Embassy so terpaksa tinggalkan dia with sitter dulu. Masa I tengah siap, nampak dia kusyuk baca bedtime story book atas katil so I snap his picture. Our routine before doa tidur is bacakan dia one story per night..rasanya ada 3 stories lagi yg tinggal before we could move on to another book.
Dari Embassy, I have to 'run' like mad in order to fetch this guy from his sitter house and send him off to school. I do regret for not having a chance to put him on his uniform but nak buat macamana..at least I got a chance to hantar dia to school on his first day. On the way, I snap his picture for daddy and my parents to see...and having missing the moment.

This is while waiting for the other kids to being sent off first..I let him cool down and try to take away his anxiety.

Another few steps to start a new milestone...

He looked worry and nervous but he didn't cry..proud of him...so after kiss him goodbye and wish him good luck, I went away and saw him being led by another teacher to the class. I feel my baby is all grown up now and after letting his hand go..I know, Adam will be a different person already...soon, he'll have friends and teachers who will guide him and be part of his life..we are no more the only significant persons in his life..we have to share that part with others.

My sadness and proudness mixed into one huge emotion. I do pray Adam will become a good Caliph, a pious person and dutiful son as well as a smart boy..Insyaallah.

P.s Adam is very excited to go to school (he said this) and his school hour start from 1330 until 1530 until this friday and he'll come back at 1645 following monday.Be proud Daddy..this is our son!!

2011-01-04T09:18:00.002+08:00

We should had completed this one workshop by this week but due to the cuti given by our PM, terpaksa tunda hari Jumaat minggu ni. Seriously, my first week of the New Year dh havoc. Ingatkan dapat la buat kerja dengan tenang dan tersusun..organized. Kisahnya, my new staff was admitted sebab strok..and then the other one is down with fever while the other one is on leave...which leave me alone at the office.

Tarik nafas panjang-panjang....exhale...tapi cam tersangkut..huhu..minggu ni dah la banyak kerja, unexpected things camni yg buat saya rasa macam nak ketuk-ketuk kepala sendiri. Ye, ye..kenapa bagi cuti pada staf yg sorang tu..or kenapa tak tarik balik cuti dia and suruh dia datang kerja. Saya terfikir juga la..dan memang saya boleh buat macamtu. Saya pun ada anak yg kali pertama nak bersekolah..tapi saya tak bercuti pun. But, itulah yg membezakan sikap pegawai dan sikap anggota bawahan. Bak kata Boss saya yg terdahulu...jgn bersikap seperti anggota bawahan sedangkan anda adalah pegawai. Jika anda bersikap seperti mereka..tiada beza pangkat di atas bahu anda..huhu...prinsip camni yg buat aku fikir berkali-kali.

Rasanya saya akan buat pembaharuan terhadap mutu kerja saya dan anggota dibawah perintah saya. Insyaallah. Sebab saya dapat rasakan, mutu kerja yg diberikan semakin menurun prestasinya. If you can't trust yourself to be better...push yourself harder to be the best la jawapnya...sigh sigh...

Maid Oh Maid

2011-01-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

Last entry I talked about interviewing maid untuk jaga Adam until he goes to school. So, kisahnya dari hari Jumaat la berjanji dengan akak ni..tapi sebab Adam demam, saya tangguh la..seriously if Adam demam, I will not go anywhere sebab panas dia boleh naik mendadak. Semalam pula ambil my sis di Jln Duta and hantar dia ke rumah..so pagi tadi jelah berkesempatan berjumpa. Rupanya dalam masa I duk tangguh tu dia dah dapat kerja baru as tukang masak.

She was married to a Malaysian guy (dia ni warga Indonesia) and ada sorang anak yg dah besar...then bila dah ada kerja dia suggested I hantar Adam to her to take care at her house. And her house is at Kg Baru..huhuhu...part ni yg susah nak kasi dia faham..I'm looking for a daily maid who could come to my house and go back after I come home. Saya tak mencari baby sitter for my son. Few times juga la dia duk ulang cakap if I boleh hantar ke rumah dia, she's willing to take care of Adam. Lastly I cakap la..if dia dah dapat kerja then it's okay la..tak payah la. She then recommended her friend pula yg katanya mencari kerja..I said (tak mengharap la janji orang yg macamni) if ada takpe..if takde pun takpe..not to worry.

Without a maid, Adam probably kena balik kampung juga duk dengan my parents. Maybe that's the best for Adam and my peace of mind la rasanya...wallahualam..Allah know the best for us.

Welcome 2011

2011-01-01T10:30:00.004+08:00

My plan to do an entry for the last day of last year tak tercapai..waaaa...I switched on the laptop and even prepare to type an entry but then hubby called to wish me Happy New Year, langsung terlupa..hahaha...dengar suara hubby je lupa apa kerja nak buat..terrible me and my lovesick la. Last year we were together sambut new year di rumah baru...this year sama juga, just sambut alone tengok firework dari tingkap rumah je...from the family hall, boleh nampak Menara KL, from my bedroom boleh nampak KLCC so tak payah bersesak pun boleh tengok view yg cantekk. Just that last night I takde mood nak snap any pictures...really...walaupun sangat goges scene nya.

So, 2010 had left us all with many stories..be it sweet, memorable, bitter or wonder. I have my own share of 2010 and let just say it was full of it. Alhamdulillah Allah still grant me a day of this new year to breath. Adam wake up very early..huhuhu...and of course if dia dah bangun, mommy juga kena bangun walaupun mata masih tutup. Semalam dia demam and after 2 doses of pcm..nampaknya panas dah kurang.

Plan semalam nak pergi inteview maid..yeah..you heard me right..we are going to hire a maid but daily maid yg datang pagi dan balik petang. Why do I need a maid? Secara logiknya memang tak cost effective sebab I ada anak sorang yg dah besar..but sebenarnya ada banyak reasons. If ada rezeki I, maybe I'll be away this February and that left Adam yg bersekolah...terpaksa cuti sekolah for 4 months. Although his principal bagi peluang for trial one month and he will only start schooling back in June...kesian dia la nanti tertinggal jauh. So after lenghty discussion..I will left him with my sister for the months I'm not around. The maid will come and prepare his breakfast and lunch and for him to go to school. Yang kerja lain will discuss with the maid la..we'll see how it goes petang ni.

Where will I go? I don't know for certain if I'm going so I will share once it is confirmed. So far insyaallah la..but mana tau ada last minute change pula.

Apa pun, we would like to wish a Happy New Year kepada semua. Semoga dengan kedatangan tahun baru ni, akan memberi kita lebih rahmat dan ketakwaan kepada Allah swt. Selamat Tahun Baru 2011 you allll....wishes from:

Adam Muqriz dan Daddy, Mohamad Shaifudin

Adam Muqriz and Mommy

...and lastly dari tuan tanah...

Memory Revisited

2010-12-30T12:51:00.002+08:00

Back in 2004, I joined this programme called TRYLA which stands for Tun Razak Youth Leadersip Awards under MIM. Back then, the 1 Malaysia concept is not yet implemented but the participants were from various races and yes..we had fun and it worked well.

Teringat ni because one of the participant ada video part of the programme masa di TLDM..one of the leadership module ni tak sah if takde modul ketahanan diri. I and Yanti were the only askar in the group so that part memang dah alah bisa tegal biasa...but memang seronok bila kita joined with others yg tak pernah ada latihan ketenteraan..penerimaan nya macam-macam. Those who joined ni ada yg sudah bekerja, masih belajar or masih mencari pekerjaan..but all in all we ha fun. Insyaallah if ada gathering nanti I'll post the pictures and you could see how we overcome the differences to be together..anyway, kudus to Shah for the video and also the picture with Najib.

2010-12-28T12:08:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was Adam's first experience being a kindy student. Class officially will start on 5th Jan 11 but yesterday I registered him, bought uniform and bayar yuran. Since I probably will be away from Feb until May, Adam too will have a long break from Feb tu. The teacher said it will be a waste (buang duit la lebih kurang) to let him start by Jan and continue paying for school fees eventhough he is on leave. She suggested I send Adam for second term class. After lengthy discussion, she agreed to let Adam sit for a trial school session for Jan but Adam will be given photocopy version of the school material. I am grateful for even a sit in the class session as long as he is given an opportunity to go to school for next month/next year. He is soooo looking forward to go to school and remind me so often to alter his school uniform. The thing is, he is tall so 'S' size uniform tak fit..'M' size pula seluar agak panjang so I have to alter sedikit. But then, cerewetnye dia with his uniform...when I said I nak basuh dulu, siap pesan jangan berus kuat-kuat nanti koyak..hahaha..like la mommynye memberus baju kuat sangat. Pagi tadi dah tanya bila I nak lipat kaki seluarnya. Nak rasa annoy pun iye juga but mostly I'm amuse dengan kerenah Adam.

Since balik dari kindy, baru nampak rajin sikit nak belek buku, play with the alphabetical map yg I beli dah berkurun simpan, yang selama ni dia main buat construction building sahaja. Baru start tengok coloring book yg ada alphabets tu. Sebelum ni, bila start ajar je ABC or 123, rasanya adalah sampai halfway je..then mula la complaint macam-macam...penat la, dahaga la, sakit leher la..sooo original. But sometimes, out of blue dia akan nyanyi ABC..sampai Z..haha..so cara Adam belajar is through listening and watching..bukan reading...typical la. Mommy kena polish Writing and Reading Skills la nampaknya..Speaking so far takde masalah..masalah nak ajar dia letak full stop aje sekarang ni..haha.

That's Mohamad Adam Muqriz's progress who is 3 years 8 months and 19 days today.

2010-12-26T13:30:00.002+08:00

: Done shopping for Adam (School bag, shoes, socks, stationaries-although the kindy will provide it but he insisted on something he pilih sendiri..hailah).

: Done bills payment..hopping in the afternoon glaring heat to pay all the bills..fuhhhh.

: Not yet is hair cut for Adam...he badly needs it.

:Despair..over driving back to KL...expecting MASSIVE Traffic Jam..huhuhuhu...

Conclusion: Very, very hectic, tiring and so not relaxing weekend.

2010-12-24T21:00:00.002+08:00

Boss (not the one yg I selalu mention..I have several bosses kan..) said to me through phone: Are you ready?

My standard answer (being the askar): Yes Sir although it is not confirm yet..but I'm ready...(padahal apa yg readynye? Kain baju? Kerja berlambak tahun depan if ikut takwim? Adam yg nak kena tinggal again? mental? fizikal?)

Boss: Good, kira confirm la ni..apa yg tak confirm pula?so please settle the documentation with the **** on Jan okay...I take it you have no problem?

I: Noted that sir...I have no problem with that plan (but dalam hati dan kepala ni dah start plan camane nak susun all the work).

Call me pathetic but that's how I was trained...never say No unless I already try it and can't do it anymore. Sometimes makan diri sendiri la...conflict of interest.

I talked to mak Aji..talked to hubby and though I got their blessing...hanya satu sahaja yg buat saya rasa berat hati. Tapi yelah..both hubby and Mak Aji said ini rezeki and dugaan yg datang sekaligus...dalam Allah beri rezeki, Dia juga uji saya dengan cabaran berjauhan dengan anak kesayangan saya.

Owh...sungguh fikiran saya sedang sibuk berperang dengan macam-macam perkara...

p.s Hubby, saya upload gambar photoshoot dengan gambar di Genting in my next entry okay ye?

2010-12-22T18:58:00.001+08:00

Towards the year end ni kan...sebolehnya dan idealnya..dapat bercuti dengan keluarga, bersantai dan menggembirakan hati dan hati anak...more bonding time dengan anak yg terbiar dek kesibukan mencari rezeki. Berehat dan recharge untuk tahun depan yg masih panjang...haha..angan-angan jelah yg boleh kan.

Adam dah la kena tinggal dikampung..susahkan my parents pula nak menjaga dia. Memanglah dia dah besar dan penjagaan lebih mudah tapi hati rasa kurang gembira. Time sekarang la ibu ayah nak dapat peluang dating..tapi bila ada cucu ni..ehmm...susahlah.Ibu nak ke masjid dan mengaji agama pun susah.

Hailah hati...hanya Allah dan diri sendiri aje yg tahu beban yg ditanggung. Outstation yg bersusun dan satu lagi dugaan yg bakal mendatang datangnya Februari. Jika orang bertanya bagaimana saya nak lalui...terus terang, saya belum fikirkan..sebabnya, perkara belum pasti jadi saya tak mahu bebankan kepala saya dengan masalah yg belum tentu tu. But sometimes during wee hour I woke up from my slumber..yes, saya ada fikirkan dan saya tak pasti samada saya cukup kuat untuk lakukannya...but Allah takkan menguji saya sekiranya saya belum bersedia kan?

On a different note, saya sedang kebosanan di Melaka..huhu...tapi malam ni saya nak tidur awal dan recharge for tomorrow meeting.

Random during break

2010-12-16T13:14:00.003+08:00

Absence rend le cœur pousse fondr

mais mon coeur pleure

du vide et la douleur

Je m'ennuie de toi mon amour

2010-12-14T10:52:00.002+08:00

I have a lot to say of lots of things that happen. But saya kena prioritize kerja..itu kan azam saya masa awal tahun..hingga hujung tahun pun masih belum pandai. Sekarang ni masih lagi belajar. So for dua hari (semalam dan hari ni), priority saya untuk kerja-kerja terjemahan laman sesawang Rejimen Askar Melayu Diraja. Terpaksa la simpan dan jerukkan cerita yg ada..in which akan ingat-ingat lupa la nanti. Apa nak buat...kerja saya sepenuh masa bukan penulis blog kan?hahaha.. I'll be away for awhile...hingga perkara penting telah dilaksanakan dengan jayanya. Insyaallah.

2010-12-07T10:31:00.002+08:00

Dedicated to daddy (requested by Adam to show off his talent) yang missing his anak teruna. Tok nye kata tak payah beli mainan dah next time because Adam could use other toys to make a car port and workshop (binaan dari kerusi, cap dan yg lain-lain tu) menurut description dari Adam when asked.

Harini pula sedang mengasah bakat colouring pula...habis dikerjakan craft book tu dengan contengan yg berbentuk bulat-bulat. I will post the pictures of his work later for daddy okay. But one thing for sure..before he starts with his work..tak kira messy macamana pun..dia akan susun dulu colour pencils..haha..habit mommy yg jadi ikutan. Well done Adam..we'll work out your other talents lagi nanti okay.

:SALAM MAAL HIJRAH 1430:

2010-12-06T14:37:00.003+08:00

Jangan lupa doa akhir dan awal tahun. Selamat menyambut tahun baru dan beroleh keberkatan dalam hidup seharian dengan azam yang dirahmati.

p.s Thank you hubby dearest for the wish. Insyaallah I will try harder to become a good wife and best friend to you.

p.s.s Gambar tak boleh upload..dunno what's the problem. Memadailah dengan ucapan rasanya.

2010-12-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

Weekend was spent memenuhi hajat Mak Aji dan Adik. We went to Jalan TAR and SOGO for Mak Aji's shopping craving. SOGO memang tengah sale. As usual la handbag yg menjadi pilihan Mak Aji. I would like to shop also (MAC memanggil melambai je) but mengenangkan big plan coming soon...simpan jelah duit.

Jalan TAR macam biasa la penuh dengan manusia. If it is me, memang takkan kesana la if takde urusan yg betul-betul penting. Adam was cranky sebab letih berjalan katanya.

Next week I'm free from outstation and sangat lega rasanya to be able to be at home but week after that, memang tak berada di rumah la sampai tahun depan (bunyinye macam lama je).

2010 dah hampir dipenghujung...tahun yg penuh dugaan, cabaran dan kehilangan. Dua tahun berturut we had been tested dengan kehilangan..and next year hubby akan pulang kepangkuan kami berdua.

Mak Aji dah nak balik minggu depan..which mean Adam juga akan ikut sebab I will have to go for another series of outstation. Sunyi sepi semula la rumah ni.

2010-12-04T16:36:00.002+08:00

This is a post event which baru sekarang I have a chance to write about.I had a week (more or less) seminar at PD starting tuesday (last tuesday). Since I got a room for one, I planned to angkut Adam and of course Mak Aji to accompany me. Because he was like..."Adam nak duduk hotel mommmyyyyyyy.." sampai bingit telingaku. So I told Mak Aji that I will go and see how the hotel first because honestly..for my duration of 2 years tinggal disitu, I would say that hotel would not be in my list of hotel to stay. Adding to the bad review I got from the other visitors, I'm not that keen nak bawa Adam but yelah, sometimes ada hotel yg values respond from the visitor and try to upgrade their services kan.

Since I went there just in time to sit for the morning session, tak sempat la nk masuk bilik lagi..but I went to the loo and of course..once glance dah tau camane. Masa lunch break, I masuk bilik and the first thing that greeted me was a very unpleasant smell of wet carpet and dusty carpet..yuck yuck. Even when I opened the window pun tak dapat nak hilang the smell.

Itu satu hal la..at night pula lain ceritanya..jeng jeng jeng...since my room was at the farthest end and there was no occupant beside my room (I know sebab the balcony light was off and takde dengar suara orang bercakap), supposedly sunyi sepi la kan...tapi the night was very noisy sampailah I told the 'noise' to keep it low sebab saya letih and I need my sleep.

Patutlah Mak Aji ada tanya saya boleh tidur ke tidak masa 2nd night tu..haha..second night was peaceful sebab bilik sebelah dah ada orang and I pasang the quran recitation all night long.

I guess hotel semua fully booked so that hotel was probably the last choice. I have another meetings coming on soon..tapi Mak Aji nak balik kampung dah sebab ada kenduri (and she misses Pak Aji la our guess..hehehe).

2010-11-29T16:06:00.002+08:00

This boy's hair is a bit long but mommy like it very much so mommy will get it trim to the minimum..haha.. Although ada makcik yg tanya, ni lelaki ke perempuan? Aduhai..if anak I ni perempuan..tak ke dia pakai skirt? Mommy dia ni sikit punya teringin le tengok all the blouses and skirts and all the girl things... "Dia tak rimas ke rambut panjang ni?" Of course la rimas makcik tapi mommy dia still has a say in his hair style so selagi ada hak ni mommy dia nak gunakan sepenuhnya la..haha..tapi susah nak jaga la..kena extra care..kalah mommy punya hair care..start schooling sure kena korbankan ni..huhuhuhu..

Why Do I Love School Hol?

2010-11-29T15:43:00.005+08:00

I'm not a teacher but I still love school holiday. Because we could kidnap mak aji without second thought...pak aji sekarang sibuk dengan business dia so jarang amat ada di rumah. We all yg kesian kat mak aji yg kebosanan ni ambil la peluang. If hari bersekolah susah la sebab adik kecil masih bersekolah...walaupun kitaorang dah hasut suruh dia stay di asrama je (senang nk kidnap mak aji dan pak aji bila-bila masa) tapi being the youngest..tak payah harap la.

And then, traffic is sooooooo light I feel like singing when driving. Walaupun masa ke pejabat traffic memang sedia tak sibuk, tapi masa balik tu la yg sesak dan senak. If I go back on time (meaning when the clock strike 5 pm), traffic boleh la tahan lagi but if it is later than that..better la jadi penunggu kat pejabat tu until after maghrib. Sesak dengan orang balik dari office, students college yg baru habis kelas..budak-budak sekolah yg blik sekolah dan parents budak-budak yg parking tepi jalan nak ambil anak masing-masing.

Lagi, parking kat area my house is soooooo banyak yg kosong I could choose yg paling dekat dan paling best. My parking yg ada bumbung ada satu je tapi keta tuan rumah ada 3..camane? Rasa nak jual je lagi 2 tu. Ni bukan masalah I sorang je but masalah bersama kat sini..tapi masa cuti sekolah ni banyak yg kosong sebab orang pergi bercuti.

Banyak betul sale..lagi-lagi nak Christmas ni kan..haha..tapi bila mengenangkan outstation yg bersusun ni..huhu..lupakan jelah hajat tu. Shopping kasut dan beg sekolah Adam jelah bulan depan.

2010-11-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

Mode: Beginning of flu and fever like symtoms.

But masih unable to sleep. Not because of the cups of coffee I minum di pejabat tadi but because masih mencari idea to write. Bukan for the blog but for the pidato. No, no I'm not the one yg akan make the speech. Only prepare it for someone..sebab I asked for his favor..to do it in favor of me..makanya saya tolong la dia..although I'm not feeling well at all.

Adam demam after my mom demam..and thanks to Raya and long holiday and school holiday..all clinics were closed during weekend. Lastly Columbia juga yg open.. Adam ada a bit infection kat throat and mom got tonsilitis..which confirmed my suspicion bila dia susah nak swallow makanan. Nasib baik pergi awal ke hospital sebelum it swell lagi teruk.

Balik ke KL dengan jam yg takde punca from Changkat Jering's toll. Badan penat and sampai pun late at night.

Pagi tadi went to office, banyak betul pressing matters. Which make me rasa serabut sangat sebab semuanya nak cepat dan segera. Dengan problems staff dan problem sendiri..banyak betul nak difikirkan at one time.

Balik je rumah after bath dah start rasa nak demam...hopefully this is nothing..sebab saya nak cuti dan saya sangat susah nak dapat bercuti..and I have series of outstation selepas cuti.

p.s Hubby..I bukan kurang kasih sayang as I said tapi sebenarnya I tak sihat dan I miss you..hehe.

2010-11-17T16:46:00.002+08:00

I and Adam celebrate the Eidul Adha at my camp. He slept very early last night since I told him that he has to be ready very early in the morning if he want to follow me. Saya pun tak sanggup nak hantar dia to his sitter walaupun akak tu bersungguh suruh hantar dia since dia pun keseorangan di Hari Raya. Susah macamana pun I bawa juga sikecil ni. Dari dulu lagi dia sangat suka if dibawa to my office. While waiting for makan-makan, we lepak la at my office.

Cadangannya nak terus balik ke rumah mertua and then ke Putrajaya. Tapi plan satu pun tak menjadi. Anak teruna I bila dah mengantuk dan panas..dia nak balik rumah mandi dan tidur aje. Sempat la I did my laundry and kemas-kemas rumah sementara dia tidur. And yes, we do miss daddy so much. We are lucky sebab we still could see daddy next year...alhamdulillah.

So, SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA QURBAN FOR ALL.

2010-11-16T12:21:00.002+08:00

Influenced by imitation..I guess macamni le bila takde lelaki dalam rumah. Tu dia kidnap my cucumber tempel kat pipi dia. But I told him, his cheek dah chumel..licin berkilat..tak perlu letak cucumber dah..hahaha. But you know la budak kecik ni..lagi kita larang..lagi le bersungguh dia nak juga. Jangan sampai minta make up pula sudah..but so far he know la that make up for ladies..like mommy and ateh..daddy and Adam tak pakai make up..only perfume..hahaha..

Picture of the drummer adalah request dari daddy. Since I said NO to a guitar..dia sampai mengigau nakkan drum. Sanggup korbankan set Chuggington demi drum itu..so, everytime dia ada di rumah..itulah keje dia..jamming dengan drum set.

So daddy, enjoy the pictures..

2010-11-10T20:14:00.003+08:00

Of late, so many things happened and almost in tandem...which left me at the mercy of fate and luck. Since I'm the one who have to make the decision, think of ways to solve the problem and also the one who have to face all the consequences...I have lots on my plate right now. Being a very much normal human being... I do feel so tense and up to the point of depression. The obvious sign are the nagging backache and headache. Yesterday I thought retail therapy will do me good especially when hubby paid for it but how wrong I could be...and ignorance enough to think that buying clothes..no matter how expensive it is could cure my restlesness. Sure enough it provided a good adrenalin rush pumped through my system but it didn't last long enough for me to feel calm, rilex and collected to face the challange.

I don't know what else will be good for me except from praying, reading Al-Quran and recite the selawat every time I feel I'm at the lowest pit. So I (again) got these set from Dr Zaza...after lepak-ed at her clinic this evening...went back and nearly dozed off in the tub while Adam was watching Mr Bean (again). Can't find time for a spa treatment so I did it myself at home. Hopefully i will be able to sleep like a baby tonight without nightmares and hopefully Adam will not wake up (again) in the wee hour demanding foot rub..I only could hope.

p.s Anyone interested with VS product with discount of course, could contact me.

2010-11-09T18:47:00.002+08:00

Susah betul hati..gundah gulana jadinya. Resah...rasa berat je perasaan. Pesan sidia jika hati resah banyakkan baca Al-Quran, solat sunat. Saya tahu semua tu dan saya buat. Tapi adakalanya hati resah ni tak nak mengalah. Bukan saya tak biasa ditinggal-tinggalkan tapi ada certain time...saya perlukan someone to comfort...offer me a warm hug after a long hard day at work after kena maki hamun segala. Sometimes Adam also could be a challenge for me..ada masa dia punya keinginan..dan kenakalan as a kid. Sometimes when I'm too tired and emotionally drained..I feel so down and frustrated dengan kenakalannya. Dia dah besar..saya tidak boleh lagi memarahinya seperti yg saya buat sebelum ni. Tapi ada masanya saya terlalu penat untuk berdiplomasi.

Saya senang hati bila sidia kini bertugas ditempat baru...tidak lagi akan keluar membuat patrolling setiap hari...tapi masa untuk berbual (ber ym) sudah terhad dengan beza waktu 7 jam. Dikala saya sudah melelapkan mata..dia baru habis waktu kerja. If dulu selepas patrolling dah boleh online..tapi sekarang..masa semakin terhad. Saya rindu teman lawan bicara saya, saya rindu my devil advocate, saya rindu logik diayg sometimes buatkan saya geram dan saya rindu segala-galanya tentang teman hidup saya itu.

p.s. saya sedang emo sebab apa tah..

2010-11-08T11:59:00.003+08:00

Still fuming because he didn't get the loop set in which I told him to be grateful..not all kids get what they want.

Amazingly this is my first entry in November. Sad but true..I've neglected my 'story book' for awhile. Worry not..I'm still alive and bouncing here and there..as usual working my ass off. I have around 3 events (until now) before the year end...fuh! Hopefully Dec will be kinder to us. Which left me with Adam's registration unregister YET!! Yes, yes I will do it soon and Yes again I will register him definitely (Thereby hoping my mom will come here soon).

Of late, he has been nagging me (unmercifully to my ears every waking hours) to get him a guitar...owh yes..you do read fine..your eyes do not betray you..Adam is asking for a GUITAR. I don't know where he gets the idea of wanting to play guitar (Mr Bean cds did not have any of this, I checked one by one last night) but he expressed his intention quite effectively by showing the act of strumming it...pengsan. The other day at Toys' R Us..he saw a drum set and he wailed (very loudly) for it and I said no..very firmly and he settled for the Chuggington's repair station set, which was the initial intention of going there. Actually, he wanted the loop set but the said set was not available at IKANO and I have to brave the crowd and the horror of traffic to go all the way to Mid Valley for it...so I told him..if he could settle for the repair station, I will buy it..otherwise he'll have to go home empty handed..and of course the smart guy will agree..hehe.

And while touring the outdoor toys section, he was distracted by the swing and slide thing which costs thousand and of course..mommy is more willing to invest the thousand for that for Adam's education fund..sorry dear..of course you couldn't get your heart desire all the time.

And last night..we discussed about circumcision...haha..I guess daddy was pretty shocked when I told him Adam said he didn't want to be circumcisioned because it will cut off his birdie and it will cause him pain. I know he is 3 years 6 months 29 days old but I also don't know where he picked it up when the only grown up he is with are us ( I and my sis) and of course we do not discuss about that matter at all. I'm hoping (really hope)..the wet dream bit will come after daddy is around...I'm not sure how to discuss these things...cause for me Adam is still a baby..in my heart..he is the little boy. When did he grow up to talk about those things eh?

2010-10-27T20:31:00.003+08:00

My broad shoulder to cry on..my sounding board..my pillow of comfort and steel of strength. My little angel and my little muse...mommy miss you both so much. It really hurts to be apart and tearing my soul to pieces during hard times like now. I wish my courage and strength will be helping me to go through this trying period. I love you both and I'm doing this for us..not for me alone.

Hoping to be together again...although it's like ages away :(

Do You Need A Hug?

2010-10-25T15:20:00.004+08:00

Incik Hubby jgn sedih ye bila melihat gambar-gambar kami bersuka ria di Bukit Merah Water Park ni. Walaupun you kata Taiping akan hujan..sangkaan you meleset la sayang...yup, it did rain tapi kami decided untuk mandi-manda diwaktu pagi dimana Adam selepas itu tidur sehingga jam 8 malam kerana keletihan bermain air. Bangun pun sebab dia kata dia belum mandi and nak tengok kartun..hahaha..ada pula. tapi kembali tidur jam 10 malam. In which mommy drove back with a cramp leg (right leg yg selamanya tak okay since hari Adam lahir tu), sakit gigi yg amat sangat dan yg telah membuatkan mommy drove the car macam dilitar F1 sebab nak cepat sampai rumah. Yang juga membuatkan driver lain (lelaki) marah dengan mommy sebab mereka tak berjaya memotong kereta mommy. Sesungguhnya mommy penat, sakit gigi dan mengalami kejang kaki dan hanya berniat nak sampai cepat dirumah bukan nak tunjuk skil pemanduan yg dah sampai tahap F1 driver (Ain disebelah memegang erat tempat arm rest sebab kecut perut..hehehe).Ada banyak lagi gambar Adam bermain air dan enjoyed himself...bila rajin mommy upload okay. But the smile and happiness radiated from him beat all...walaupun Incik Hubby risau dan agak la 'bebel' tentang I penat dan keletihan nak drive balik...Adam's happiness is all that matter to me the most. Enjoy the pictures and the smile daddy!!

Am I Pregnant?

2010-10-21T19:20:00.002+08:00

Content takde kena mengena dengan title tapi ceritanya lebih kurang about this issue la. Not really sure if the word "issue' is the right word tapi tulah jadinya..

Saya rasa saya ni type yg susah nak terasa la...dalam erti kata lain, saya selamba je if orang me- 'laser' ngan saya...sebab saya ambil pendekatan..if tak layan, taklah kemana laser tu kan? Most of the time saya diam dan saya senyum walaupun ada kala pendapat org yg bersuara tak sama dengan pendapat saya...tapi setiap orang berhak atas pendapat masing-masing kan? Lain la if orang tersebut minta pendapat saya...itu pun saya tak boleh claim yg pendapat dia tak betul..

Satu je hal yg buat hati saya mengecik dengan serta merta...bila orang bertanya kenapa tak mau tambah anak...saya tak kisah sangat if yg bertanya tu kawan rapat, yg tahu susah senang saya..dan bertanya kerana ambil berat..tapi bila yang bertanya bersungguh-sungguh macam menjaga tepi seluar saya...hmmm...saya memang rasa sket menyampah. Bila ditanya, saya jawablah belum ada rezeki lagi...Insyaallah if Allah nk bagi, ada la nanti...tau apa orang yg bertanya tu cakap? "Eh awak..sekarang ni bukan zaman nak berserah pada rezeki aje..zaman ni kita kena usaha keras..baru la dapat.." Masyaallah..tersentap saya mendengar. Takkan la kita nak menidakkan kuasa Ilahi? Memanglah saya berusaha tapi if bukan rezeki saya lagi, siapa saya nak persoalkan?

Saya tak tertekan pun selama ni dengan pertanyaan orang..yelah, yg tak tahu mesti bertanya..tapi bila dah tahu..jgn la persoalkan sampai begitu sekali...jika awak yang bertanya tu berada ditempat saya? Apa agaknya yg awak akan rasa? Fikir dulu sebelum bercakap..bukan bercakap dulu baru nak berfikir.

Who Am I On The Inside?

2010-10-21T09:58:00.002+08:00

It's like having someone live inside me all right..haha..but kindda fun to do it...maybe I'm a superhero? (secretly)..

Okay..the first question is.. what is your favorite color?ehmmm..since my shirts and blouses (except for baju kurung) and pants are mostly in black..should I say black is my fave color? But I like blue, pink and brownish colors too? tapi kena choose one only..hmmm...crisis..

Okay..next question is, what would you do if you saw a younger kid getting picked on in a nearby playground? Haish..of course la I will beat the others to death...hehehe..kidding la..tak pasal la kan..I guess, this one sangat senang..of course we will not just ignore that kind of situation to hapen kan? Imagine if the younger kid is your own kid?hmmm...

Third question is, how do your friends describe you? Owh...pondering away...this one means I have to do another quiz of how my friends describe me la kan? Hehehe...it depends on what type of friends la juga..If it is a close friend, jawapannya maybe different from a social friends and friends yg I tak pernah jumpa (fellow bloggers and so on).Susah ni..

Next is, how would you describe yourself?...hahaha...I am a nice, good hearted, kind, beautiful, smart and brilliant...how's that?hehehe...sangat poyo ye? But I can choose only one and there are so many words I could use to describe myself..

Okay, move on to, What do you do for fun? I guess nowadays standard answer will be spending time with my family..going out with close friends and do things I love (When I have time la).

Last question: A huge midterm project that you forgot about is due tomorrow. You: Hahaha...ni tiap sem akan dihadapi ni...a last minute kind of person yang work best under pressure and trive in stressful situation..that's me..so boleh agak la my answer kan?hehehe... then, let's look at the analysed answer..jeng jeng jeng...

Jock
You love sports and tend to have a ball with you. Sometimes you can be forgetful if you have tons of practice. Just try to focus on school as you do on sports and you'll go far.

(tahan ketawa)...I don't want to be a JOCK...it is so lame and average kind of person....huhuhu...I want to be a superwoman..who can do lots of thing at one time...huhuhuhu...

p.s quiz taken from http://quizilla.teennick.com

2010-10-20T14:53:00.006+08:00

When I look at these pictures (Adam masih di kampung with my parents), I do regret of the time yg I rugi being away from him...the precious minutes and hours of his daily routines...

Selesai mesyuarat, ada task terbaru yang perlu cawangan I handle. Nak mengeluh penat rasanya boleh la kut dengan aktiviti yg tak putus dari awal bulan. My weekend is almost non exist dengan keadaan sekarang. Walaupun ramai yg kata at least hubby saya is not around so kurang la masalah..sebenarnya tidak. Hati sikecil juga perlu dijaga. Tambah dalam tempoh nk membesar ni..makin kurang perhatian dari I...daddy of course la is away. Saya cuba untuk positif..menerima sebagai tanggungjawab 'makan gaji' dan 'askar berkhidmat regardless in what weather or terrain'. Tapi beban tanggungjawab saya sebagai mommy dan daddy ni siapa pernah ambil tahu? Anak saya terbiar kerana melaksana tugas dan tuntutan kerja....therefore, keputusan saya nak berhenti rasanya adalah paling tepat. Before terjadi perkara yg boleh menyebabkan saya menyalahkan perkhidmatan...lebih baik saya undur diri. Lets those who are strong enough to face it teruskan usaha...saya boleh kuatkan hati untuk diri sendiri tapi untuk anak..saya tak sanggup. Saya tak nak kehilangan senyum di bibir anak saya..

Am I Normal Enough To Be Me?

2010-10-19T17:31:00.002+08:00

Are you normal? (ah well..I don't have tail sprouting from my rear end kan?..haha)But lets analyse the answer okay..

...Somewhat Abnormal (weeeeewooo...apakah?)

You do some things that are odd in the eyes of others, (ehm yeah..sometimes..admitedly yes and people will label me straight away as somewhat..pelik??) but nothing crazy, (definitely yes..normality is a bore don't you think?)and only if you enjoy it (Kita enjoyyyy..mestilah kan..what fun there is..). You spend your days doing what you love, although you could end up having a headache by the end of it.(Like what yeah??hmm...owh..ahah..) Whenever you try something new, you make sure it will stick, so that you can do it again whenever you want. (To sum it all, I'm not that absurdly pelik and abnormal la kan..hehehe...)

How Social Are you? (Even before doing it I know the answer...)

Lone Wolf
You totally love your personal space, and you prefer to have your alone time set to overdrive. You sometimes feel a bit lonely; but you get used to it. You should get some more friends, and open up a bit. Your so tense all the time and nobody likes to be around you. Open up, become the person you truly are! :)

Well, the answer almost hit home but I am not tense all the time (just ask my close friends) and they like (I guess since they still invite me for gatherings and events) to be around me. But yes, I do value my personal space...nobody get too close and I only open up to certain selected fews. Tapi ramai je yg macam tu kan?hehehe..

Okay..that's all for today's quiz...nak release beban kepala yg berat sebenarnya ni..hehehe..

Owh..the quizzes were taken from http://quizilla.teennick.com

My Little Chatter Is Away

2010-10-10T23:24:00.003+08:00

I'm missing my little muse, my bouncing, energetic little chatter already. Between heavy schedule and fighting with flu and cough..I managed to send Adam back to his Tok's house. He had been nagging me for weeks to go back to my parents' house but I am a bit tied up with few (huhu..if only few could be the right choice of word la..) commitments over here, therefore could only promise nothing until yesterday. He..as usual is very happy to be pampered and been given full attention by my parents..sigh, sigh..nampak sangat kurang kasih sayang mommy la tu.

The actual reason will be saya outstation for a week at Putrajaya covering the Putrajaya Forum. Since takde bibik nak saya heret untuk jaga Adam while I'm working..terpaksa la saya post dia ke kampung lagi. In which dia sangat la suka terlompat-lompat.

When I come back to the empty house..aduh..jiwa kacau...selalunya ada je comment or soalan cepu emas dari anak bujang sorang tu but when it is so quiet..rasa incomplete pula. Although I'm the type yg prefer quiet and tranquil nye suasana, bila takde suara anak..sunyi!!

Memang la if selagi boleh, I would prefer to have Adam berkepit with me anywhere and everywhere...mommy mana yg tak nak camtu kan? Mommy mana yg nak tinggalkan anak..hatta tinggalkan dengan atuk neneknya sendiri kan? Tapi Adam dah biasa macamtu since I habis pantang and started working...and of course, he is a little bit different from kids yg tak pernah berenggang from their parents. Macam mana beza tu let it be la kan...but one thing for sure..dia mudah faham when I cannot bawa dia sama...I only have to tell him. No crying or tantrum...alhamdulillah. Hakikat yg saya tak boleh tipu ialah saya rasa sedih every time saya terpaksa tinggalkan Adam...cumanya saya kuatkan hati..saya mencari rezeki untuk dia.

p.s.Daddy, mata adam dah okay..luka dh sembuh..just lebam mata belum hilang..mommy gurau dengan Adam tanya apa brand eye shadow dia coz long lasting..hahaha..jahat ye mommy ni..gurau gurau bawa bahagia kan?

GROWING PAINS

2010-10-06T14:57:00.003+08:00

When I received a phone call saying Adam injured himself by hitting a table..I was all shaken. Masya Allah..ujian apa lagi kali ni. Tarik nafas panjang-panjang and selawat, I drove back to see him. Sepanjang jalan, berdoa tak putus minta la cederanya tak serious...and trying to calm myself and drive safely Upon seeing me, terus menangis teresak-esak. I terus tested his vision an his eyes movement and tengok under the swollen lid tu takut terkena the iris and the eye ball..takut sangat...tangan saya menggeletar pegang dia dengan darah yg kept oozing out from the cut. Bila tengok dia okay and takde sign of cut dalam mata, I calmed him down and went back to office. Minggu ni saya sibuk dengan persiapan perangkaan untuk Ujian Kemahiran Menembak. Hati resah hanya Allah yg tahu...sebaik habis kerja, saya terus balik and bawa Adam to hospital. Alhamdulillah Dr said it is only external cut and no other injuries but should keep him under close observation for any sign of internal injury like vomitting, shaking and the eye ball becoming redder. So far pagi tadi nampak better..just the swollen lid dah jadi a bit bluish.

These pictures were taken before I drove him to hospital...sebab I said nak hantar gambar pada daddy, dia cooperated. Otherwise he refused flatly. I really hope Adam will get better and it is just a minor cut on the lid. I can't deal with the pressure...balik je, terus broke down in the toilet..crying my worry out. I can't let Adam see me crying, least he'll feel more sad and upset. Yeah, when you are alone..you gotta put a brave facade in front of people (maybe not necessarily) especially the kids most of the time. Though I am upset sometimes..I never cry in front of Adam. But I do talk to him and share with him of our situation so that he'll know of responsibilities.

p.s: Daddy, don't panic..we are good and okay. Insyaallah we'll go through this just fine. Only pray with us okay.

2010-10-01T09:35:00.004+08:00

Ada banyak perkara yg buat saya rasa down but let's not talk about it...last minute before hubby balik ke Congo, sempat dia bawa I and Adam ke Aquaria KLCC. The trip was ad-hoc sebenarnya and I come to think, bila buat plan last minute sure jadi..but bila plan beria berbulan-bulan..tak menjadi pulanye.So next time jangan buat plan awal-awal la..hehe...

So, we went there and enjoyed the whole thing and we even get to see feeding session for the fishes. If you all nk tengok feeding session ni, you have to go on Monday, Wednesday and Saturday..around 2.30-3.00 pm. Masa we all went there ada few school trips so a bit crowded...but after awhile..when the crowd thinned out..it was good to slowly walk and admiring such wonderful creatures. Nak cerita banyak dah malas..so layan gambar..ada lagi dalam kamera but sangat malas (read takde masa) nak trasfer..will do later.

Adam asyik melihat diver yg memberi makan ikan jenis Arapaima. Seriously sangat besar sebab baka Amazon.

Beautiful butterflies..tapi Adam sangat geli geleman bila sampai di section insects ni..haha.

Daddy and Adam.. I love you both so much.

From Far far away mind

2010-09-17T18:00:00.003+08:00

Been awhile since the last post. However, I do keep my FB updated. Just to find the mood to write is a bit hard. Owh, I could ramble and babble bout few things but my mind seem to be blocked (another case of block-a-blog-syndrome due to excessive consumption of Raya delicacies). I'm in my last straw of Raya holiday (sadly it does not last forever) and after few consideration, alteration, cancellation..we are still at my parents' house. I spent 2 days of Hari Raya with husband and In Laws. Of course touring all (maybe not all..just an exaggeration from my part..haha) relatives from hubby's side. Then, we drove back to Taiping for a short break before we continued the journey to Kedah. We spent 2 days at Alor Setar and although I still didn't get the chance to eat the so sedap bihun sup at Hutan Kampung nor Laksa Teluk Kechai, we got to eat the most fab BBQ. Of course, been kipased by hubby but marinated by Makcik Nurul, it were from our own dapur la kan. But we (hubby and I collaborated) cooked pasta and spag bol for breakfast hokay...and superbly licked and finished in a record time (kan kan kan hubby?).

The remaining days are spent at Taiping...lazying and recuperating (hubby demam so we HAVE TO cancell the sooo awaited trips..hukhukhuk). Takpe, as I said to hubby, the happiness of holidaying is not that much compared to the happiness of seeing him back to good health. We could still go next time he comes back for holiday (April nun..hehe)..and he could give the money intended for the holidaying to me to use (HAHAHA). Taiping is as usual..raining here and there so the laziness is soooo engulfing me (malas nak back to work).

Raya pictures are still in my Nikon and still rasa lazyyyyzzzzzz to upload. I'll just share few pics from my sisters hp la ye. And since dari HP maka quality agak malap sket (Sorry Awa..hehehe).

Maybe not too late for me and family to wish all muslims, family and friends, Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. We ask for forgiveness for any wrong doing and any mistake we intentionally and unintentionally made. May your forgiveness will be rewarded by Allah Subhanahu Wataala.

Bizarre ramblings to cure my homesickness

2010-09-06T10:36:00.003+08:00

Hari minggu lepas I balik Klang with Adam. Banyak betul persoalan dia sebelum dia terlelap. Itu pun masih boleh cakap, "Eh, Adam tertidur la pula mommy". Although dia tahu we were going back to umah atuk..still ayat fave dia sejak 2 minggu ni popped up lagi. "Kita nak pergi airport amek daddy eh mommy?". Belum lagi sayang weh. Daddy sampai hari selasa, Insyaallah. So, ulang la procedure kira jari.

Hari hubby sampai I rasa nak bawa camera la..so I boleh share camane gaya Adam jumpa daddy..hehehe.

Yang kureng sket, tekak dah start perit dari semalam. Since 'cuti' puasa (huh..jenuh la nak membayornye nanti) maka bergelen air mineral I minum. Kat pejabat tinggal I je (anak buah sorang duty harini) so every 5 mins minum air so that badan always hydrate dan supaya tak demam la harapnya.

Insyaallah awal pagi ni (around jam 12 tengahari waktu Malaysia), Hubby bertolak dari Airport di Kinshasha. Connecting flight di Dubai and terus ke KLIA. If takde delay or apa-apa aral, we'll meet at the airport tomorrow evening.

Semalam I tinggalkan Adam di Klang. Beramai dengan cousins dia. Berat juga hati nak tinggal tapi kesiankan atuk nenek yg lama tak jumpa dia so I kuatkan semangat drive balik sorang malam tadi. Malam tadi memang susah la nk lelap mata. Memang bila Adam takde, I susah la nk tidur (mengada ye).

Jalan raya dah start lengang sket walaupun masih lagi banyak kereta (ehmm..betulkah ayat nih?) yelah, if tak beratur panjang tunggu traffic light kira dah kurang la jumlah kereta kan? So, I guess ramai yg dah memulakan perjalanan balik kampung. Kisah my Ibu kat rumah pula, tengah feeling feeling sebabnya anak-anak dia yg ramai semuanya balik malam raya. Tolak I la sebab turn rumah mentua tahun ni. Tinggal adik bongsu kitaorang je yg nk tolong mengemas rumah (itupun if dia tolong la). Lagi sedih dia sebab the only cucu yg ada pun cuma akan balik raya ketiga. Ayah lagi lawak..boleh lupa (atau buat-buat lupa ayah ni?hehehe) yg anak sulungnye dan cucu tunggalnye (so far) tak balik beraya di kampung tahun ni.

Sedih juga le tak dapat sambut raya pertama dengan parents dan adik beradik sendiri tapi kena adil dalam berkongsi kasih...mak mentua saya juga sedang bersedih sebab ni la raya pertama tanpa arwah nenek. I think yang excited maybe Adam la..haha..sibuk dengan shopping baju dia nak raya sampailah dia nk pergi sembahang raya (keep on reminding me that!!) dan hubby (sebab tak perlu bersedih diperantauan makan ubi kayu ganti lemang dan rendang..gehgehgeh).

2010-09-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

Spag is his all time fav. Nasi sangat susah nak telan..susah tekak western ni.

I had bought Adam's clothes earlier (first week of Ramadhan I think) and Tok is finalizing his Baju Melayu. By right, preparation for him should had completed. But when I tried his pants again today before I wash it for him to wear on Hari Raya...to my surprise and dismay, the pants seem to shrink!!!!That was the pants I bought only last week!! And here I thought he is not growing since he is very choosy when it comes to food. So, again, we have to hunt for his pants today (and since it is week before Raya, what choice do we have left?). I can't just wait until daddy comes back since we have to shop for daddy's things too and mommy's.
So he has, like..5 pants altogether now? Daddy,please don't be mad as we are spending your money outrageously but I am certain you know how it is to shop with Adam on tow and with Ain and me only to handle him and the shopping. We have to choose the easiest shop to go and the first that came to sight. No matter what brand right?
So although I applied the tips of buying clothes for growing up kids..Adam's still outgrown his. Not to mention shoes..(owh..headache!!). Now he is wearing a 4-5 years old kid's pants and shirt, depending on the brand. I guess when he is 5 year old, maybe he'll be wearing 6-7 year old kid's pants and shirt la??
Well okay..I'm not complaining (alhamdulillah for his growth although he seems to be eating next to nothing) but is amaze at his growth spurt..He is not getting any chubbier but you can bet getting higher each day. My little Adam is not so little anymore.

2010-09-03T10:33:00.002+08:00

It's contagious..the merriment, the upbeat feelings, the whole excitement of celebrating Eid Mubarrak soon. Muslims and Non Muslims alike, are busy with shopping. The shopping complexes are abuzz with the spirit (income) of Eid Mubarrak. Here and there we could always find something that associate with the celebration. Radio stations are also contributing the excitement by playing the Raya songs. You can't tune to the channels not wishing to hear Raya song...unless you choose other non mainstream channels la.

Maybe I'm excited over something totally non related with Raya. How come? It comes when I have to work during Hari Raya and the second Hari Raya as well. So, those who are staying overseas and also have to work during the Eid..well, I'm in Malaysia and I also have to work on that days. It doesn't matter of where you are right? But the responsibility come first. If I have to work on that particular days, so be it then.

I'm just lucky, my In Laws are from Selangor so I could still celebrate it after work...okay..those staying overseas, I take back my word since I still have families around here so we are not alone and wetting each other shoulders while listening to the takbir.

I'm excited over hubby's arrival. Soon...very soon. Adam wakes up everyday asking to go to the airport to fetch daddy and I have to go over the routine of counting my fingers with him, sometimes at 2 am. Luckily the counting is very short and he is asleep by the time I finished counting.

Of course, Raya or not, everyday's life must keep on moving. Business, transaction, services and every single aspects of life must go on. So, those who are on leave to celebrate it, should feel lucky to get the opportunity while others who are left behind continue doing the jobs so that life is still cycling around. Appreciate those who stay behind while you are enjoying the lemangs, ketupats and whatnot.

Of course it will goes without saying, please be human with feelings while you are on the road. Drive carefully and patiently. Stop whenever you fell tired and sleepy as those are the causes of a tragedy.

I'm not going to wish Happy Eid Mubarrak just yet. Insyaallah soon but I do wish everyone a safe journey back. Happy Balik Kampung!!.

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN MALAYSIA YG KE 53

2010-08-31T07:32:00.002+08:00

I would think my parents memang patriotik. Bendera Malaysia bukan setakat dipasang dibulan Merdeka aje but sepanjang tahun. Rasanya semangat tu ada kena mengena dengan pengalaman mereka yg lahir di circa 50-an. Samada they are still young or sudah berusia ketika negara kita mendapat Kemerdekaan sendiri, kehangatan semangat tu masih ada.

Saya terasa juga ingin sertai perarakan di Stadium Bukit Jalil pagi ni, bawa Adam menghayati nilai Merdeka yg diselit dalam ritual perbarisan. Mungkin orang lain punya interpretasi yg berbeza but bagi saya, apabila KKU (Kawalan Kehormatan Utama) berjalan masuk, berhenti dan berbaris menanti Pemimpin Negara, ianya satu disiplin yg melambangkan a certain degree of discipline semasa Pemimpin-pemimpin terdahulu berusaha mendapatkan kemerdekaan untuk Malaysia. Tapi, Adam, being anak zaman yg penuh kesenangan, memang susah diurus bila berada di ruang tertutup yg panas dan sesak. The second best bagi saya ialah bersila didepan tv seawal bangun sahur pagi ini untuk menonton lintas langsung dari TV3. Selalunya bila cuti, saya lebih suka tidur merehatkan badan dari berjaga menonton tv tapi I guess, sebab nak rasa juga meriahnya kita sambut merdeka..sanggup jugalah.

Jadi, for this post, saya dedikasikan untuk jerih payah golongan yg terdahulu, and also the unsung heroes and heroins yg membolehkan kita menikmati erti merdeka. Tanpa mereka, tak mungkin kita dapat menikmati kemajuan, kemerdekaan dan pembangunan hari ni.

For hubby yang jauh bertugas di bumi Congo, saya pasti dia lebih merasai betapa nikmatnya merdeka di negara kita bila berada disana.

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI KEMERDEKAAN NEGARA YG KE-53. SEMOGA KEDAMAIAN DAN KEAMANAN YG KITA KECAPI SEKARANG AKAN BERKEKALAN SELAMANYA. INSYAALLAH.

2010-08-30T09:27:00.002+08:00

Dari ceramah Seni Keibubapaan yg saya pernah hadiri, penceramah memberitahu anak-anak yg masih lembut pemikiran dan emosinya tidak boleh diherdik, dibentak, dicaci maki dan dipanggil dengan nama panggilan yg tidak elok. Seeloknya, anak-anak yg masih kecil ini ditegur dengan nada yg tidak terlalu tinggi dan tidak terlalu rendah, tidak dengan suara yg kuat menggegar dan herdikan yg boleh merosak emosi dalamannya tetapi cukup sekadar anak tadi faham yg perbuatan yg salah tidak boleh dilakukan dan dicontohi.

Saya cuba praktikkan dalam mendidik Adam. Saya menahan baran saya demi kerana jiwa Adam yg mahu saya pelihara agar dia saya didik dengan sempurna. Tapi pagi tadi saya gagal mengawal kemarahan saya. Ingatan yg berkali-kali saya sematkan dalam otak saya gagal menahan kemarahan saya padanya. Adam saya marahi kerana 'sembunyikan' bowler hat saya didalam almari. Bukan kerana saya gagal mencarinya yg membuatkan saya marah tapi kelewatan saya ke pejabat yg menyebabkan kemarahan saya gagal dikawal.

Sayu hati saya bila melihat air mata yg bergenang dihujung matanya. Walaupun sempat saya memujuk dia dan mendengar ketawanya kembali, hakikatnya, paginya yg bermula dengan indah telah tercemar dengan kemarahan saya. Maafkan Mommy ye Adam. If only I could reverse the time, I would..even if it costs me. Hati saya sangat sedih hari ini.

2010-08-27T08:55:00.002+08:00

Kat pejabat I pagi-pagi before we start with our work, we have tadarus session sepanjang Ramadhan ni. But then since I had been 'on permissable excuse' for quite awhile (aduhai nak ganti jenuh la), dah ter miss la banyak verses. And bila dah 'sihat' semula, pagi-pagi ada mesyuarat luar la pula. Hmmm, rugi juga la rasa kan sebab by doing it then we could check our reading. So, I have to read alone at home (when I am not too sleepy la). But I will try to join jugaklah rasanya when the work dah settle sket and hopefully there will be no meeting in the morning la lagi.

This week we are going to head back to Taiping. Since I'm working at KL makanya takde la cuti Nuzul Al-Quran like few states. Ayah offer to racun the weeds (jungle) at our house at Lumut. So, all the jungle will dissappear menjelang Raya. I'm waiting for hubby to come back to start equipting the house with electricity and few necessities. If terasa teringin nk holiday ke Lumut, at least tak payah we all sewa hotel kan. Also, segan juga le dengan jiran tepi yg jarang balik beraya ke kampung. Bila org datang beraya ke rumah dia nampak la bezanya landscape yg comel tu dengan hutan simpan kat rumah saya..wahaha. Definitely hari sabtu will be spent at Lumut, cleaning up the house. Takpelah..after raya at least boleh basuh rumah and pasangkan lampu..nampak la tak macam rumah tinggal terbiar sangat kan.

Cerita lain, cuti raya masih belum confirm. Susahnya la bila bertugas di unit. Masa di training centers memang confirm la cuti dapat seminggu...and for sem break, merasa juga la cuti walaupun tak sepanjang student. Tokwan pun dah merungut cucu yg sulung ni jarang balik kampung dah sekarang. Lain tempat kerja, lain budayanya. Terpaksa la ikut demi tugas walaupun dalam jiwa ni rasa kesal. Tokwan, Ibu dan Ayah bukan semakin muda...dan tak tahu selama mana diaorang dengan kita lagi? Saya takut nanti saya menyesal sebab kurang luangkan masa dengan mereka yg saya sayang. Hmmm...emo la pula kan.

Owh, for en hubby, baju raya saya dah amek but I will email tu you la ye...karang nanti ada yg kata saya nk menunjuk pula..wahahaha..

Bila Berdua..

2010-08-25T10:36:00.002+08:00

...dengan Adam di rumah because my sis and her friend (who stay with us while hubby is away) are having iftar at Tropicana this evening, nak berbuka apa ye? I thought of tagging along but the buffet price for iftar is RM 75 per person and of course kid under 4 year eat for free (banyak mana pun la budak-budak nk makan kan?). Hmmm...masih berfikir-fikir lagi. If hubby is around (huhu..again) then it may be worth it but for me? Makan nasi lemak sebungkus pun tak habis...camane la nak mkan sampai berbaloi the price I got to pay tu kan? Masih lagi berkira-kira nak pergi atau tak.

Or we might order pizza and have it delivered to our door step..ngeee..tak payah la nak meredah traffic di waktu orang sibuk balik pejabat nak berbuka tu kan? Nice juga kan?

Since my migrane and gastric from yesterday masih hangat di kepala dan perut...to endure stressful journey is not adviseable. Mata dan muka masih macam chicken ball yg I masak for Adam semalam...bengkak, bulat dan hodoh...I mean my eyes and face bukan chicken ball tu.

Saya teringin makan something yg soupy, not too hot (for my gastric) and sour...like mee celup yg sedap di PD...owh, I'm not carrying by any mean. Macamana? Takkan nak drive to PD and come back for a bowl of soup noddle? Hmmm...

2010-08-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm watching Fast and Furious with bleary eyes...ngantuk dah tapi bila baring tak juga nak lelap. Adam dah conquer satu katil tu..dah siap buat satu pusingan pun. Esok another day for another week. I am hoping for a less busy and tiring week sebab ada banyak perkara that I need to concerntrate on and selesaikan.

I thought esok juga nak pergi ambil baju raya yg ditempah tu..maybe I'll post the picture for hubby's sake. If dia tak approve, ehem..suka le saya minta satu lagi..hehe.

Owh, hajat nak makan nasi briyani di JM Nasi Briyani belum tertunai. I told my sis (dia yg beria sangat nk makan sebenarnya, terus berjangkit kat I) that we have to wait until hubby sampai.

Hajatnya masa berbuka tadi la nak makan sebab we all went to Giant KD coz beli barang-barang keperluan dapur yg dah habis..tapi besar-besar kat depan kedai tu terpampang SOLD OUT..wahaha..macam jual gula pula ye.

Masa pusing-pusing cari barang, jeling-jeling juga pada bahan-bahan untuk biskut raya...tapi dah tentu la takkan siap walau satu bancuhan pun..uhuks. Tahun ni memang 100% tempah biskut raya. My mom pun dah tak larat nak menunggu membakar biskut dah. Dah adik-adik perempuan I pun balik kg sehari sebelum raya, mana sempat kan?

Me think tahun ni la persiapan paling simple sekali dalam sejarah hidup being married. Takpelah, kena berjimat..lagipun ada big plan yg perlu ongkos yg banyak nanti..so, kena la start dari sekarang...ehem, ehem.

p.s. bila renung wajah adam yg sedang tidur, rasa betapa cepat masa berlalu..dah besar anak kami...and I miss adam yg dulu..huhuhu.

2010-08-20T10:13:00.004+08:00

I am the type yg cepat bosan dengan sesuatu yg sama..jadi saya rasa macam nk tukar je layout blog saya ni. Owh, bukan nak tukar life partner saya ye...nauzubillah dijauhkan perasaan tu. But masa tidak mengizinkan so far. Maybe after the Eid la kut. Saya tak serajin kawan-kawan yg lain ataupun adik kecik saya yg design their blogs one by one..saya hanya rajin tukar guna layout percuma sedia ada sahaja (pemalas ye).

In the previous entry saya ada cerita pasal baju raya Adam dan hubby yg dah siap sedia..hubby pakai yg last 2 years but I did pesan sepasang lagi but kena tunggu dia balik for sizing..beli yg ready made je la this year. Mine pula..dah di tempah semalam...hehe..sempat lagi. Ready made juga tapi disebabkan saya tak bawa ongkos yg cukup, jadinya saya reserve dulu la baju tu.

In this entry sebenarnya saya nak cerita my experience being 'single-with-son-because-hubby-is-away'. Tapi mukadimah dh bercampur rojak...maaflah ye.

I dah mula notice that people will look at me with certain emotion painted on their face when they see me with Adam and my sis or just Adam and me buka puasa, beli barang keperluan or even jalan-jalan. At first dulu I thought it is just a look..yelah, dah masing-masing ada mata kan and looking is absolutely normal la. Tapi yesterday was the pinaccle la..ada one family yg duduk across our table at Kenny Rogers ni memang dari awal kitaorang masuk sampai la duduk, order, makan, bawa Adam ke toilet, sampai la bayar bil...pandang dan berbisik-bisik. Yang tak tahan sampai muncung-muncung mulut si isteri ni bercerita dengan suami sambil pandang-pandang at our table. Nak kata our table manners are poor..tak la juga. Before this happened juga masa berbuka di Johnny. I think they must speculate macam-macam kan?hahaha. Nasib la.

2010-08-19T11:10:00.002+08:00

In real life kan..ada tak orang yang tak pernah bermasalah? tak pernah dimarahi oleh sesiapa? sentiasa disayangi oleh semua orang yg kenal dan baru kenal? tak pernah ada sebab untuk marah-marah sesiapa sebab semua orang are so nice to her or him? tak pernah rasa kena two timings by others..to sum it all, orang yg ada perfect life dan kerjaya? dan tak pernah dicemburui oleh sesiapa pun.

If ada la orang yg ada life macamni..agak-agaknya apa strategy hidup dia ye? dan macamana rhyme kehidupan seharian dia?

Kadang-kadang I do wish to be this type of person tapi bila fikir sket lagi, rasa macam too good to be true..sebab apa? sebab saya sendiri rasanya belum sempurna pada tanggungjawab saya sebagai hambaNYA...

But sometimes bila kena marah disebabkan perkara 'bodoh' yg disebabkan oleh orang lain..rasa nak juga rasa jadi seperti manusia perfect ni kn? Rasa low betul bila pagi-pagi dapat 'semburan' amarah akibat orang lain yg menyampaikan berita atau maklumat yg tidak tepat pada kita. Sebab tu bila saya diberi maklumat, saya suka double check. Maksudnya, saya akan tanya sekali lagi apa maklumatnya dan dari siapa maklumat tersebut datang? Kemudian saya akan check semula dengan pihak pertama yg menyalurkan maklumat tersebut samada betul atau tak. Ada masa (seperti pagi yg malang ni la), saya tak sempat check dengan first party tentang kesahihan maklumat tersebut..jadinya, teruslah saya mengadap KS saya dengan maklumat yg diterima dari SO3 yg datang ke pejabat saya pagi-pagi menyampaikan khabar. Dan dengan maklumat tersebutlah, saya dimarahi pagi-pagi. Yang saya geram dan terkilan, saya dimarahi bukan kerana kesilapan saya tapi kesilapan SO3 tadi dalam menyampaikan maklumat yg tepat. Saya pernah menjadi SO3 sebelum menjadi SO2..dan saya sendiri akan check berulang kali tentang sesuatu sebelum saya menyampaikan pada SO2 saya. Dan sekiranya saya yg buat kesilapan...saya akan meminta maaf.

Dalam bekerja, saya rasa untuk menganiaya orang lain, adalah sangat tidak wajar... dan saya dapati budaya ni memang tak dapat dielakkan di mana-mana tempat kerja. Kenapa kita tidak bekerja dengan ikhlas tanpa niat untuk menjatuhkan orang lain????

2010-08-18T09:48:00.002+08:00

Very early this morning, while preparing his clothes, he asked one question,

Adam: Mommy, dulu mommy buang adam dalam tong sampah tak?

I: Masyaallah, mana ada sayang...I love you so much..takkan mommy buat macam tu.Kenapa Adam cakap macam ni?

Adam: Tu baby dalam tv tu..mommy dia buang dia..mommy dia tak sayang dia ye?

I: Mungkin la..

Adam: Mommy tak buang Adam kan? (sambil kerut kening)

I: Takkan la...(and I hug him to comfort).

Aduhai anak...he was watching MHI and they talked about morning news...all the while Adam was watching and listening. And I sent him off after I make sure he understand that his presence in our live is very important and that we love him so much. Huhuhu...

2010-08-16T14:17:00.002+08:00

Today is the 6th day of Ramadhan..alhamdulillah. Walaupun dah 'ponteng' tapi hakikatnya, saya tetap berpuasa. Sebab perasaan malu nak makan di pejabat walaupun ada lesen untuk makan dibulan puasa. Therefore bila terhidu bau nasi lemak dari pejabat sebelah (yg confirmed penghuninya semua lelaki), hati saya terdetik..hmm..ruginya la bila berpeluang berpuasa penuh tapi tak ditunaikan.

Bulan Ramadhan kali ni ada banyak beza from last year. Of course, last year we were still at PD..enjoying slow and easy life. But this year sudah menyambut di KL and without hubby tersayang pulanya. Tapi cabaran dan dugaan rasanya makin bertambah. Dengan tugas, rakan sekerja, boss dan juga fellow drivers on the road. Kadang2 dalam hati saya berkata..if pagi2 tak maki hamun driver dijalan, maybe saya akan lebih ceria dan bersemangat ditempat kerja. Saya telah mencuba dengan gigih untuk tolerate tapi makin saya tolerate..saya rasa makin kurang didikan sesetengah driver di Malaysia ni...of course di KL la since saya menetap disini.

Also, the accident rate yg naik mencanak tu bukan sebab element lain tapi kerana sikap manusia sendiri...wallahualam.

Dibulan Ramadhan ni juga kesabaran diuji...dan saya yang selalu fail bab mengurus kemarahan ni boleh rasakan yang saya sedang bekerja keras menahan nafsu amarah apabila sesuatu perkara yg menaikkan kemarahan saya berlaku. But, I'm just a human being..ada kala terlepas juga and hopefully pihak yg dimarahi tu berfikir sebelum menghukum...kenapa anda dimarahi? Adakah wajar anda dimarahi?

Anyway, I do hope, at the end of the day...to go back to my home..and to be with Adam. Penat lelah bertambah lagi bila di rumah melayan si kecil yg banyak tanya tu..but selagi terdaya, saya akan tetap melayan keletah dia. Hilang duka dan hilang lara pada yg tiada...

2010-08-13T18:18:00.002+08:00

I have to agree that a mom will do anything to make her kid happy (daddy too if he is around, I'm sure). No matter how tired (veerrrryyyy tired in my case), sleepy and busy. Macam juggler circus Royal London (wah..nonetheless la) dah jadinya myself last few weeks. If cerita dengan orang pun surely orang geleng kepala. Well, manalah tau yang I will not given any leave after I came back from the course. Since banyak hal yg nak saya selesaikan, saya punya la berharap boss saya dapat memahami keperluan saya minta cuti...tapi menurut dia, saya lebih diperlukan untuk bekerja...masalah saya yg tak settle tu harus diletak ketepi dan diselesaikan kemudian. Hmmm...harus la saya sangat terasa hati kan? Lebih-lebih lagi semua urusan tu takkan selesai hinggalah saya sendiri yg selesaikannya...but, apa pun..pernah dulu masa saya mula-mula masuk askar, ada sorang pegawai ni ingatkan saya, life sebagai askar tak semudah yg dilihat...nampak macam tenang aje on the surface..tapi arus dibawah yg calang-calang dasyat tu..salah dayung boleh hanyut. Jadi, walaupun dalam kepala saya ni berserabut dengan macam-macam hal...saya tetap melayan jiwa anak saya di Cameron Highland. Setelah ditinggalkan mommy yg berkursus dan daddy yg bertugas jauh langkah benua, yang menghiburkan dia..yg berkongsi kasih sayang..hanya tok, tokwan, uncle dan auntie dia aje...so, saya will regret if kesibukan saya jadi halangan untuk we spend time together. The most important thing for me is the happiness and laughter from him..anak kesayangan kami. Walaupun sekejap aje tapi alhamdulillah...he enjoyed the time we had. Insyaallah when daddy comes back, we will go for extended holiday lagi.

Nota buat Hubby

2010-08-12T11:17:00.002+08:00

The distance is so great, sometimes the connectivity and communication are impossible. Because of the time difference between the two continents, the communication is harder. The loneliness is great and the sadness is unavoidable. But our love simply follow you wherever you go and our prayer is always with you whenever you go. Don't be sad my dear hubby...think of those beautiful things we have done together when you feel you are all alone. Think of the sacrifices you had made for you to be there.

Don't be sad when you didn't get to talk to me because your voice is always in my heart. My love for you is still as great as before. Don't be sad okay sayang.

2010-08-11T11:05:00.002+08:00

Firstly, I would like to take this opportunity to wish Selamat Berpuasa dan Selamat Menjalani Ibadah di bulan yg mulia ni. For those yg bekerja, kena la maintain productivity walaupun penat menahan lapar dan dahaga (saya mengingatkan diri sendiri juga sebenarnya).

Waktu pejabat untuk sepanjang Ramdhan juga ada sedikit perubahan..in which bagus untuk golongan Isteri yg bekerja. I am not sure dengan tempat lain but we are allow to go back at 1530H everyday except on Friday je balik jam 1600. Sempat la if nak sediakan juadah berbuka sendiri. Tahun ni tahun pertama saya dan family sambut Ramadhan di KL..dan tahun di KL tanpa hubby. Rasa agak suram juga tapi saya redha. Hubby disana lebih daif menyambut Ramadhan dengan juadah berbuka yg saya yakin juga ala kadar.

Just kami waiting for hubby to come back next month...tak sabar rasanya.

Owh, our brief family trip to Cameron Highland punya entry nanti saya post ye..gambar dari camera saya belum lagi di upload kedalam laptop. Saya memang sibuk sangat kebelakangan ni..memang tak cukup kaki tangan nak handle kerja, anak, urusan seharian dan hal-hal yg datang bersama setiap hari yg dilalui. Maybe in few months semuanya akan kembali under control..harapnya la.

2010-08-03T18:41:00.002+08:00

Hari ni I made the first step...rasa something heavy when I did that..and I never thought I could feel like what I felt this evening. A realization of, my boy dah besar rupanya...and I am letting go of him when I registered his name to the pre-school...seriously emo kan? I don't know if anyone would feel the same but itu la yg saya rasa. Masa isi form pulanya..emo masa sendiri when isi column waris yg boleh dihubungi...usually nama daddy la yg tertulis kan..but now, hanya nama mommy sorang aje...seriously my hormone is haywired.

So, next year Adam will go to school...and although I would prefer the International school yg dekat rumah, they don't have place for a 4 years old kiddie...and Smart Reader is way out of my jalan to pejabat. Lagipun, daddy punya choice Genius Aulad ni. Our intention is to instill good basis of Islamic Education for him, plus a good command of English as well as Bahasa. I made a sneak peek masa pergi ke sana tadi and yes, the teacher taught the kiddie in English..even the doa. Hopefully Adam will like his school.

And I am still bargaining with time...kepala saya penat berfikir dan saya rasa letih nak berperasaan...banyak yg saya perlu uruskan...rasa macam nk fotostate je badan ni so that boleh handle all things at one time. Dan saya kesian pula nak mengadu pada hubby...kesian if dia susah hati.

2010-08-02T20:12:00.005+08:00

Sila abaikan eye bag yg sangat huduh itu..huhu..

Vocabulary budak dalam gambar ni dah bertambah...hehehe..you just can't win.

Hari ni dah hampir settle urusan yg tertangguh disebabkan saya berkursus. Balik Taiping weekend lepas pun banyak selesaikan urusan dibank...payment kereta (yg 2 buah tu)..nasib baik sebuah lagi dah habis bayar, payment bills...penat penat..sampaikan Ibu yg menemani saya pun mengadu penat melihat saya berkejar kesana sini. Apa nak buat kan? Anak ibu terpaksa handle tugas suami dan isteri, mommy dan daddy sekaligus sekarang ni. Just I am grateful it is only for a year...just imagine wanita yg betul-betul single mother yg buat semua tu for life?? Saya kagum.

Lagi..kain baju melayu Adam pun dah siap dibeli. Untungnya walau last minute pun, my mom yg buatkan so tak kisah sangat. Sebab baju melayu Daddy tak sempat beli (Walaupun pakcik yg selalu buatkan baju melayu hubby still terima hubby nye tempahan tak kira bape lewat pun)...I belikan warna yg sama dengan baju raya 2 tahun lepas..Daddy recycle baju la nampaknya tahun ni...takpelah, tahun depan buat yg baru ye. Pakaian Adam yg lain pun I dah siap beli..so that I don't have to wade throng of crowd masa Ramadhan nanti.

Attitude saya yg laisadical ni rasanya dah berubah kembali ke zaman single dulu. When semuanya kena handle sendiri. Bezanya tanggungjawab saya bertambah dengan Adam dlm hidup kami sekarang ni. Tak susah dengan support from family tapi sukar...banyak hal yang menyebabkan saya rasa tak sabar nak tunggu hubby balik and be with us again.

2010-07-27T16:27:00.002+08:00

We have been together like..5++ glorious years, and yet he has issues with me watching movie without him. Bukan dia menghalang but he feels left behind..sort of la..haha. So, bila hubby called and I was at the cinema, he was like, "Owh..tengok movie tak ajak"...and my response was, "Ajak pun dapat balik ke?".

I know he is missing us, and the civilized world since dia dah terperuk kat desa ku yg terpencil di Sud Kivu tu...and nothing we could do to help him ease off his wariness...sorry my dear. I think the only thing that cheer him up is the sceduled patrol he has to do...kesian hubby saya tu.

And since my course is going to finish soon (alhamdulillah) and puasa is just around the corner..I know there are so many thing he is going to miss...especially my cooking la sebab usually I will cook (unless I'm not well) throughout Ramadhan...hehehe..perasan kejap.

But the feeling is mutual..nothing seem right without hubby. I'm not worry about how to pay the bills and whatnot but the comforting presence of him itself yg matter. The only person who could understand me, who would listen without prejudice and who would advise with the sincerest heart..as much as you miss us dear, we miss you all the same.

p.s I'm counting the day to see Adam now.